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This Kid Is Gonna Die Before Me.

Mixed Media Sculpture (Chair), 2025

Why Does Your Face Look Like That?

Mixed Media Sculpture (Wall), 2025

an exploration of disability and chronic illness through the lens of trauma, rumination, and grief

read the full artist statement here 🫶

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I was gonna post these later but got too excited so….here u go

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Lmao this is hanging on my wall rn. Happy one year to my favorite art piece ever! (It’s me. I’m the birthday friend)

poster design based on Bram Stoker’s Dracula for a friend’s birthday :)

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An Exploration into The Gardener's Labyrinth by "Didymus Mountain" and Some of Humanity's Marks Found Within the Copy Held by the National Library of Agriculture:

A Brief Introduction:

The Gardeners' Labyrinth is an academic source of the past that many may not think twice to examine. Written by Thoman Hill under the punny synonym of "Didymus Mountain" and later finished after his early death by his close friend, Henry Dethicke, this book was a popular aid in topics of gardening and herbal, remedial use.

With its admittedly (to some) uninteresting topic and centuries old age, it is not a piece one would expect to spend much time examining in contemplation. However, the copy I will be examining today is so much more than just some dusty preserved gardening being held in some agricultural center's library. Instead, it is a wonderful look into concepts of human use and the ways in which we mark our time on Earth through the things we hold, whether we realize our lasting impact or not:

Making our Mark in Research and Knowledge:

[The marginalia (marginal drawing or note) shown above reads "RX comfort" with a non-anatomical heart drawn below it. It is to the right of an entry detailing using an herbal poultice for patient comfort]

Scrolling through the digital scans of this resource was something amazing. As I progressed through the pages, I could not believe the amount of human representation that began to appear on the pages in the form of faded ink and swirling letters written by someone so long ago. Starting light, I found small moments of human use in the form of careful signatures smeared into pages and nearly illegible after so many years.

These names were all I would come across for many more pages. Reaching the last pages, I began to wonder if this would be it.

And then, I was proven wrong, as within the last pages of part one I came upon what I consider to be the most intriguing finding of the entire resource.

That's right! There was an entire (frustratingly illegible) note in there! Attached to the pages and stained from illustrations' ink, there sat a small letter filled with cramped, faded writing.

Apologies for the low detail, these photos do not like to save in a high-quality format.

Unfortunately, after hours of researching, utilizing multiple photo apps to attempt to adjust contrast and sharpness for an easier read, and many attempts to find those mentioned by the bits of names I could make out, I had to accept this was not a mystery to be solved today.

History and Human Connection:

Even with few answers, I could not find myself to be too saddened. It was awe-inspiring to realize that this was the work of a human like me and that this small trace was still being seen even (possibly) hundreds of years after their time. In fact, this human connection through preservation is what made me focus upon these marks in my research. Seeing pieces of a human's life, of their own history, casually held in ink within this book was amazing.

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Javert singing "Lord let me find him, that may see him.................. Safe behind bars (!!)" is the 19th century equivalent of saying "no homo"

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y’all know Catholic holy cards? yeah.

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first full sketchbook spread of 2025 (roughly two months late)

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The man the legend the twink himself Silco

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the best trope in media is: “characters turn on the lights, see the monster, and immediately turn the lights back off”

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Why is Crowley so obsessed with the way Aziraphale eats? Of course, he’s mesmerized by how unapologetically and audibly Aziraphale enjoys his food. And you just know he can’t stop thinking about the fact that he’s the one who introduced the angel to this part of the world. This obsession exists because of him.

And how every time Crowley watches Aziraphale devour a meal, the next thing he does is get so drunk he can’t even stand.

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u know someone’s about to get dragged through the mud when an academic uses the phrase ‘it’s tempting to assume’

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Horatio says tis but our fantasy and will not let belief take hold.

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only occasionally is R awake in the morning and E is not about to waste it. | shop

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I made a 9 page graphic novelette about a TV and radio becoming sentient and traversing a forest to find a new home and you can read it here on my Ko-Fi for free or tip me a couple dollars if you wish :)

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I feel like someone is standing next to me talking about how I'm dead

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I like when my dreams reuse locations from past dreams. like oh cool we doin a bottle episode