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TMI maybe?

Me my entire life: Yeah, i’m never gonna have biological kids and the fact that I was basically infertile even before hormones was a blessing and I have never been so relieved hearing this

Me now, feeling weird cramps and worried about a possible hysterectomy: What if I just froze my eggs just in case hmmm??

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TMI Sex stuff

Not really transition related but

After feeling vaguely horny for about a year due to hormones and then nothing after taking antidepressents is the weirdest whiplash

Idk how to describe it

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Felt really ANGRY the day after my shot this week

I'm glad I read through this blog every so often bc it seems like it's a thigh thing??

I switched to my thigh bc I was scared of developing scar tissue in my hip but ooogh.

I'm either really tired with my hip shots or really angry with my thigh shots.

My gf suggests I work out again which is honestly a good idea :'va

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Tiny baby moustache

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I feel like I'm so close to learning how to cry again and I love it

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My libido suddenly died these last few days and I'm relieved and also worried

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Tmi

"Why has my libido been through the roof this last week??? It's annoying!!! Did I fuck up my shot? Is my body going through something??"

/passes by the aphrodisiacs at the pharmacy and sees that one of the main ingredients is ginseng

/has been taking ginseng supplements recently for energy

"Oh......."

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I dont know if I'm bold enough yet to be a dude that wears nail polish, but it was an interesting time.

But!!! Some one misgendered me from behind (I guess the nails) and when I turned around, she went "oh sorry!! Sir"

So my face looks more manly at least!!

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Wearing nail polish pre t: dont think I'm a girl please

Wearing nail polish on t: please dont beat me up. Also dont think I'm a girl please

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Shot day was yesterday but I dont have the energy to fuck up again sfbvdasfc

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Tried to upload this a couple of days ago but it wouldn't let me weh

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Had two weeks of peeing peacefully and now I keep catching my regulars in the bathroom today

It's bound to come out sooner or later but I'd rather it not be in the bathroom???

I was in the bathroom at the same time as the milk man that likes to flirt with me AHHHHH

not how I wanted you to know but here we go man

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I was in the bathroom at the same time as the milk man that likes to flirt with me AHHHHH

not how I wanted you to know but here we go man

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Week 10 I never uploaded

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My legs have gotten so hairy lmao!

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I’ve been using the men’s room this week and it’s not as bad as I thought it would be?? There’s no one in there 90% of the time and it’s not that dirty. Just a heavy piss smell

Tho whenever it gets busy, i’m still racked with anxiety everytime I walk there thinking this is the time that some one is going to say something

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One of my biggest fears is showing off my chest. Despite me transition for a year and eight months and working out like a madman,my fear still goes back to my chest looking like breasts.

I kindly accept that my chest looks more like “pecs” but that fear is still there. Most of my friends and family tell me that it does not look like breasts any more and it really makes me feel at ease when they give me that reassurance. But at the same one, I still come back to the situation that i still have breasts.

I an also going in for my hysterectomy tomorrow. So working out will be different since doctors orders will tell me to not lift heavy weights.

I’ll post some pictures of my progress here.

I also want to thank my friends and family for helping me out. I love you