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my head feels like its going to fuckign explodej someone please shoot me OH MY GODHEH

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why the fuck is it so hard to schedule a hangout with someone around here 💔💔 pls all i want is to go see a very special someone but it’s like the universe HATES me and wants my birthday to become my death day cuz wtf

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okay guys ive had enough trying to be all eloquent and shit on this acc im turning it into my personal diary/vent/therapist/bff okay? okay!

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and to the people who voted for trump because they wanted a better economy? how is that working out for you now?

it takes money to deport people. and if more people are getting deported each day, then they’re going to need more money.

and where are they going to take that money from? that’s right! YOUR taxes!

fundings that would originally go towards schools, supermarkets/grocery stores and any other typical store you need to get your shit is going towards ICE. so you know what that means? these businesses are going to get less money to pay their employees or even hire new ones.

so what are they going to do to get more money? make YOU pay more!

so if you’re thinking, “oh, i’m not their target demographic! this doesn’t affect me 😝!” yes it will and it’ll be more severe than it has been in years.

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thank you to the “Straight, White, Christian Appearing” man who showed up on my reels for giving me a revelation (one that’s quite obvious but still made me have it).

i’m hispanic but that’s never someone’s first thought from when they look at me. i understand why that is, i’m as pale as a ghost, my hair has long lost it’s curls and none of my features are distinctly latino looking. i’m very proud of my latin background so i would feel embarrassed for not being able to display that in my appearance. and i still am. but i know how “lucky” i am to look white, especially now, but it never occured to me that i could use that to my advantage.

so many people are getting hurt, getting discriminated, disrespected and violated, regardless of if they’re immigrants or not because of the way they look. i’ve had the misfortune of encountering some extreme Right Wing people who are PEOPLE OF COLOR stating that they aren’t scared of what Trump is doing becaude they know that they’re legal. Guess fucking what? If the only thing that man cared about was documents then he would’ve stopped a long time ago. he wouldn’t be ripping families apart, his lackeys (ICE) wouldn’t have attacked a FUCKING US SENATOR if that were the case.

your status in this country doesn’t matter to him, if you’re just the slightest bit too dark, too exotic looking, you could be his next target.

so now, i’m determined to use my appearance to help others. if, god forbid, the people around me are faced by racists and bigotry, i’ll try my beat to fight since i look like the Other Side. bigots are kinder when they see someone with their “ideal” features and god doesn’t this sound like fucking Germany in the 1940s all over again.

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I truly hate the word "unalive." There are so many other euphemisms that fictional Italian mobsters worked so hard to provide you with and you just ignore them.

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sometimes i think about the person i used to be a couple years ago and my heart starts to sting. i was such a kind and sweet person until i wasn’t. i was much happier yet knew much less. i don’t regret the knowledge i now have, but it’s unfortunate that i lost part of myself in the process.

sometimes i’ll say something and realize that younger me would’ve never said that. younger me would’ve stayed quiet and let others talk. younger me would’ve smiled even when it hurt the most. younger me was selfless to a fault. too selfless.

people seemed to take advantage my selfless so i’ve had to become selfish.

so, yeah, maybe i do have an attitude now. you’re just so used to me keeping silent at whatever bullshit you had to spew at me, you’re getting all defensive when i actually do respond in the same manner. Am I meaner now? maybe. maybe now you’ll think about how i’ve changed aswell. you’ll wonder, “Why have you been so bitter?” when what you truly want to say is “I miss the old you.”

I miss her too. But I’m glad I am who I am now to say what she couldn’t.

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adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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just of right now, i’ve decided that everytime I start a new account, my first profile picture must always be Mami Tomoe. even if I change it later on