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Codslut's pinned post has a conversation detailing that she was both in therapy, attending a VA support group, and left via a dependency discharge which means she left duty to care for an immediate family member, one she claimed she was now caring for 24/7.

As someone healthcare-adjacent, 24/7 care is no joke and would more than likely have involved professional home care from a visiting/home nurse, etc.

Sheheal claimed to have combed through codslut's posts (you can see evidence of her liking a ton of codslut's old posts) and missed this key fact? this quote in her latest post "I will protect these people with my life, even at the cost of my own reputation" also reeks of centering herself instead of an actual grieving family.

looking back, all her posts highlight absolutely the wrong thing

"And now people can’t get their questions answered anymore (probably a lot in her inbox/drafts sitting there) or learn or interact with her because she left the internet"

???????????

fuck me for bothering to type this all out but if law enforcement is actually involved which sheheal claimed there was - she herself is risking her livelihood, felony prosecution/jailtime, possibly anywhere from $10k-100k in fines, not just her reputation - as HIPAA law violations protecting patient confidentiality ARE fuck around and find out immediately situations

Posting this so everyone can see it.

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wait so are you saying you and bunny had very little contact/direct verification from sheheal throughout this in the first place?

I assumed you both were so passionate because you got private verification from her re: giving family info out to only trusted people?

neither of you got that??? what

Don't get me wrong, we got some 'evidence', that now looking back is surprisingly easy to poke holes in/disprove, which is why we're so fucking upset.

Speaking for myself, I got a couple screenshots from sheheal in dm where she was showing the last conversation codslut allegedly had with her aunt, which sheheal got 'from the aunt herself', and that aunt was, allegedly, driving out to check on Myka and even called in a wellness check on her with the local police.

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Right, so I have a question with everything that fucking went down

At what point do we draw the line between "I do not think this fits the character/I do not like how the character has been constructed" vs "I hate this character because they're black, or a poc, or a minority"?

Because I've SEEN people in the screenshot post comment that if you do not include gaz, then there's racism in there. But if I do not see the text blurb, or prompt or whatever fit any given character, then is that racism? And if I have to include the character if the opposite is racism, then wouldn't that be more inappropriate? Since I'd be including them out of obligation than a genuine interest/adoration/appropriateness of the character?

Because I'm not really concerned about all this drama that went down. Except maybe for myka being alive. But this has constantly been on my mind. So far I've believed that as long as I remain fair with what I like or dislike in a character, WITHOUT basing it on colour, then that's alright, like that's been my logic, and it made sense for me? But from what a few people have commented, it seems like whenever I do not include gaz (leave apart excluding him from t141 stuff, that's clear cut racism for me, because why include everyone else except a core member of the team when it says tf141) then it becomes racist?

Help me understand this, or atleast let me know who I can send an ask to that explains this.

Honestly, I don't know how to explain it myself or how to word my thoughts on the matter.

I've been struggling with that in the last couple of hours as I consider the myka situation. She said she didn't mean for her first post to be racist and I personally believed her, but she could be lying, and then that makes me a dumbass who couldn't see through it.

I think, maybe, at the end of the day, it all comes down to intent? But it's so easy to lie about what one's intent is... that can we really believe anyone who claims something isn't meant to be racist?

But then again there are also instances that are so obvious it hurts... Like a blog that never posts anything with Gaz. Or a blog that purposefully posts König (or another character) as part of the 141 rather than Gaz.

But in a situation like this, where, in my opinion, there were other factors that made it... I don't know, less obvious? It kinda muddled my opinion and thought process on that. Maybe it was me being gullible and wanting to believe that it wasn't erasure.

I frankly don't know what to say or think. I appreciate the food for thought because I truly don't know how to answer this...

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pardon me again but I find it odd that you and bunny's original apologies and current new reblog of fulltacs' post seem like you guys worked on it together/incredibly similar. I mean that's fine I guess but is that not something you want to mention?

I'm honestly feeling betrayed and confused because I was very supportive and now I'm just reeling

I won't lie I originally thought sheheal was bunny trying to anonhelp codslut's family but I don't know what to think anymore

I completely understand your suspicion and paranoia. I feel it myself when it comes to everything else that's happening.

I can honestly promise you (even though my word won't count for much, I'm sure, and don't expect you to trust my word) that me and bunny did not work together on our apologies or our reblogs of fulltacs post.

I don't have an explanation as to why they read similar. Maybe because we are in contact regularly through Discord, and we have been talking about this and supporting each other, especially when we were both getting burner accounts harassing us? But I promise we didn't discuss what to write or how to write it or anything of the sort.

I can also *promise* you as someone who knows Bunny irl that she's *not* sheheal and would never fake someone's death like this. She's absolutely disgusted by it herself. She, just like me and the rest of us, trusted sheheal to get in contact with codslut's family as an outsider and a concerned person.

I don't blame you at all for being suspicious/paranoid or anything. Hope you can find some peace/rest some time soon and no longer be as worried.

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Tag that post into cod fandom, let the people know about the anon hate. This is fucking ridiculous, I've reported every single one of them

Appreciate the suggestion, but I'm not tagging it.

Firstly, don't wanna clog the hashtag with my anon hate and upset people over it.

Secondly, I didn't post it because I want pity or anything of the sort. Just putting it into perspective how wild the anon hate got and I don't even know if half of it was manufactured or what.

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Also, just for some context for all of you:

and bunny also got this on her email:

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why did you tag your post with gaz erasure my ass? like what was hard to believe that the cod fandom has blatant patterns of purposefully removing the only black character and replacing him with everyone under the sun? your friend lied about killing themself to make them look like a victim. and you participated in harassing people who saw this for what it was. you need to step back and reflect on your own self on why you thought that your friend’s “death” was caused by people calling out patterns of anti black racism and then go on to harass them. you are not an ally by any means.

Back when I used that tag, I paired it with another tag right after, it was meant to be an aggressive call out on misinformation, I had meant for it to read as 'Gaz erasure my ass, y'all just can't read'.

(This because the original post didn't read like intentional erasure but rather like codslut thought Gaz didn't fit the post, since she also didn't use Reboot Soap, she used *Captain* Soap, idk how best to explain it but to me the two soaps are different characters so i figured it was an intentional choice to use him and keegan rather than reboot soap and gaz)

Edit: I want to add that I also used codslut's own explanation as the basis for why I didn't think it was erasure. And at this point, she's clearly not to be fucking trusted, so it wouldn't surprise me if it really *was* erasure/racism and I believed her word that it wasn't.

As time went on, I dropped the last part of the tag of 'y'all just can't read', and looking back it not only reads as a racist dog whistle but also, just in general, sounds and looks fucking disgusting.

I've said this before, but I think it warrants saying again: I *didn't* mean to say Gaz erasure doesn't exist. It does very much exist in the community and even Activision themselves often erase Gaz from promo materials.

I'd hate for people to think that I either dislike Gaz or don't see the blatant racism/dislike/erasure that happens with him on the community. That's not the case. Gaz is a main character (unlike König like so many people try to replace him with) who I absolutely adore, and I call out erasure when I see it here on Tumblr, on Tiktok and on Twitter.

I never meant to make it seem like Gaz erasure doesn't exist. I only wanted to call out misinformation... and ended up doing the exact opposite of both my intentions. I'm sorry about that. It was not just disgusting but full on stupid of me.

I also want to say that I didn't think that that screenshot post specifically or even the act of people calling out racism where they saw it was the cause for codslut possibly killing herself. That is not what I meant at all. And I don't want anyone to think I blame @soapskneebrace or @glossysoap or anyone else for that. Blood was never on their hands, I want to make that very clear!!!!

When I was confronting people, I was doing so on the basis that they're big creators with big platforms and that by accusing codslut of racism/erasure they opened the door for anons to justify their actions when going after codslut because they have so much reach and people with bad intentions need less than that to justify the hate they send people.

Looking back, I know I was in the wrong for how I spoke. I was aggressive and rude and mean, and none of the people involved deserve that. Hell, my actions were hypocritical as hell and I probably opened the door for them to get hate themselves. I'm really fucking sorry.

If I could take it back, I would. I never believed nor wanted them to believe that someone potentially harming themselves was their fault. It wasn't.

I do plan on taking a step back to reconsider not just the way I acted but everything that's happened. In fact, I was already taking said break and came online only because I got word of @/fulltacs' post.

I appreciate and thank you for holding me accountable (and by that I mean you and everyone!). And I especially thank *you* anon for wording this ask this way, and giving me, at least, a chance to explain.

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you mentioned getting anonhate saying they sent to you what they sent myka.

if codslut isn't dead and she lied about all this there is a high chance codslut herself created this and sent you and crashtestbunny a lot of that manufactured anonhate.

I did say that, and now that it came to light to be a hoax I'm not worried about sharing it:

Honestly, I'm pretty fucking paranoid as is and thinking about this is just-

So this was all manufactured... Half of the hate we got was to make it all believable? It's so fucking disgusting to think about.

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I think it's important you comment publicly on your blog on latest developments re: fulltac exposing codslut for faking suicide but you do you. I see that you apologized to glossy so kudos.

I just did.

I was asleep when this all was posted, but thank you for holding me accountable.

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https://www.tumblr.com/fulltacs/753588191361171456/its-a-miracle-yall-codslut-rose-from-the

Thank you for sending this to me, really appreciate it.

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I was suspicious when sheheal said she got a FOIA request through in less than 20 working *days* minimum (speaking from experience, the military are not speedy with this process no matter the circumstances or urgency, and you can verify the average times online), even more so that a grieving family would talk to a random tumblr blog (one Myka wasn't even friendly with) about the intimate details of the death of a loved one in those circumstances, but today she claims to be in the loop regarding the funeral and a police case. I was 99% sure sheheal is lying through her teeth because no crisis worker would take some of the unprofessional steps she (apparently) has, but that's all but confirmed it for me. The timeline does not add up, the family's openness with a complete stranger does not add up, especially when she's claiming there's an open case which would delay someone being laid to rest longer than this and prevent certain chatter publicly even behind a blog name. Her reactions to people today are not those of a professional but a provocateur. You and Bunny had good intentions, but I truly don't think sheheal does and I feel sorry for the people who have been pushed into grief, and for all of you who have received hate for the very human reactions it provoked. Please take care of yourself 💌

Sharing this so others can see it.

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Hope you don't mind me reblogging this to address the topic, @/fulltacs , I want what I say to be linked to the evidence.

(and for the anons on my askbox, sorry it took me this long to address this, I was asleep, but I truly appreciate you sending me the link to this post!!!!)

I'm disgusted by the fact someone would pretend to be dead (or help someone pretend it!)

It's beyond disgusting, it's sickening and puts such a bad fucking taste in my mouth.

I was honestly so hurt and frightened by the fact codslut has felt so much pain that she decided to harm herself, that I personally didn't want to believe that it could all be a hoax.

I didn't want to be callous about someone dying. Wanted to treat it with respect... And it leaves me fucking sick to my stomach. I feel not just like a fool for believing this but because I feel genuinely played with and feel taken advantage of, in a sick and twisted way.

I almost want to believe that it was a "family member" tinkering on the account, but deep down, I know it wasn't. And if I did cling to that, it would just be getting stuck on denial (on my part) out of fear. I refuse to let that happen.

Between this post and the repeated other posts where people (who I considered skeptics) have shared their knowledge on this, plus some asks I've gotten also building on it, I can honestly say I feel like such a fucking fool.

The timeline really wasn't timelining and I'm not afraid to say that I believed it like a fool because I was worried and scared that someone was truly dead.

I can't say or assume that codslut and sheheal are the same person but it looks to me like they are two blogs under the same account (and that the person behind the screen meant to block you through sheheal, not codslut).

But realy, what in the actual fuck... Because I don't know what to believe at this point and I feel pretty fucking paranoid.

Did codslut even get sent half of the hate they claimed? Did they send themselves the hate from another account?

And honestly...

It even makes me wonder if they were the ones responsible for me and bunny getting half of the hate we did, because it would make the hate codslut was getting look much more intense and 'believable' if those who defended her were getting it too.

I say this because an anon claiming to be one of codslut's haters came onto *my* inbox spewing things about codslut right at the beginning (pics below), and now I'm just that much more angry and hurt by this deception because if it was them, it just... honestly, I don't know how else to describe how ridiculous and evil this was.

If that was what they intended, sending hatred to others to make it more believable, then they fucking succeeded because I fell for it like a fool.

(And if it wasn't them and it really was some other anon that's just that vile of a person, also fuck you, regardless.)

I'm honestly really fucking embarrassed that I believed this.

And I'm so so sorry that I was as aggressive as I was to everyone involved, not just because of this coming to light, but in general. Regardless of this being a hoax or what I believed about it at the time, I hurt people, and that was not right.

Thank you for posting this, @/fulltacs , getting it to our attention, and sharing the evidence. I appreciate you for doing that, truly so.

This is such such a disgusting, vile situation, and I'm really sorry for everyone involved, and the way you were treated both at the beginning and now.

I hope you're all okay.

IT’S A MIRACLE Y’ALL!!!

@codslut ROSE FROM THE DEAD TO BLOCK AND UNBLOCK ME AFTER MY LAST ADDITION TO HER/ @sheheal ‘s POST!!! HALLELUJAH!!!

bitch.

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I fucking despise that people are doing this.

It's honestly so fucking unfair, bunny.

You didn't deserve any of this.

And with that, what was going to be a small hiatus leads to me leaving the platform. I'll keep the blogs up in case people want my writing. But I am no longer going to be around.

I genuinely live in a state of fear that someone this dedicated will doxx me.

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ikea you did nothing wrong. i just found out about what happened in the last couple of days. i cannot understand it though. i refuse to. and i am begging you, please try to take a few days break from this blog. the messages you reply to, i can't find it in me to read them. do not deal with people who hide behind the anon button. i cannot believe a life has been lost because of an online post about made up characters. i am so so so heartbroken. please take care of yourself. you do not need to prove anything to anyone. i am sorry this is all over the place. i am genuinely fucking worried for any and everyone in this fandom.

Don't worry, I plan on taking a break as well and won't be posting anything or doing any writing while I'm on a break.

I appreciate the sweet words and the worry, however!

I hope you're okay as well, you're very kind. Please talk to someone as well, if you're struggling with all of this.

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I uh can't help but notice the name of some blogs who have liked bunny's most recent post. It's fucking disgusting how low someone can sink. If they could only invest the same amount of time in doing something productive fuck knows

It really is.

They have too much free time and so much hate in their soul...

Genuinely hope they're okay

EDIT: Bunny is also not checking any notifications/DMs or anything. So if any of her mutuals want to reach out to her, you should reach out to one of her other mutuals to pass on the message!

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just a friendly suggestion- i know you mentioned you want to keep your old posts up to keep yourself held accountable, but i think it would be a very good idea to go back and edit them in a way that's obvious (maybe red text?) linking back to your apology so people who see those posts don't think there's still ongoing beef. i'd hate to see madi, kelsi, and glossy catch any latent strays, and i think you probably feel the same way too.

anyways hope i didn't bother you, have a nice day

I very much appreciate that suggestion.

I'll be doing that ASAP.

Have a nice day as well!

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So suicide is now a common thing in the CoD community cause this isn't the first time it's happening...imma leave this community cause it's become toxic. I'm going through some shit too and if people were to come at me like how they did Myka I would take the same path she did. It's one thing to hate yourself than to have other people hate you too. First time I was disappointed at the community, second time I'm leaving. It's shocking and disgusting what just a few people's hate and accusations can do. Rip Myka and Rip inquisitor. They both didn't deserve all that hate. People don't know both sides of the story but are so quick to judge and hate.

Sadly, it's not the first thing something like this happens on the internet...

A lot of people have been lost over things that seem so small... but get blown out of proportion when the wrong people get their hands on it.

I hope you're okay, anon, and that you have a support system to turn to or anyone to vent/talk to as well.