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I don’t hate myself AS much anymore and some days I’m okay. I haven’t weighed myself in months. Lots of times I’ll eat the same or more as my husband. It’s gonna be okay

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Wonder if I’ll ever be smaller

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pocky isn’t even that high calorie

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i hate how fucking easily triggered i am. Watched a show with my partner and ofc his eyes are glued to the screen 10x more when hot skinny girl is on screen. fun

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i ate more than i would have liked to yesterday but at least i’m exercising more and getting my steps i think i’m still alright on track

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im doing a little better having some fucking self control lol I still look disgusting. but i love me so im looking prettier everyday

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!!!!! my life lately

It’s so hard to not eat a lot when you’re home the whole day, you can’t walk around outside because of weather and you don’t have any hobbies!!!

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You have CONTROL

You can have that tomorrow

You have to have control

Never let go

NEVER LET GO

Is that worth losing all your progress

Dont let people stop you

They dont know how you feel

They dont know how good it feels

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it should not be as easy to eat 1000 calories as it is

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found a 20 hour for the first time in well over a month

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portion control.

portion control is the key to success. counting cals is not always reliable and just keeps you paranoid. portion control allows you to eat cute tiny meals without calculating every calorie. it allows you to still have 3 meals a day. portion control is the key. buy tiny dishes and baby spoons with cute designs! makes you look forward to the meals without being paranoid about cals. makes everything easier!

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if i’m not small soon i don’t think i want to keep living

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barely at 8 and a half hours gahahagwhyayeyeuehssh i hope i can sleep

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Desperately trying to get back into fasting or at the very least restricting again. it is so hard when i’m with my husband 😵‍💫 and the messed up thing is, now would be the perfect time to be fasting because i’m not doing anything most of everyday, i don’t even need the energy

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okay that is more than enough of this awful binge and purge cycle it’s stopping here. no more period excuses or whatever the fuck

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big time bulimia girl summer

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back on my purging shit kind of :( feel like such a failure, i really don’t want to