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someone said we had more fun in childhood because we didnt have any past memories to linger on and it has stuck with me ever since

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seeing a black and white cow is always so damn awesome it’s like Hey i know that guy.from my kindergarten abcs

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Angel Cop (1989)

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stain me with your lips

and leave me as is

for that would be a reminder

i was touched by you

let the smoke you exhale

from the cigarette i got you

stay for a bit longer

for that would be a reminder

i took in the same air as you

let your fingers be intertwined

with mine for

a bit longer

and

and let me tighten my grip around

your waist a bit longer

a

bit

longer

for all of this will

be a reminder that we existed

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shawarma

what do i do with all the good things i’ve experienced which stand no purpose now except that i compare everything that happens to me with it,

oh that shawarma tastes so good but it’s not like the one i had in kerala.

do i hold onto it or should i also forget all the good things that ever happened to me like we are advised to move on from any sadness.

does happiness like sadness also passes?

or

does it stay inside a corner of our heart like all the grief i’ve accumulated over the years,

serving no purpose but of comparison

are all movies now greyscale if i’ve experienced the full spectrum of colours.

is comparison the thief of joy or is it happiness?

why is it the end goal?

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The Holdovers (2023)

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All I need is for someone to gently cup my face and tell me I'm not as doomed as I feel.

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Arundhati Roy, The End of Imagination

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Arundhati Roy, The End of Imagination

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homecoming

you were my homecoming now all you bring me is misery, sighting you in a crowded room was my boon, a curse of hope now, a hope you'd turn around look for me in places you'd expect i would be in, like i do for you; a curse of hope it is, can you please look at me? or doesmyexistencenotmattertoyou?

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im dying.

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you mentioned a song once

and now that you're not here and your absence is, i listen to it.

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love?

i think i do believe that love exists, i might just give it a chance again, i am ready to get hurt again.

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“not your fault that everytime you walk towards me i expect you would be coming over.”


Habits form over time and this is one, not a healthy one at that, i think i did let you take over me, my thoughts, my sanity, i did let loose of my thoughts, my conscience.
You used to say goodbyes everytime you left and now all you say is goodbyes.
i barely see you and when i do, it weighs me down, is this what you wanted it to be like?

you have left now and my rib cage feels like it has been pulled open, every breath i take feels deeper than ever.

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“not your fault that everytime you walk towards me i expect you would be coming over.”

Habits form over time and this is one, not a healthy one at that, i think i did let you take over me, my thoughts, my sanity, i did let loose of my thoughts, my conscience.You used to say goodbyes everytime you left and now all you say is goodbyes.i barely see you and when i do, it weighs me down, is this what you wanted it to be like?

you have left now and my rib cage feels like it has been pulled open, every breath i take feels deeper than ever.

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i would peel an pomegranate for you

My love language is peeling an orange for my beloved.

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i like her??????????

i’m going crazy