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a funny thing about having a Problematic Blorbo is that you'll periodically come across a post along the lines of "um let's not forget that [Blorbo] is a bad person..." listing their various crimes, and if you have a modicum of intellectual honesty you find yourself nodding along and saying yeah it's true... but it's the greyness of their character that makes them so compelling... At the same time though you have a little Saul Goodman in your ear going "your honor in their defense: who cares like omfgggg who caresssssss like come onnnnnn"

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So through our 12th Doctor transition metaphor, Missy and Clara are two visions of "the Doctor as a woman" (not really competing visions; they're more like the same person at different life stages). Missy represents "would being a woman make me irredeemably evil," while Clara represents "would the lack of a protective masculine mask make me 'breakable' enough to inevitably get me killed." Each of their arcs reaches a sort of "no, but" conclusion: Missy is capable of goodness, but also so dogged by self-destructive impulses that no one will ever know; Clara is capable of fully embodying the Doctor role (and surviving the "death" of transition a la tv glow), but only at the cost of full alienation from everyone she once loved.

Bill is the Doctor's younger self if he'd actually gotten to self-actualize as a teen/twentysomething autistic lesbian. She gets sabotaged by Saxon Master, who self-destructs rather than become a woman. Missy and Bill are again two faces of the "self" - Missy as the self subject to a literal suicide, and Bill as the young-lesbian-self, spiritually smothered, forced into the ultimate mask/closet of cyber conversion. (This is the culmination of the themes we've been setting up since deep breath, re undeath, turning yourself into a literal or emotional robot in order to survive, killing the true parts of yourself so many times that you've ship of theseus'd your "self" out of existence and all that's left to you is to jump or be pushed, etc). And yet, Bill can't be extinguished. Where there's tears, there's hope. The Doctor has to face both the younger self who was (oh god I said so much sexist shit when I was younger, I'm going to throw up), and the younger self who never was (Bill, the self beneath the robotic mask). The Doctor has to grieve Bill, and yet understand that she's still there. She never really died. Despite your best efforts, despite the machine you tried to turn yourself into, the living death you made of your life...that inner spark survived.

So the Doctor is able to reach the same choice as the Master - kill yourself, or become a woman - and choose change.

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after how much love my tenrose piece got, I had to make something for ninerose! I started watching with NuWho so Nine was my first Doctor <333 Bad Wolf / Parting of The Ways is one of my favorite Nine era episodes (up there with Father's Day and Rose!! )

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soooo cyberwoman ianto coded its crazy

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Captain Jack

back from my hiatus (at least briefly lol) with some torchwood fanart!

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*in the middle of a breakdown* Omg wait. this is just like the character

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and what if i tell you that owen, tosh and ianto all died not because of an alien threat but because of the flaws of us humans?

what if i tell you that torchwood’s greatest villain will always be the humans? owen gets shot for human greed, then him and tosh die for a brother’s revenge, ianto is killed by aliens to fight the choices the earth’s government made

none of them died because of an alien threat, they all died by the hands of the people they swore to protect

as much it is a scifi show, torchwood is and will always be a tale of humanity and how flawed we are

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towen i dont smoke by mitski amv. "now the rest of my days are just waiting for when you come down and tell me i was meant for you, baby" & "if ur hands need to break more than trinkets in ur room u can lean on my arm as u break my heart" like yeah

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want to edit soooo bad today but i procrastinated too hard this morning and now i have too much work

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i’ve been forgotten. like philoctetes on lemnos. ━ for @catgirlgwen

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that's it. that's the episode.

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I’m curious. I really enjoyed it until my blorbo was ripped away from me. I watched an episode and a half of season 4 but I couldn’t do it. He just wasn’t there.

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Okay everyone tell me YOUR master. Your fav, the one on your mind the most, whoever you feel is YOUR version of the character

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DOCTOR WHO | 1.06

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Listen (2014)

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Soulless redbubble artstyle Captain John Hart because idk what to post anymore

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would anybody care if i edited class actually