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i really want to see genderqueer be an identity we talk about in great detail this pride month. genderqueer saw more usage in the 90s and 2000s, with the rise of the term non binary we've seen more people gravitate toward that label as it becomes the more socially accepted term to use given its notoriety. i would like to bring back alternative labels for this experience, since our diversity is what makes us so unique and strong as a community

genderqueer is an identity that has a long history, and a myriad of definitions and folks who express it in different ways. it really can mean whatever the hell you want. it can mean that you're cisgender but express your gender in a queer way. it can mean that you're trans, take hormones, have gotten top and bottom surgery and dress however you want. it can mean that you dress "normal" and pass as cishet but have a queer gender on the inside. it can mean that you combine masculine and feminine aesthetics. it can mean that you strive for gender neutrality. it can mean that you want to be so ambiguously gendered strangers can't tell who you are.

there's no guidelines or rules, genderqueer is an identity meant to embrace the freedom one can have with gender expression. it can mean as much or as little as the person using it wants it to. it's a beautiful term that is just as flexible as non binary, and i do not postulate to replace that term, but rather bring light to another identity that may suit folks slightly better. it's a beautiful identity. it's what I came out as first in 2011 and I'm happy to be back at all these years later.

2024 is a great year to be proud of being genderqueer and to proudly tell people about this part of yourself. let's celebrate ourselves louder and prouder than ever before. there are many ways to exist outside of the binary, and folks deserve to know about older terms that have been used by the community as well as newer ones

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Wishing you a happy solstice (winter or summer, as the case may be). Unless you're a flat earther, in which case, Happy Inexplicable Phenomenon!

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Introducing the non-binary pride knight! ⚔️🌈 The Pride Knights Playing Cards, art prints and uncut sheets are now available for pre-order here: prideknights.com

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The Mysteries of Mithra, 1903 

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my first foray into digitally making zines (and 2nd foray into ever making a zine) ...... i really enjoyed it. found a lot of words i didnt know i had!

dont have alt text yet bc itll take some typing, hoping to put it on my neocities w/ the alt text once its done <3

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Bold of you to assume you are not loved. Have you looked to the stars

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im like if a girl was {undefined variable}. im like if a girl was [fragment missing]. im like if a girl was (editor’s note: the author’s invocation of the word “girl” in this context is idiosyncratic, perhaps metaphorical) im like if a girl was im like if a girl draft deleted! im like if a girl You have reached your free article limit! Subscribe now to continue reading. im like if a girl was [THREAD LOCKED] im like if a girl (ENDING EXPLAINED!) im like if a girl Unusual activity detected, please highlight all the pictures of bicycles. im like if a girl I don’t respond to prompts that could be deemed offensive, and so I am unable to carry out the request. im-like-if-a-girldeactivated03092023. im like if a girl we are unable to take your call at the minute. im like if a girl isn’t registered under that name. im like if a girl could give you her date of birth. im like if a girl oh yes we have you under […]. im like if a girl LOST CONNECTION

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imagine having a vampire lover who’s pet name for you is “my sunshine”

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Eboni Hogan’s embroidery 2020(IG: the_wreckshop)

Nottoway Plantation in White Castle, Louisiana 2025

Art imitates life- Life imitates art.

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Been thinkin about one of the Mithraic holidays that White Wolf kind of got right but missed the mark on pretty sorely for my world, a summer solstice rite that involves a period of fasting before it leading up to a big feast and celebration on the night of, and how to do some version of it here in my current situation, and figured I might as well put my thoughts down in public for the record.

See, there’s a few problems with trying to do a fast in my current situation as a fictive:

The body really does not handle low blood sugar well, which I’d be willin to cope with but I don’t feel is really fair to inflict on my non-Mithraic headmates, especially Rani who’s basically frontstuck most of the time

I could do a non-food fast (ie give up somethin else I enjoy a lot), but idk what I’d give up considerin that again, I’m usually not the primary fronter

Part of the point of the fast for Kindred is testin your resolve against your Beast, which I. don’t have no more

Maybe most pressingly, Rani lives with its mom, who would get (understandably!) kinda extremely worried about it if we suddenly severely restricted food intake

But I want to do somethin, so I’ve settled on kind of a compromise. I had to sit down and really think about what the point of the fasting period is, and the answer I think is mostly split between “testin your control over your Beast,” which no longer applies to me, and “promptin you to focus more on faith and prayer,” which does.

So… basically what I’ve settled on is that I intend to try to focus on that last part even if I can’t really give somethin up to make space for it. Keep a journal for a month’s time and take at least a little time every day to write down somethin about what I remember, what I believe, all that. Take more time to pray, somethin that’s a little harder to remember to do when I’m not the only one takin up brain bandwidth. (In theory I do daily prayers when fronting. In practice I often end up doin the morning prayer and forgetting the evening and especially midday prayers.) It’s not perfect, it’s not what I’d do at home, but I think it gets the spirit of it at least - and if nothin else, this whole situation has really forced me to dig deeper into why I do any given thing and the meanin behind it.

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of all the things I missed about bein alive period cramps were not one of em

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sometimes you try to write a lightly fictionalized version of a bit from your history and it ends up being completely uninteresting but nonetheless unlocks 2-3 new bits of memory and yknow what that wasn’t really my goal but I’ll take it

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South of Midnight (2025) dev. Compulsion Games

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All the men I hunt for sport are sustainably and ethically sourced.

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“Mythos, in Greek,” said Borges, “is not a story that is false. It is a story that is more than true. Myth is a tear in the fabric of reality, and immense energies pour through these holy fissures. Our stories, our poems, are rips in this fabric as well, however slight.”

Jorge Luis Borges, quoted by Jay Parini in Borges and Me

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Correct.

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Boy, nothing will kick you in the gut with doubt and discomfort as a fictive than running into something you absolutely should be familiar with, something that should be second nature to you, and it's completely foreign and you have no memory of it at all. heugh. that's... uncomfortable.