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”I will dislocate my jaw to fit it all in”

@mothercain

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I’d die yours (teeth eater)

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Hello very much :)

I thought about making a video on this topic but I decided to just write it out in a post instead. Either way, I'd like to speak a bit more specifically about a drunk rant I made on a separate account the other day that was not as well put together as I'd like to stand as my viewpoints on the subject.

tl:dr, I just feel as though there's a lack of sincerity in the world these days. I speak from personal experience as an artist putting things out into the world, yes, but also as a human being interacting with other human beings on the regular, and I have had my sentiments echoed by many other friends of mine over the past year or so, both artists and non-artists alike. Most of this will be framed through the consumption of art, because that's my own personal passion in this life of mine, but also the way we interface with each other and process the world around us. Now, don't get me wrong, I love to laugh. I love a good joke, and I love lightheartedness as much as the next person. But I saw someone this morning put it very succinctly in response to my rant, something along the lines of "don't let the joke about it overtake the source material." It feels as though it's a common occurrence these days to take a pinch of something with a lot more weight to it, often a humorous bit, and then run with it. Everyone then gathers around the pinch to ooh and ahh and consume it as a whole. Context is immediately lost, the legacy of that body of work becomes its own caricature, and anyone discovering that body of work via said caricature may forgo a piece of art they would otherwise love because "there's nothing there". And don't think this is me griping at those making jokes at the expense of my art. I make jokes about my own art. But when the joke dies, yet continues to grow, and spread, and finds its way back to me both on the internet and off for months (or, God forbid, years) to come, I can't help but say to myself; what the fuck is happening. Artists have fled the public and all their outlets for personality and expression outside the medium because they feel ridiculed. It's not even just their art. Katya comes to mind, speaking on how she went on youtube live a few years back in literal tears talking about police brutality and the injustices marginalized communities were facing at the hands of the government. Meanwhile, the entire comment section "yass" and "mother"ed her in barrages, not paying attention to anything she had to say. I get asked about when I'm dropping Preacher's Daughter vinyl en masse in response to my Palestine fundraiser links. It's everywhere and it's inescapable. No one can be serious for even two seconds.

This may all sound obnoxious; so be it. I tie strings from this central problem to many other complaints I have heard repeated ad nauseam the past few years. For example; the death of subculture. Goth, punk, whatever, you name it. People who built an underground counterculture movement with a rich history based on a love of art, community, and otherwise misunderstood worldviews and experiences deemed foul or inappropriate. Now we see bits taken from it, the terms and the looks, without any of the meat, spread thin across society as a whole. Words mean nothing anymore. One can rest on history and say they were a part of it when in fact, they did nothing. No appreciation or understanding to be had for the love and passion that built it. No serious interaction with the culture's very real confines and boundaries, just mindless co-opting. This has just as much to do with late stage capitalism as it does with excessive humor in lieu of sincerity, but it's certainly both. Again, this may sound like a silly complaint, but I don't care. The collective ennui we're all experiencing has a very real reason, whether we're ready to acknowledge or not.

In a twisted thread, it's even tied to our lack of care to change the world around us. People cheer on the idea of communism, but who among us is ready to give up the convenience of society as it stands? Amazon prime, doordash, fresh fruit out of season as I saw someone mention in a similar post last week; the marvels of modern technology. Do we really think these things can last in a society that isn't actively destroying the planet? We talk about the idea of something all day long but have very little to do with the actuality of what we're talking about. And don't think I consider myself exempt from this problem. I couldn't even try to claim to be. It seems nearly silly to be complaining, then, about the way people consume the art around them these days as we creep towards what feels like the end of days. But as long as I still draw breath, I must complain.

I miss genuine passion. As an autistic individual, when I'm alone, sometimes I cannot contain myself with how things make me feel. The music I listen to, the video games I play, the books I read. I almost feel the need to run through the house and scream in everyone's face how I'm feeling. It feels good to love intensely. Now, I won't pretend like autistic people haven't been bullied for this since the dawn of time, but there is surely a noticeable lack of passion in everything these days. Everyone can feel it, everyone is talking about it. Everything now is "cringe", or "doing too much", or "not that serious". Actually, it is that serious. Insecurity in one's own deeper feelings may not be a new thing, but a culture that seems to promote this eschewing of them does seem to be a new evil. The tone of the internet has completely shifted. I spent most of my time here when I first discovered it a little over a decade ago on Zelda forums and other chat-based websites, talking about how much I loved whatever fandom I was in at the time and having genuine and memorable interactions with like-minded individuals who felt the same way I do. Now, you have two options; if you hate media, you rip it to shreds, and if you love it, you word-salad it to death and parrot a joke about it that someone else said. I'm not saying people don't still talk seriously in a heartfelt way about the things they love, but it does not seem to be the initial reaction anymore. Do I have a solution to this problem? Of course not. I'm a 26 year old girl posting on a tumblr blog. If I had a solution, this is not where I would be dropping it. But conversation is God to man, and I believe in the ability to change things from the inside out. We make the rules, and we can change them.

Before I go, I'd like to just clarify that I am very grateful for my career, grateful to anyone who has ever given me and my art the time of day, grateful to anyone who has ever come up to me and connected with me over my work, and grateful for a life where someone making too many jokes is the worst part of my day. I do not think I am better nor smarter than anyone on or off the internet. I am simply a girl with big feelings and I enjoy talking about them with other people with big feelings, and it makes me sad when something avoidable or unnecessary gets in the way of that.

All in all, I love to love, and I love all of you, I love my life, I love this record, and mi amore vo- i mean.... oh, whatever.

(Feel free to sound off in the comments and please be nice to each other)

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if there's a condition called impulsive anthropomorphizing then I have it

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Fiona Apple at the airport in 2018

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I love how this suggests that in the jjba universe, homestuck has existed since at least 1880, and has been in popular culture the whole time

jojo characters that would read homestuck

dio but only in part 1

Caeser, he thinks he's so smart because he can understand the plot

kars, no comment

Kakyoin, he kins dirk

jotaro, kakyoin made him and he cosplayed equius

Yukako, she kins Vriska and roxy

Rohan, no comment

Mikitaka, was in homestuck

Fugo, he has fights with people online about alternian culture, ships, quadrants, character analysis, the timeline, and more. Kins rose and dave

Giorno, he knew fugo liked it and thought it would be a good workout for his brain, regrets it

narancia, has not read homestuck but watched summary videos and learned about it through fandom

secco and cioccolata, no comment

Doppio, he likes it a lot but it was mental torture for diavolo

jolyne, Jotaro told her not to read it

anasui, kins equius and eridan

I want to say weather but I'm not sure

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Fiona Apple // photo: Nathaniel Goldberg

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I understand that tall men are our POV characters, but surely being like a foot taller than everyone around them would have some occasional consequences

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Man i wish i could just be super amazing at art naturally wdym i have to WORK to get good at it... Unfair.

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When i show up to a coolest person ever competition and Fiona apple shows up

Fiona Apple in a suit of armor in NYC, 1997

Photography: Joe McNally

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This is what i look like irl btw

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hii i figured i should probably redo my intro since im gonna be more active on here(at least i want to be)!

my name is parker! i like homestuck, jojo's bizarre adventure, dungeon meshi, dungeons and dragons, greek mythology, the last of us, musicals, old internet stuff, furries, music(indie pop, indie rock, nu metal, emo, folk), so that's probably going to be be the main thing on my blog!

Also my favorite music artists are Fiona Apple, Björk, Kate Bush, Ethel Cain, Alex G, Kimya Dawson, The Mountain Goats, Neutral Milk Hotel, The Cardigans, The Postal Service, Death Cab for Cutie, Bôa, The Flaming Lips, Slipknot, System of a Down, and My Chemical Romance (i tried to put them next to ones that are similar!)

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there's nothing SUPER about misogyny..

based off of this post by @wlwsanji on twitter

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best ones on here getting the lowest... litwrally evil

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northern hemisphere babes we made it to the longest night of the year. we made it. for the next 6 months, every day will give us a little more daylight than the last. let's go. take my hand. climb out of the darkness with me

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i got the genesis project