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DAVESPRITE: *The flame wars are just started and if Davesprite is anywhere right now, he has tucked himself outside of the ship. Up in the panel of the rocket engine where it would be difficult to find him. If you were anyone but Jade anyway. He is roosting with his tail curled under him, brooding. Scheming. Being a Strider basically.* JADE: *She still feels the rush of vertigo, sparks skittering over her skin like the legs of too many insects until it dissipates and she's just a little... tired, but still too on edge to relax. She needs to know where she is, why she's even there. And for a few moments she can't discern what it is before she knows it's another part of the ship she's memorized, but more importantly, there's an orange glow too heavy to ignore. So... this was it. The reason.* DAVESPRITE: *He knows that sound. He'd know it anywhere. Davesprite begins hovering, knowing exactly what he was going to find if he floated into view. That doesn't make him feel any better but... it's not like his feelings particularly matter. He faces her, straight-faced with wings shifting.* DAVESPRITE: hey JADE: *She stands there below, and her heart is heavy for reasons she can't put words to, but she's known them far too long and too well. The dizziness graciously fades for once, and she's left watching him with almost too much focus.* JADE: ... JADE: dave DAVESPRITE: davesprite *Feels compelled to correct her, his own ocean's worth of weight and regret squeezing down in the place his heart should be. He feels all too conscious of the chain tucked away in his feathers all of a sudden.* DAVESPRITE: dave the humans just a guy with a face i happen to share DAVESPRITE: and also everything almost DAVESPRITE: just the stuff that matters i guess DAVESPRITE: ... DAVESPRITE: sup JADE: *It all sounds... silly, because she knows it's the whole reason why he did what he did to begin with, but even so. She doesn't want to argue. She's sure that's not why she's here.* JADE: ...are you JADE: afraid of me? DAVESPRITE: *There's a sharp cleaving sensation in his chest he wishes would just quit. He does what he does best and drowns it out listening to his own words.* DAVESPRITE: have you ever actually seen you mad DAVESPRITE: motherfuckers better side step you when youre on a rampage DAVESPRITE: youre like ww2 on ice but cute and also furry for some reason DAVESPRITE: wtf i just pissed myself off DAVESPRITE: you know id go see the shit out of that show i mean as terrible and historically relevant as it is DAVESPRITE: what better way to get an insight on the horrors of the human psyche than watch furries have pillow death fights while also ice skating DAVESPRITE: youre just asking for good entertainment JADE: *She's... frowning still. She's impervious to Dave rambling at this point in her life. Unfortunately for him, she knows what it means.* JADE: you said youre from another universe JADE: you knew a different me DAVESPRITE: yeah probably *He is determined to push past it.* DAVESPRITE: youre married to dave now JADE: yes JADE: i am DAVESPRITE: *It's like the worst news he could hear but he makes himself. He's gotta.* thats cool i guess JADE: ... JADE: i dont know if you want to know me JADE: but i want to know you JADE: i want to know... what i can do DAVESPRITE: *Hesitates, not trusting himself to feel behind the words.* ...youre jade harley DAVESPRITE: you can do anything you set your mind to DAVESPRITE: you wanna move the fucking stars DAVESPRITE: you move those fucking stars DAVESPRITE: dont let anyone stop you DAVESPRITE: esp not me JADE: *For some reason, hearing this right now, of all times, aches so much more. There's too much doubt settled at the back of her mind, too much loss. She can't lose him, too -- the thought comes out of nowhere, but it swells, thick and painful in her throat. But she's here for him, not for her. Why would she even ask anything of him?* JADE: will you-- come down here? DAVESPRITE: *Remains hovering like he's not. It's a self promoted policy that Davesprite never makes anything easy for anyone EVER. But this is Jade and she's a different story. He slowly drifts downward to hover a little closer.* DAVESPRITE: to quote a song straight outta mainstream usa in the good ol 21st century by the artists formally known as bastille DAVESPRITE: but if you close your eyes DAVESPRITE: does it almost feel like nothing changed at all DAVESPRITE: and if you close your eyes does it almost feel like youve been here before DAVESPRITE: (oh) DAVESPRITE: (how am i gonna be an optimist about this) JADE: *She hesitates for a few moments. She knows this isn't her Dave -- she isn't his Jade -- but he's still Dave, and she can't ignore him. She never could. Her mouth sort of twitches at the sound of him again, and so do her ears, but she reaches for one of his hands, different than the one she knows.* DAVESPRITE: *The only way he can be cool with this is if he beatboxes under his breath to the beat of Pompeii. If he takes her hand, it's only for a moment... just to let himself have it. So fucking deprived as he was. The hard combs lining his hands are too obvious and rough against her softer hands. Davesprite releases her hand and is hovering away again.* DAVESPRITE: i gotta find john and rose JADE: *It's a lot like she imagined it would be, rough and almost sort of scaly, but it seems all too quick, and then it's gone. In a way, she sort of expected this.* JADE: w-- dave JADE: davesprite JADE: just JADE: tell me DAVESPRITE: tell you what JADE: *She watches him close, that heavy crease between her brows, eyes moist.* JADE: whatever it is youre not saying DAVESPRITE: *It's easier if he just detatches himself and acts like nothing was wrong. Because nothing could have ever been wrong if every version of himself didn't stop from keep hapening at her. God.* DAVESPRITE: i ruined your life DAVESPRITE: sorry if im not gun ho about making that mistake again JADE: *She should have seen that answer coming, too, and maybe she did. That was what it was always about, wasn't it?* JADE: no JADE: i know you JADE: i know i wouldnt regret you JADE: no matter what you think you did JADE: what you think youll do JADE: i dont JADE: i dont know what happened and i dont know what you saw but if she never said it-- JADE: i love you DAVESPRITE: *It should be agonizing to hear but... he didn't belong to this reality. And these words don't belong to him either. His jaw clenches, the only expression of emotion besides the tension in his shoulders. It's too much, but he takes it. Heart bleeding out from the inside like the wound was fresh. In a lot of ways, it still was.* DAVESPRITE: *wordlessly he pulls the pendant from over his head and offers it to her. It's small and smooth, obviously a gadget of some kind with the Skaianet spiralgraph engraved into it.* DAVESPRITE: she gave this to me DAVESPRITE: made it special like DAVESPRITE: in case she ever needed me somewhere DAVESPRITE: id just poof like insta asshole ready for brawls wherever she was DAVESPRITE: you should have it JADE: *She blinks a few times around the tears welling in her eyes, ones she had barely realized threatened to spill, and they do once she looks down at the pendant. If he can't bring himself to cry, she'll do it for him.* JADE: *She's wordless as she reaches out to take it -- what could she say? She swallows, turning it over in her hands.* JADE: ... are you sure JADE: that JADE: ... JADE: *She clears her throat, looks up at him again.* JADE: maybe she just wanted you where she was DAVESPRITE: *Drifts off to the side, quiet and passive for once so he can avoid looking her in the eye all over again.* DAVESPRITE: too late for that JADE: ... but not for everything JADE: *She clutches the pendant to her chest, instinctive, protective.* JADE: there is still something worth fighting for DAVESPRITE: yeah i know DAVESPRITE: 100% the reason im possibly about to happen at everyones face JADE: i know JADE: but its not on you, either DAVESPRITE: no but i know my place and i know what im supposed to do DAVESPRITE: its all ive got left to give so DAVESPRITE: here i am JADE: thats never been all you have to give JADE: youre so much more JADE: look at you, youre already... so JADE: different JADE: but youve always been different DAVESPRITE: i didnt used to make intense conversations a fucking Thing if thats what you mean DAVESPRITE:  but here we are airing out the drawers like its spring cleaning at the little old lady who lived in the shoebox or something DAVESPRITE: kind of what happens now DAVESPRITE: i was a passive shit who let bad things happen to people i care about DAVESPRITE: so this is how i gotta live DAVESPRITE: and imma fucking deal cuz thats what you do in these situations JADE: theres nothing wrong with this JADE: with talking to me JADE: or anyone JADE: you dont have to punish yourself just because JADE: because of me JADE: you dont have to punish yourself at all JADE: i dont-- JADE: i wouldnt want this JADE: for you... JADE: i dont want you to feel like this JADE: but i know JADE: youre not going to listen to me JADE: you say i can do anything but i cant JADE: i know i cant JADE: i cant-- JADE: make you JADE: understand JADE: *She squeezes her eyes shut, and the tears feel cold by the time they roll down to her chin, the edges of the pendant pressing indentations in her palm.* JADE: *Her other hand reaches up, wiping at her face.* DAVESPRITE: *At this point, Davesprite couldn't even picture what she would have wanted for him. He doesn't deserve to.* DAVESPRITE: im cool jade DAVESPRITE: i was brought up to handle this shit DAVESPRITE: its a war and one way or another its gonna be won DAVESPRITE: dont think about me i already made my decisions DAVESPRITE: you got a baby so DAVESPRITE: like DAVESPRITE: you have to put them first DAVESPRITE: give them everything neither of yall had DAVESPRITE: dont put them in a fucking environment where they cant trust themselves DAVESPRITE: youre the strong one hell youre the only one who can DAVESPRITE: ill be cool DAVESPRITE: trust me JADE: ... im sorry JADE: but it wont work like that JADE: you dont get to stop mattering just because you think you should JADE: and im not going to stop caring JADE: even if you do JADE: *She sniffs at the ground, unclenches her hand, and loops the pendant around her neck. She tucks it into her shirt.* JADE: were going to see each other again DAVESPRITE: *catches sight of her tucking it away from the corner of one glowing yellow eye* word JADE: ... *She feels like there should be something more to say. The problem is, there's too much, and isn't sure that any of it will make a difference. All the things that could be press down on her chest like a crushing weight, like they always have. But there's a lighter weight there, too, and maybe, for now, that's just enough.* JADE: *Jade looks up at him one more time, a few seconds of agonizing silence, before she turns around and makes her way back toward the entrance of the ship, each step a little heavier than the last until she knows they're out of each other's sight. That's when she doesn't bother trying to keep herself up anymore.*

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Rufioh’s Fate

JADE: *You've all been gathered here to ultimately come to agreement on the fates of Lifera Peixes and Rufioh Nitram, since keeping people indefinitely in solitary confinement isn't exactly a permanent solution. Among those present are those two in question themselves, cuffed and guarded on opposite sides of the room. Among those NOT present is... the captain.* ERIDAN: *Eridan is totally sitting in Dirk's spot* ERIDAN: *tented fingers and all* ROSE: -Rose glances aronud.  For lack of a dirk.-  Is this... everyone who is going to be present for this? SUMMONER: *He sure as fuck is here. Someone with half a brain left has got to be. He's too stressed out and pissed off to sit, so he's leaning against a wall with his arms crossed, a deep scowl on his face.* JADE: *Jade doesn't look too surprised by this, if not a bit more serious than usual.* yes, i think so RUFIOH: *Doesn't make any difference to him. Rufioh's time in the slammer has the moth troll looking incredibly subdued and gaunt in the face. Not exactly the pinnacle of rebel rousing. He just gazes on, dully taking in the crowd as he shuffles his wrists in his cuffs.* CRONUS: *HE'S HERE..... and just kinda sitting here looking kinda down and out too* MEULIN: *She looks incredibly concerned. She's here, because she couldn't help but to be, forcing her way in if nothing else. It's just too important for her to miss. Even if everything about this is scary, and even former comforts don't help. She's sitting somewhere close to Dave.* FEFERI: *is here as part council member and part shipcurity. Her fins are pricked and she is on ALERT.* TEREZI: =She's at her normal council spot, but isn't sitting in the chair. Her mouth is drawn into a thin line and she has a death grip on her cane. 1t there more as the purpose of her own personal security blanket than used in a fight.= KARKAT: *He is also here* ROXY: *she sit* RUFIOH: *All around him are familiar faces.* SUMMONER: *His expression eases if Rufioh happens to look over this way, giving him a small reassuring nod. He has your back.* ROXY: *she feels sorry for him but don't stab people man :( * ROXY: *Why he gonna stab a strider when he couldn't stab a serket bruhtf* QIRIN: =She is here in CASE there's a fight. Also a voice of neutrality.= FEFERI: *She would high five Qirin if she was close enough.* LIFERA: *She, too, seems pretty resigned about this whole affair. She's not making any particular effort to look at anyone.* QIRIN: =She's aware of those highfive vibes and nods in Feferi's direction.= RUFIOH: *True... shit happens when you stab people. But hi Rhodri.* CRONUS: *he's probably also sitting by himself btw* ERIDAN: *once he's sure everyone's here that's going to be he finally speaks* so wwe all knoww wwhy wwere here but to fuckin reiterate the painfully obvvious if anyone decides to cause shit wwe wwont hesitate to havve em throwwn out ERIDAN: no malicious arguin no derailin just all on topic fate decidery ERIDAN: wwe wwill givve you a wwarnin if you start fallin outta good graces but after twwo wwarnins youre out an this goes for anyone present here ERIDAN: anyone ERIDAN: jade wwill lead the discussion in dirks stead KARKAT: *He misses throwing people out a lil...* MINDFANG: *Then he shouldnt have quit.* KARKAT: *He DIDN'T QUIT shitbiscuit* MINDFANG: *Thats quitter talk.* KARKAT: *Don't make him relive the glory days, he will chuck a bitch* TEREZI: =you tell em, honey= SUMMONER: *He does his best not to scoff at the rules. Of course it would be the higher ups that has the say in what is appropriate or not. Course it is. He bites it back though.* sure, noted, ERIDAN: *WELL DUH???* RAJANI: -watching rh0dri, despite everything that's happened. she's watching him VERY cl0sely- SUMMONER: *Ignoring Rajani very pointedly.* JADE: *she glances between Eridan and the various faces in the room for a few seconds* FEFERI: *She believes in you, Jade!* DAVE: -u got this babe- DAELOS: } --> -He is trying his best to keep himself calm and focused.- REDGLARE: -Sh3 k33ps h4r 4rms fold3d.  W41t1ng.  Sh3's 4t l34st prop3rly dr3ss3d th1s t1m3, 4nd looks 4 l1ttl3 b3tt3r-- l3ss t1r3d, th4t 1s-- w4tch1ng J4d3 qu13tly.- JOHN: *he's fidgeting a lot, but mostly focused on jade. although he keeps glancing back at rufioh.* CRONUS: *tensely rubbing at an arm as he keeps looking inbetween meulin and rufioh* JADE: to be completely clear... unfortunately our captain couldnt be here for this discussion for health reasons JADE: *she clears her throat* RUFIOH: *still looking tired and strained in the face as before. His hair's getting a little desaturated.* MINDFANG: *Is it wrong if she is kind of excited to be here? Well excited might be a generous term, but it was very interesting none the less.* TEREZI: =frowns a little, but other than that she's a statue= DAVE: -secretly texts dirk under the table, spamming him with lyrics from "i'm all out of love" by air supply- ROSE: -she scoots herself over to the seat next to Cronus and pats his hand, giving him a nod.- CRONUS: *jumps and glances at her* ... *gives her a small smile* JADE: due to the circumstances i think it would be best to begin our discussion with the situation we are all clearest on, and thats the incident that occurred in the atrium with rufioh nitram RUFIOH: *It him...* JADE: to best discuss this situation im going to recap the incident JADE: sometime after lifera peixes arrived on board the ship, dirk announced her presence and she herself gave a statement on her arrival inviting the crew to meet her in the atrium should they wish to speak her personally JADE: a crowd including several members of shipmen and security and commanding officers gathered to join her, and rufioh nitram was among the first to arrive, visibly upset with the situation, and eventually bringing up the idea of a trial JADE: the following discussion between those present became somewhat heated, and davenforth strider attempted to claim responsibility for the situation JADE: commanding officers and the captain tried to settle the situation by coming to an agreement on a council discussion to consider the possibility of a trial for lifera peixes JADE: it was after this decision that the captain gave the order to disperse, and then that rufioh nitram... unsheathed a sword and appeared before davenforth strider, stabbing him through the torso JADE: davenforth was sent to the infirmary in critical condition and remained comatose up until two days ago JADE: if anyone else has any essential information to offer to the understanding of this situation, please present it now CRONUS: *for ONCE he's not distressed he got no credit for anything he did.  INCREDI8LE* RUFIOH: *He might... but yknow. He did the thing, there's no doubt about it. He's gonna stay quiet unless prompted otherwise.* TEREZI: (wh4t w4s th3 subj3ct of th1s h34t3d d1scuss1on?) REDGLARE: Y3s.  Though th1s 1nform4t1on h4s no b34r1ng on r3l4t1v3 gu1lt or 1nnoc3nc3, 1t should b3 not3d th4t Ruf1oh N1tr4m's m4n1f3st3d unusu4l 4b1l1t13s wh3n h3 4pp34r3d b3for3 Str1d3r.  D1s4pp34r1ng for 4 mom3nt b3for3 r3m4t3r14l1z1ng.   REDGLARE: 1'm unc3rt41n 1f th3r3's 4ny pr3v1ous r3cord of such c4p4b1l1t13s on r3cord, but 1 doubt 1t. JADE: thank you officer RUFIOH: *Right... he had almost forgot about that. Damn. Fiddles with his fingers down in his lap.* JADE: the subject of the heated discussion revolved specifically around lifera peixes' presence, with differing opinions on the matter TEREZI: =Nods to Redglare in thanks. The details of how he appeared in front of Davenforth was to be her second question. She turns to Jade when she speaks and curtly nods her head.= (1 s33) DAVE: i mean as far as shit that happened DAVE: that sounds all accurate to me JADE: does anyone have anything else to offer to our understanding? MEULIN: *she's trying to get caught up reading all of this, really, and it's about now that she finally pipes up.* I-- I DO. KARKAT: *Karkat is just leaned back against the chair with his arms folding, watching people as they talk* CRONUS: *.... looks over at meulin* FEFERI: *Peixes staring at the crowd before turning her fishy gaze on Meulin.* MEULIN: *she squirms a little in her seat, knowing everyone's looking at her, and she swallows.* SUMMONER: *Tapping his fingers against his arm impatiently, about to open his mouth when Meulin speaks up. Looks at her instead.* MEULIN: RUFIOH, HE'S... HE, UM. MEULIN: HE'S B33N IN THE INFURMARY A LOT LATELY. FOR... MENTAL HEALTH. PROBLEMS. AND TAKING MEDICINE FUR IT. MEULIN: IT-- I THINK-- I MEAN... MEULIN: HE'S HAVING A HARD TIME. DAVE: -looks toward meulin and listens to her- MEULIN: I DON'T THINK HE WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN. MEULIN: NOT LIKE THIS. MEULIN: HE JUST HASN'T B33N ABLE TO S33 ANYTHING CLEARLY... MEULIN: AND HE N33DS HELP. MEULIN: HE JUST-- HE N33DS HELP. JOHN: meulin's right on that. *chimes in.* it's my opinion that rufioh does need help and continues to need access to medication and counseling. MEULIN: *she's glad for her own shades at that point, because she's blinking a lot behind them, trying to stave off the blurriness as she leans back in her chair.* ERIDAN: so im supposin the suggestion is to pull him outta detainment an just givve him heavvy help or someshit like that ERIDAN: is that right JADE: we can get to that in a moment ERIDAN: oh okay JADE: for now i just want to gather all the information we can JOHN: it's not a suggestion, just stating the facts. *nods*. RUFIOH: *exhales and closes his eyes. Just when he thought he wouldn't let himself be pained about this... It still doesn't change the fact and he keeps looking onward. Swallowing hard and avoidant of catching people's eyes. Thankfully he still had the bracelet.* SUMMONER: what more 1nformat1on 1s there that's even needed, 1t's not l1ke th1s 1s the f1rst t1me we've had stabb1ngs on th1s sh1p, the last far more fatal, *Shrugs a shoulder.* and the person respons1ble for that 1s walk1ng around free, or am 1 wrong? ERIDAN: that wwas after a far longer detainment period than this ERIDAN: FAAAR longer RAJANI: -glances at rh0dri- the pers0n resp0nsible? REDGLARE: H3's r3f3rr1ng to 4r4n34 S3rk3t, r3spons1bl3 for th3 murd3r of J4k3 Cl41r3.   SUMMONER: r1ght, *Another shrug, leaning heavily on the wall behind him.* 1'm just say1ng, that's all, *Thank you Redglare. He's not looking at Rajani.* JADE: *she purses her lips at that. she's not really happy about that whole thing either... it is all her family members that keep getting stabbed* CRONUS: *he's really debating speaking up about his own abilities, but.... something's stopping him.  He just keeps sitting here feeling helpless and useless*   JADE: the need for a discussion still remains as we handle these incidents on a case by case basis JADE: and far more involved than we had in the past JADE: *glances at Eridan* ERIDAN: *WHAT??* JADE: if anyone else has any more relevant information JADE: otherwise i would like to ask JADE: does everyone have a clear understanding on the situation? FEFERI: *side eyeing Cronus before speaking up* ...T)(ere was anot)(er ability at work t)(ere! JADE: ? FEFERI: Cronus Ampora )(as more information on t)(at. *DO IT, DUMMY.* RUFIOH: *Oh yeah... he kind of forgot about that too. Weird.* JOHN: *:/ why does cronus keep being really involved in these super important discussions. wherever there's trouble his name pops up.* ROXY: *right??* JADE: *GAZES at Cronus* CRONUS: yeah vwell... i tried passifying stuff vwith my music?  because thats a thing i can do nowv is control peoples moods vwith my music.  i dunno, this might partly be my fault all this happened?  im pretty sure i played the vwrong thing and influenced the vwrong thing. CRONUS: my bad. RUFIOH: *Cronus, no...* ROXY: *THIS BITCH* ROSE: -jESUS CHRIST- ROSE: That is ENTIRELY conjecture, I stress to add. JADE: ... can you explain what you mean by "the wrong thing?" FEFERI: ................ *Facepalms.* SUMMONER: *Gives Cronus a long look. Huh. Sounds pretty useful.* CRONUS: vwell i mean i vwas trying to calm all that heat?  i vwas playing some good ol black eyed peas, but i started getting really stressed out near the end, you knowv?  i think that might havwe done something. ERIDAN: *staring so hard* DAELOS: } -->  *Also staring so hard.* ROSE: -Her head thumps on the table.- TEREZI: =staring at the ceiling= JADE: *loud frowning* ROXY: *put HIM in jail* RUFIOH: ...none of that's true. *says with his actual voice* for the record. he was try1ng to calm sh1t down but. RUFIOH: 1 already knew what 1 wanted to do. ROSE: -oh thank god- MEULIN: *hrrrk* ROXY: *jay, ay, eye, ell* RUFIOH: *Sorry guys...* JADE: can anyone who was present confirm a lack of significant influence from cronus' song? DAVE: dont think you accidentally mind control someone into attempted murder CRONUS: *winces and tenses up*   CRONUS: *lack of significance.......?* DAVE: uh well ROXY: *he wants to be in jail, put him there* TEREZI: =Life used to be so simple before all this power nonsense. Simple...r.= DAVE: the whole scene was way too chill for what it warranted SUMMONER: *Oh Dave, read some Alternian history books and you'd be surprised. Though he's sure most of those incidents aren't as accidental as the people recording them down would like them to be.* DAVE: -exactly- JADE: can you clarify what you mean? REDGLARE: ...1 c4n conf1rm.  Th3r3 w3r3 4 m1x of 3mot1ons, but w1thout th3 b3n3f1t of h1nds1ght, 1 could not h4v3 s41d th3 3xp3r13nc3 f3lt "sup3rn4tur4l" 1n 4ny w4y.   REDGLARE: Th3r3 w4s 4 br13f p3r1od wh3n t3ns1ons s1mm3r3d.  N1tr4m f4lt3r3d, sh3d s3v3r4l t34rs.  Th1ngs b3g4n to fl4r3 4g41n shortly 4ft3r 4mpor4 3x1t3d th3 sc3n3. REDGLARE: 1 b3l13v3 th4t 1s wh4t Str1d3r 1s r3ff3rr1ng to. JADE: ... i see DAVE: but that doesnt make it cronuss fault JADE: then we can all come to a conclusion that his song did not influence rufioh's violent actions? CRONUS: *looks away from  everybody, clutching his arm*   DAVE: yeah FEFERI: Agreed! KARKAT: YEAH. ROSE: Yes.  Please. ROSE: -She lifts her head again.- JADE: alright JADE: then do we all feel we have a clear understanding of the situation? DAVE: yeah KARKAT: I DO. RAJANI: -she can't st0p l00king at lifera n0w, w0ndering h0w much this all must be dragging 0ut- ROXY: mhm REDGLARE: Y3s. LIFERA: *She's paying attention, though she barely looks like it. She's just staring down still.* JADE: ok JADE: then with that said JADE: id like us all to come to a conclusion on whether rufioh nitrams action could be considered a crime, and if so, what this crime entails in its entirety ERIDAN: *scoffs* a course its a crime KARKAT: I'D ACTUALLY LIKE TO ADD SOMETHING BUT I SURE AS HELL WASN'T THERE. SUMMONER: 1f we talk1ng "clear understand1ng" should we not also ment1on how these feel1ngs, act1ons, stemmed from 1n the f1rst place? stabb1ng people don't fly, sure, but try putt1ng yourself 1n h1s shoes, SUMMONER: your planet got blown to fuck thanks to a certa1n someone, and now suddenly someone you trusted br1ngs sa1d person on board, do you honestly th1nk anyone, mental 1llness or not, would be th1nk1ng very rat1onally about that? REDGLARE: 4r3 you sugg3st1ng P13x3s 1s r3spons1bl3 for th3 d3struct1on of B3forus? ERIDAN: pretty damned certain that wwas condy not her condy tried killin evveryone on board here if you care to fuckin remember that JOHN: ...yeah, uh stabbing people is definitley a crime, regardless of the reason. i'm just not sure if it was premeditated. i don't know if we should treat rufioh like a criminal when he was obviously mentally and emotionally compromised. but either way, his life has to change and we can't act like nothing happened. SUMMONER: 1 am say1ng the empress 1s respons1ble for her own war, for the fate of her own planet, for putt1ng 1t 1n that pos1t1on 1n the f1rst place, yes, that 1s what 1 am suggest1ng, ERIDAN: so the crimes condy wwas committin against the galaxy wwerent wworth fightin against RAJANI: regardless 0f what y0u believe, she is n0t resp0nsible f0r attempted murder 0n davenf0rth, 0f all pe0ple. ERIDAN: despite that bein exactly wwhat wwevve been doin RAJANI: 0f* ERIDAN: is that wwhat youre suggestin SUMMONER: have 1 ever sa1d that? 1t's worth f1ght1ng, but 1 am not go1ng to stand here and pretend that she has not com1tted atroc1t1es of her own, ROSE: ...As much as I can appreciate this avenue of discussion, we should focus on Rufioh's fate.  And table this until his situation has been squared away.   JADE: yes ROSE: He attacked Davenforth, not Lifera. JADE: rose is correct ROSE: And thus we have to look at the matter through a somewhat different lens. ROSE: Permit me, a moment, but based on what I've heard here-- RUFIOH: *Yep... it's true. He's staring at the ground.* ROSE: Between what Meulin has testified about his mental state, and his own account of the incident-- SUMMONER: r1ght, and 1 am try1ng to suggest a "mot1ve", that be1ng feel1ng betrayed, 1'm keep1ng 1t 1n the correct ballpark, l1ke you've all wanted 1t, ROSE: It would not be completely out of place to suggest what has taken place is a crime of sudden passion?  Intense feelings of insuppressable rage, rather than premeditated murder. ROSE: That does seem to be in the range of what you're suggesting as well.  -She nods towards the Summoner.- DAVE: oh it was hells the opposite of premeditated SUMMONER: *Nods.* yeah, ROSE: I'm glad we're on the same page, in that case. RAJANI: i'm n0t sure when we've ever c0nsidered g00d intenti0ns t0 be with0ut crime, h0wever. RUFIOH: *Here he comes, about to speak again.* RUFIOH:  he brought her here. *decides to say* he brought her here... and d1dn't ask nobody what they thought. not the capta1n, not the crew, not nobody. just d1d 1t cuz he could. fuck what anybody else m1ght have felt. RUFIOH: that's what he looked me 1n the face and told me. *So that's that.* ERIDAN: an wwe wwere gunna deal wwith that too the stabbed isnt wwithout fault DAVE: so thats what you do when people do somethin you disagree with ERIDAN: had you not stabbed him he wwoulda been able to punish him for his owwn crimes against the creww JADE: *looks around at everyone* ERIDAN: *wwe JADE: to clarify, youre saying this is why you chose him in particular? RUFIOH: *looks right at Jade when she speaks to him* yes. JADE: *she takes a breath* ok JADE: id like to return to our initial line of discussion SUMMONER: *Watches Rufioh speak, still not able to blame him for his actions. He would have done the same, had he been there. Perhaps not Davenforth would have been the target, but he isn't honest with himself if he tells himself that option was ruled out.* JADE: rose and rhodri both suggest this was a crime of passion JADE: can everyone agree on this? FEFERI: Yes, it sounds exactly like it. *sneaks a glance at Cronus again.* RAJANI: c0mpared t0 what? what kind 0f passi0n are we talking ab0ut? just the absence 0f premeditati0n? CRONUS: *he looks REALLY PAINED right now, still staring at the wall*   ROSE: And evident mental instability, yes. FEFERI: *Crofish...* MEULIN: *she's wearing a similar expression, frankly* FEFERI: *Why can't she hold all these guppies.* ROXY: *who are u anyway* andthe kind that happens when all the shit you had to deal with suddenly had a face that kinda passion??? idk what passion ur confused on RAJANI: it was 0bvi0usly n0t premeditated. but calling it the result 0f passi0n just...it feels t00 simple. ROSE: It's, ah.  I should clarify that it's a term used mostly on earth.  Generally as a statement of... partial guilt.   RAJANI: partial guilt. partial being the key w0rd here. ERIDAN: yeah accordin to earths shitty crime showws its like less bad than premeditation or someshit like that SUMMONER: *His nails dig into his arm when Rajani speaks, and this time he looks at her in a way he's never looked at her before. Roxy beats him to the punch, but still.* a face, and one that 1s r1ght there, not only one betrayal, but two, one from the person supposed to protect your home, and another from one you thought were your comerade, *Gives her an especially long look after the last statement, then looks away.* SUMMONER: 1t's not that fuck1ng d1ff1cult to understand, JADE: if everyone could please come to order REDGLARE: -gl4nc3ss b3tw33n Rhodr1 4nd R4j4n1- JADE: i think eridan and rose clarified the term well SUMMONER: *Keeps his eyes away, staring off to the side darkly.* RAJANI: i understand the term. JADE: then JADE: is there something you would like to suggest for consideration? RAJANI: w0uld it still be c0nsidered a crime 0f passi0n if, let's say, i were there and als0 admitted my inv0lvement in bringing her here. if he stabbed b0th 0f us. w0uld it be c0nsidered 0nly partial guilt if nitram had succeeded in ending davenf0rth's life? ROXY: why are you even what iffing?? ERIDAN: youre missin the point a the definition here REDGLARE: -Sh3 huffs.- REDGLARE: -Th4t thought 1s g3tt1ng h3r... 4ntsy.  Squ1rmy.  Sh3 do3sn't r34lly w4nt to th1nk 4bout... th4t.- SUMMONER: 1t would, he knew davenforth, not you, you're some stranger to h1m and wouldn't get such a pass1onate react1on out of 1t, ERIDAN: oh my fuck do wwe gotta pull out a goddamned dictionary here JADE: to answer the question JADE: yes JADE: it would be considered a crime of passion regardless ERIDAN: his sentence wwould be harsher if that wwere the fuckin case too but thats besides the goddamned point REDGLARE: You'r3 both sp3cul4t1ng.  Ruf1oh 1s s1tt1ng r1ght th3r3 1f th3r3's 4ny furth3r 1ns1ght h3'd l1k3 to 4dd 4bout h1s mot1v3s.  4nd w3 only know th3 cr1m3s h3 comm1tt3d 1n th4t 1nsubord1n4t1on, not-- REDGLARE: Not-- REDGLARE: ... REDGLARE: Th3 hypoth3t1c4ls you. REDGLARE: M3nt1on3d. REDGLARE: -Sh3 cl34rs h3r thro4t.- TEREZI: (1t s33ms 4s though d4v3nforth 1s not sol3ly to bl4m3 for th3 3mpr3ss's pr3s3nc3. 1f you w1sh w3 c4n d1scuss your f4t3 follow1ng our 1n1t14l purpos3 of th1s g4th3r1ng) =trying to get the conversation back on topic= (1f 1t m4k3s 4ny d1ff3r3nc3, 1 4gr33 th4t n1tr4ms 4ct1ons w3r3 '4 cr1m3 of p4ss1on.' 1t 1s 4n 4d3qu4t3 d3scr1pt1on) =she's looking out for you, Rufioh, for Horuss.= ERIDAN: yeah wwhat she said its hypothetical an not helpful to this decision JADE: yes id like to keep hypotheticals out of our discussion if possible JADE: i think we are all agreed on the description SUMMONER: 1'm sure ruf1oh 1s capable of speak1ng up 1f anyth1ng we say happen to be wrong, or 1f we are speak1ng over or for h1m 1n any way that's unreasonable, *Looks at Rufioh, looking expectant.* RUFIOH: *He's kind of directly responsible in the situation to give any kind of affirmative one way or the other. But he'll try anyway, looking exhausted all over again.* ...what 1 d1d. 1 knew what 1 was do1ng. RUFIOH: 1've been ready to accept the consequences s1nce 1 took up my sword. CRONUS: *deflates* JADE: ... ok JADE: i think in that case TEREZI: =clears her throat= (jad3 3xcus3 m3 for 4 mom3nt... 1 b3l13v3 th3 form3r h34d of s3cur1ty h4d som3th1ng to 4dd) =Glances over to Karkat expectantly= JADE: yes? SUMMONER: *Gives Rufioh a small crooked smile at his exhausted expression, followed by a little encouraging nod to go on. It's gonna be alright, just gotta stay positive. Hopeful, at least. When he looks out in the room again it's with the same glum expression as before. So serious.* KARKAT: RHODRI SAID MOST OF WHAT I WANTED TO SAY, THE ONLY THING I WOULD SAY I WOULD'VE ADDED THAT THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF HER BEING HERE WASN'T ALL THAT HELPFUL.   FEFERI: *Yea)(...* JADE: yes, i think we can all agree that was largely what triggered this event ERIDAN: wwe had no goddamned choice she wwas already wwanderin around outside her fuckin room JADE: *looks at Eridan like pls stop* KARKAT: I'M JUST SAYING MAYBE NOT HAND HER THE MIC. REDGLARE: -Sh3 looks 4w4y 4g41n.- REDGLARE: -ugh.- ERIDAN: an howw do you think things wwoulda wwent dowwn if wwe hadnt had anythin said an the creww found out ERIDAN: just you knoww ERIDAN: mysteriously JADE: please, order SUMMONER: maybe have a emergency crew meet1ng, w1thout her present, w1thout her allowed to take a stand and speak to us w1thout a face and out of nowhere, SUMMONER: speak, d1scuss, come to an agreement, SUMMONER: not just drop a fuck1ng bomb 1n our lap and say "here you go, deal w1th 1t", JOHN: we're still trying to figure out what should happen to rufioh. we need to stay on topic. if we're deciding what shoudl happenw ith someone's life, we should give it our full attention. JADE: i understand there are a lot of impassioned feelings on this subject but i would like us to return discussing the charges ERIDAN: *his fins are starting to flare, and there may be a small growl in his throat* SUMMONER: he asked for thoughts, 1 gave m1ne, SUMMONER: but a1ght, sure, REDGLARE: -Sh3 gr1nds h3r t33th 4 b1t.-  F1n3. JADE: and i asked for order JADE: so please come to order REDGLARE: -Sh3 st4r3s 4t j4d3 4 mom3nt.  Sh3 w4s prob4bly go1ng to s4y... som3th1ng, but sh3's just r3str41n1ng h3rs3lf for now.- SUMMONER: *Bites the inside of his cheek hard to keep from hissing a "whatever". Looks out in the air again.* JADE: i think we can all agree that the situation was spurned on by the passion of what occurred and no further speculation there is needed JADE: i would like for us to be able to come to an agreement on the crime itself FEFERI: I agree wit)( t)(e crime's nature! *She's just anxious to keep this moving.* JADE: with the current proposals, i think this may be best defined as attempted voluntary manslaughter, due to provocation and diminished capacity ROSE: Whateer legal jargon best suits our purposes, yes. ROSE: I agree. TEREZI: =4ccording to the 4lternian legal system, any warmblood attack on...yeah she wasn't even going to think about the 4lternian legalese right now.= CRONUS: *he's starting to feel really nauseated, his face paling, even though his gaze stays on the wall* ERIDAN: *alternians wouldn't care, it was a human that got stabbed* REDGLARE: F1n3.   ROSE: - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ - JADE: *technically, it's still being sort of generous, even... there was a 'cooling off" period, if only brief. she's not going to bring that up now though* RUFIOH: *Yeah... even Rufioh agrees. Werp. No comment.* JADE: in other words, an attempt to kill that was not premeditated, and brought on by a passionate incident and mental illness JADE: if we can all agree about this ERIDAN: i agree FEFERI: *She glubs distantly. That means yes.* DAVE: yeah JOHN: yeah ROXY: agreed CRONUS: *he just makes a weird noise, who knows what it was* KARKAT: YEAH. TEREZI: =hypotheticals! There arent many humans on 4lternia, are there?= DAVE: -jinx u owe me a soda egbert- DAVE: -u owe me a fresh aj- JADE: then i think we should discuss to what extent we have the right to punish him for this crime DAVE: -can't talk til i say ur name- TEREZI: (4gr33d) REDGLARE: F1n3.  So long 4s h3's r3l13v3d of h1s dut13s.  1 don't w4nt h1m 1n my d3p4rtm3nt.   JADE: does anyone have any thoughts about relieving rufioh of his duties? MEULIN: I THINK. THAT MIGHT BE BEST. TEREZI: =nods= (st1ll, 1 b3l13v3 h3 should b3 g1v3n 4 s3ns3 of purpos3 wh3n h3 1s 4bl3) TEREZI:  (such 4s 1n th3...l4st s1tu4ton) SUMMONER: sounds fa1r enough to me, granted 1'd say he should have a chance to rejo1n a d1fferent department 1f he so w1shes, after gett1ng some therapy anyways, those department heads can dec1de 1f they want h1m or not, and 1f he should do more or less than the rest all depend1ng, *Shrugs.* SUMMONER: *Nods to Terezi.* yeah, JOHN: i think so too. it won't be good for him to have nothing to work towards. FEFERI: If )(e's unstable, s)(ould )(e )(ave access to weapons? ERIDAN: hell no TEREZI: =it's why she said 'able'= JADE: i think those are fair suggestions JOHN:  i want to say that i just assigned one of our new counselers to visit him on a regular basis in detainment. i think that should continue when he is released as well. and i think there should be meetings with superiors to check on his progress. JADE: that sounds reasonable as well JADE: id like to discuss the concept of a release, and what circumstances everyone thinks it should be under RUFIOH: *He just wants to sleep for ages more tbh.* CRONUS: immediately. TEREZI: =blinks at cronus.= CRONUS: *says it pretty flatly* CRONUS: hes already been in there a long time.  you should release him immediately. CRONUS: and besides. CRONUS: *looks over at everyone finally* CRONUS: im going to be going on a big mission soon and vwho knowvs howv mentally able ill be capable of performing my owvn duty if i knowv hes still detained. CRONUS: and... heh.  im the only one vwho can appeal to ramiel. FEFERI: *Gdi Cronus.* ERIDAN: *GRUNTS* ROXY: *raises eyebrow* FEFERI: *giving Cronus such a look of disapproval right now* I T)(INK if it's soon... it could be conducted under block arrest? Followed by close supervision and t)(e counseling Jo)(n is suggesting. TEREZI: =she's never liked threats. never.= MEULIN: *she just kinda gives Cronus a weird look* JADE: i had a similar thought feferi JADE: i think it might be best if rufioh returned to the medical wing under close supervision ROXY: (um yeah thats p much how u try 2 bargain in ur favor ffs) ROXY: *get a load of this asshole* JADE: the doctors and counselors would be close and able to monitor his environment and needs FEFERI: I t)(ink t)(at sounds reasonable. JOHN:  *gives Cronus a real sour look.* DAVE: -nods- ERIDAN: wwell if hes sorta bein still detained just in a different envvironment i suppose i cant be opposed to that JADE: i think it would also be best if he were under constant supervision outside of the medical wing JADE: at least until a time he could be deemed not a threat REDGLARE: -GR1ND1NG H3R T33TH>-  F 1 n 3.   FEFERI: *Did Redglare have something to add?* FEFERI: *glancing her way* JADE: *she's giving her that look too* SUMMONER: *Looks at Redglare and refrains from making a joke about how she said that "fine" precicely like a person that doesn't think it's fine at all.* SUMMONER: *He says it with HIS EYES.* TEREZI: =Talula, you are R34LLY doing Terezi a concern.= REDGLARE: -Sh3's look1ng 4w4y.  Sh3 c3rt41nly h4s NOTH1NG TO 4DD OUT LOUD, 4t l34st.- DAVE: -looks like he's thinking about something for a moment- CRONUS: *he's got a really dark look across his face as he glances redglares way, although the dark look is unrelated to her* DAVE: actually can i uh DAVE: hmm JADE: ? JADE: *giving him the look now*] DAVE: -scratches the back of his head- are we saying like DAVE: because of the mental illness part DAVE: thats why he did what he did JADE: its being considered a contributing factor ERIDAN: clearly not the wwhole he admitted to be bein clearheaded for his crimes DAVE: well i mean i know what he admitted but -seems a littel conflicted- DAVE: little* DAVE: what were kinda ruling on this whole thing JADE: attempted voluntary manslaughter, due to provocation and diminished capacity ROSE: That remains a ridiculous tangle of words. JADE: *thank u rose* DAVE: but the diminished capacity part like JADE: *she's just furrowing her brows at dave* DAVE: you guys think its enough to be a part of the reason to making the choice to-- JADE: to what? DAVE: -he's having such a hard time articulating right now and tHOSE EYEBROWS- DAVE: like that whatever he was going through like i dunno if it was depression or schizophrenia or what that that alone was enough to kinda DAVE: push it off the edge DAVE: be the catalyst DAVE: i guess RUFIOH: *Closes his eyes as they talk over him. Feels himself going going... he's gone from his brain, his mind, his heart places. He's here but not. When everyone talks, it sounds like garbling of filtered voices. Let him rest.* JADE: i think we are all saying that JADE: it contributed to a mental state that allowed the situation to escalate JADE: or so several people seem to have suggested previously JADE: that he needs supervision and medical help JADE: *looks at John like right??* DAVE: but youre saying it also influenced his decision to assault unc-- davenforth DAVE: cuz i mean its being included in the ruling were proposing so ERIDAN: wwhats the fuckin problem davve spill it DAVE: im just trying to clarify here JADE: ... yes? ROSE: Dave. DAVE: why it has anything to do with the assault itself DAVE: what JOHN: *nods* i mean his problems started way before davenforth or lifera were ever involved. i'm not sure whether it influenced his decision but...it lessened his self worth. ROSE: Can I talk to you alone for a moment?  Would that be alright with the room? SUMMONER: *He doesn't want to speak over Rufioh, but he can feel how the multitude of old scars on his own back feel like they are burning. He looks to Rufioh while Jade looks to John, giving him a long searching look as he appears to have gone someplace else.* CRONUS: *UHHHHH* DAVE: uh i guess JOHN: when you don't care about what's going to happen to you, i think you're more likely to do rash and terrible things. JOHN: *looks at Rose like...right??* ROSE: -She gives him kind of a distant nod.- JADE: ... yes JADE: thats fine ROSE: Thanks. SUMMONER: *Slight flick of an ear at John's all too home hitting words, still looking at Rufioh.* JOHN: *stares at rose and dave in concern.* JOHN: *:c* JADE: *she's looking between all three of them, a little distressed* ROSE: -She's just gonna slip out into the hallway there- DAVE: -gets up and follows her- RUFIOH: *fiddling with the bracelet to himself, still keeping his eyes closed.* JADE: *she clears her throat again* JADE: um JADE: so CRONUS: *he REALLY tenses up now that rose has left, feeling kinda jittery and agitated now* ROSE: -W H OOOPs- MEULIN: *and she's sad that Dave left...* MEULIN: ... *glances at Cronus* JADE: so we were considering CRONUS: *he looks like he's on the verge of puking*   JADE: keeping rufioh under a sort of JADE: block confinement within in the medical wing under supervision FEFERI: I t)(ink t)(at's reasonable. *reiterates.* TEREZI: (y3s) KARKAT: YEAH. KARKAT: *Watches that dave went tho* CRONUS: does it havwe to be in the medical vwing.  *gritting his teeth* JADE: for the purpose of his care, it seems like the best place JADE: and for the purpose of safety JADE: does anyone have any better suggestion? CRONUS: fine.  vwhatevwer.   RUFIOH: 1t'll be okay... *mutters but not to anyone in particular. Hopefully Cronus will hear him. He's having a hard time being present right now.* CRONUS: ... *looks over at him* MEULIN: *She doesn't hear that, but she sees it on her shades. She's trying to figure out who said it.* CRONUS: *he really doesn't believe anything is going to be okay, but it still helped on small level* SUMMONER: *He's been looking at Rufioh all this time, and when he speaks he doesn't find himself greatly reassured. But. It's something. A little bit, and sometimes that's enough to hang on. He finds himself glancing to Rajani before catching himself and looking to the floor.* SUMMONER: th1nk 1t's reasonable, yeah, JADE: *she breathes out a tight breath* JADE: okay JADE: then i propose we make arrangements for this effective immediately JADE: and we may have future discussions on his progress as necessary JADE: does everyone agree to this? FEFERI: Agreed! *This is as reasonable a sentence as it's gonna get. Is still keeping her eye on Cronus.* JOHN: yuppers! ERIDAN: yeah might as wwell just excort him noww he doesnt look like hell be super present for the next leg a our discussion TEREZI: =nods= JADE: actually JADE: its been a long night JADE: i think if everyone is okay with it, id like to adjourn our next discussion for tomorrow CRONUS: *he definitely needs that... he's really not sure how much longer he'd last either* RUFIOH: *Oh. It might be time to be escorted outtie soon. Someone say something to him?* SUMMONER: *He'd rather get this over with asap. He has words, many words. But it looks like people need a break, so. He nods quietly.* ERIDAN: alright wwell adjourn this then ERIDAN: fef wwhy dont you do the honors a escortin ruf to the infirmary wwith john RAJANI: -feels like she hasn't breathed this wh0le time- TEREZI: =gives summy a knowing look. she's knows, friendo= REDGLARE: -Sh3's gl4d sh3 do3sn't h4v3 to do 4ny 3scort1n.  Sh3's l34v1ng 4lr34dy.- JOHN: *gives her a lil bow* after you miss shipman, ma'am. ERIDAN: *HE COULD TELL REDGLARE WOULDNT BE UP TO IT* REDGLARE: -TH4NK U- LIFERA: *she's probably being escorted out at some point too* SUMMONER: *He's leaving not far behind Redglare, not eager to be around Lifera or Rajani for longer than he has to.* FEFERI: *nods at attention! And... John please. Gestures for Rufioh to stand and starts guiding him out.* JOHN: *off he goes.* CRONUS: *he stands up, but doubles over and really does puke* RAJANI: -she quietly leaves, likely in the same directi0n that enables her t0 keep a subtle eye 0n lifera- ERIDAN: *WRINKLES HIS NOSE* JOHN: *aw jeez. well let's just keep going.* RUFIOH: *...........Cronus...* TEREZI: =B4CKP3D4LS!!= QIRIN: =Oh my.= JADE: .... JADE: *quietly calls for cleaning crew* CRONUS: *coughs, then just... starts shakily walking out like nothing happened* MEULIN: !! MEULIN: *shit...* MEULIN: *She looks around for a second and.... follows after Cronus* QIRIN: =Goes to grab a Wet Floor sign and some paper towels to at least slow the spread.- JADE: *bless you qirin* QIRIN: =It is of no consequence, Jade! ^_^  She would have never been allowed to experience such an opportunity had she remained queen!= TEREZI: =She's gonna tell Karkat brb and goes running after Redglare.=

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would jade use anything from bad dragon or alchemize any bad dragon esque items, also would she comission porn?

fucking YES?????????? GIVE JADE THE WEREWOLF MONSTER DICK

im not sure if she would commission porn….. she would probably just look up things she likes (art, mostly) for free, i dont think she would be into anything specific enough to want to commission for it…. or even if she were, she probably couldnt justify the money spending to herself lol

if she were with a partner that wanted something specific tho, then maybe yes

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📱JOHN

[hey john i know youre probably asleep… im just having trouble with it againnothing new there!! loli know this sounds weird… but do you ever forget growing up?sometimes i feel like i can barely remember how things used to beeven though most of the time we knew each other was talking online and everything, it feels like it was such a long time ago that i have a hard time thinking of what that was even likebut even so… i cant help missing ithow things used to bebeing able to make plans and follow them through and knowing what to expect]20 mins later[sorryim going to try to sleep now <3goodnight john!]

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-- growingGradience [GG] began pestering effluentBalatron [EB] at 21:55 -- GG: hey!! EB: jade is that you? EB: your green text is almost foreign and alien to me! GG: wow! rude GG: lol just kidding GG: i know i havent been around much :( GG: it is hard to be a mom and a worker at the same time you know! GG: and now i am going to have whole new responsibilities... EB: oh my gosh jade. that was a pretend guilt trip not an actual guilt trip. GG: yes i know! GG: but maybe i am pretend complaining at you GG: except real pretend complaining EB: it's oky if it's actual complaining. :) GG: XO GG: haha i will be ok! GG: i have really wanted to talk to you though EB: yeah i've been feeling like that too. EB: i think we have the stephen king twin hivemind thing going on here, haha. GG: oh gosh EB: don't worry, i won't blow anythng up with my minds. EB: as long as you don't cross me. EB: :) EB: anyways, besides being crushed by all your adult responsibilities, how's it going? GG: sorry john! crossing things is what i do best GG: it is ok though GG: things have been kind of weird for a lot of reasons but... im sure you know EB: uh. what are you referring to specifically? EB: sorry, there's a lot of weird stuff... EB: if we're having a powwow we might as well get down into the nitty gritty! GG: ok that is fair GG: i guess it is a lot of things really GG: like... karkat GG: that is probably the biggest EB: uh yup. that is...i'm not gonna contest that. EB: that wins. GG: yeah GG: but GG: i also had a very dumb thing happen recently GG: with dave and eridan EB: oh no...did they fight eachother? EB: :( GG: no GG: which is good! GG: but it was really just... a big mistake i made EB: aww. what was it? GG: well GG: urg EB: you'll feel better if you talk about it! GG: eridan and i had talked quite a while ago about possibly doing some sort of... platonic kismesis thing GG: but i told him i needed to think about it and talk to dave too GG: but with everything happening i just... completely forgot and never got around to it GG: and i guess eridan assumed everything was fine GG: and dave found out we were "dating" GG: it was just really stupid EB: oh jeez. what a mess! EB: what happened? GG: well... i just decided it wasnt a good idea GG: so i told him we shouldnt do it GG: and he seems pretty upset by it... and i just wish i had done this sooner EB: EB: i did notice him acting kind of weird lately! EB: i mean more weird than he usually acts. and taking into account losing his mobility and almost dying. GG: yeah that is all a pretty good reason to be weird EB: poor guy. EB: :( EB: you have to do what's in your heart though, jade. EB: and that's what you did. EB: as hard as it is. GG: thank you john GG: i knew it was the right thing to do but... GG: it wasnt fun EB: i've never had to break up with anybody but it looks freaking terrible. GG: yes :( GG: but GG: i did have something i wanted to talk to you about GG: that isnt about other people, at least EB: i hope you guys can still be friends- EB: oh. EB: haha, alright. EB: well, i'm all ears. GG: i guess i was just wondering what you were thinking GG: about what we found out EB: ohh... EB: what do you think? GG: im not really sure EB: jade, like... EB: i've been trying really hard not to feel things about it? EB: 'cause everyone keeps saying it shouldn't matter. EB: but it matters to me. GG: it matters to me too GG: i mean... this is our lives GG: who we are GG: maybe it doesnt matter in the grand scheme of things but GG: i think we should be able to care about it EB: that's nice to think. GG: i feel like GG: it helps some things to make more sense GG: why i never knew who my parents were GG: why i grew up the way i did GG: why we were even included in some experiment GG: that was just... what we were supposed to be from the beginning GG: according to somebody EB: having answers is good, i guess. EB: but i'd lie if i said i wasn't pissed off. EB: about some things. EB: i just don't want to be pissed off AT anybody. GG: i get that EB: you know...ugh. EB: you'd probably understand this better than anybody. GG: hmm? EB: my dad has never willingly told me ANYTHING. everything has to be a dramatic reveal. or i have to find it out myself. EB: even when it wouldn't compromise his mission. EB: he knew dave for years, and i still found out by talking to dave and not him. EB: i know it's stupid to complain because my dad is so great but. EB: i dunno, it sucks sometimes. GG: ... yeah GG: i do know what you mean GG: grandpa never really told me much until it seemed like he had to GG: it doesnt feel great to keep finding things out like this GG: its like we dont just deserve to know these things GG: but thats not right EB: is it because they don't trust us on some level? EB: is it because they're scared of us on some level? EB: man... GG: im not sure if its either really GG: i guess trying to protect someone can be not trusting them though EB: i can see that. EB: they are just people who try their best. GG: yeah... they are GG: it still hurts though GG: even if they didnt mean it to EB: i think i'm more okay with it hurtng if there's somebody here that understands. EB: you know like a freaky clone sibling or something! EB: <3 GG: pfffffhehehe GG: of course GG: me too! GG: it is just too bad theres no one like that around here GG: life is just so boring without test tube brothers :/ EB: yeah, it's a shame there's no half dog test tube sisters around either. GG: that is ODDLY specific john EB: don't talk to me about odd, missy. GG: are you trying to tell me you are really into dogs??? GG: it is ok you can tell me! GG: i happen to also love dogs :) EB: i EB: jesus christ, jade. GG: what!! EB: >:/ GG: :| EB: pfft. you are so WEIRD!!! EB: you're so lucky dave is as big of a freak as you are so you guys can be freak married together. GG: oh john... GG: you have no idea EB: yeah, let's keep it that way. GG: :P!!! EB: :P!!! GG: hey dont copy me! GG: that was original GG: do not steal! EB: excuse me, you do not own colon p. EB: exclaimation exclaimation exclaimation. GG: its COLON P EXCLAMA GG: oh GG: haha!! GG: yes that EB: i was doing that shit back in the ghost trickster days! GG: its mine!!!!! EB: nuh uh! GG: alllll miiiiiine GG: no one else can have it GG: deviantart is going to be really mad at you john! EB: speaking of deviantart. EB: i wonder what happened to your old account. EB: i bet i could find it. GG: oh my god no!!!! EB: hehehhheehe. EB: i'm just kidding jade, i'm not that mean. GG: nooooo oh GG: good! GG: whew EB: i said the same thing to rose but about livejournal. EB: she flipped out. EB: hahahhaha. GG: i could live with i guess but... GG: im honestly kind of afraid to remember how much manthro chaps i drew EB: luckily for you, i'm just as afraid of that as you are. EB: i'd prefer that darkness to stay buried. GG: thanks :) EB: anyways, i'm working on some alchemizing a lot of child friendly furniture! EB: so i'm gonna get back to that. GG: oooohhhhh!! GG: yes dont let me keep you! that sounds pretty important GG: and also very cute EB: it's both things! EB: and so are you! GG: just like y GG: gosh darn it!! EB: (hahhahah burn) EB: wait. EB: god damn it. GG: lol!!!!!! EB: stop it, this is getting weird. GG: maybe we are actually weird clone twins after all!!!! EB:  hahahha. GG: spooky GG: TOO spooky GG: ok i will go and let you be only half as spooky! EB: meh, i'll work myself into your schedule again soon. :) EB: nighty night! GG: you better!!! GG: bye john! GG: <3 <3 <3 EB: bye! -- growingGradience [GG] ceased pestering effluentBalatron [EB] at 00:23 --

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Intoducing, the New Captain.....................

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JADE: -here she is, peeking into Eridan's infirmary room to see if he's awake.- eridan? ERIDAN: *HE IS, and he's reading this time.  He blinks and looks up at her* oh hey jade JADE: hey -she smiles a little and shuffles in- how are you feeling? ERIDAN: i dunno i think im startin to get better ERIDAN: i had a fuckin scare wwith the shitty pain meds but the neww ones arent bad JADE: ohh JADE: well thats good JADE: so youre feeling alright now? ERIDAN: *nods* yeah no nausea no pain no nothin JADE: thats really good :) JADE: -sits down- ERIDAN: so uh wwhats the occassion wwhatre you here for JADE: well JADE: there is something i sort of need to talk about JADE: if youre up to it ERIDAN: i feel up to discussin anythin right noww JADE: -well... she sure hopes that's true, because this isn't going to be fun. she's not really smiling about this now, and she's quiet for a second as she gathers her thoughts- JADE: i talked to dave and i put some more thought into this that... i really needed to JADE: because its been in the back of my mind for too long with everything else happening JADE: i dont think that we should go through with the quadrant thing ERIDAN: *expression immediately changes from the really casual look to... well, he definitely looked like his heart was breaking* wwh ERIDAN: uh ERIDAN: wwhat do you mean JADE: -nooooo damn it- JADE: i just JADE: feel like maybe im doing it for the wrong reasons JADE: and that i dont really understand JADE: and i dont want to do that to you or anybody else JADE: not without being totally sure of what im doing JADE: it wouldnt be fair JADE: i still want to be close to you JADE: i dont  want that to change at all ERIDAN: but youre ERIDAN: breakin up wwith me JADE: -urg...- i just... dont want to take up your quadrant without... really knowing what im doing JADE: i still see you like... a good friend JADE: and i dont think thats not really fair to you JADE: **thats really JADE: i mean thats not what you want is it? ERIDAN: n ERIDAN: no but i ERIDAN: *looks down at his hands, gripping the edge of his blanket, tears stinging his eyes* JADE: -god she really didn't want this...- im sorry JADE: i shouldnt have done this to begin with without knowing what i was getting into JADE: thats my fault JADE: and its my fault youre hurt JADE: i wanted to try but JADE: it was selfish ERIDAN: nevvermind im not feelin so great maybe my medication isnt wworkin *scoots himself into his blankets best he can, trying to hide* JADE: ... eridan.... JADE: do you JADE: want me to go ERIDAN: *doesn't even respond as he pulls the blanket over his head* JADE: ... ok JADE: ill JADE: let you rest JADE: -man. she really hates doing this, and she knows she has no one to blame but herself. he should be allowed to feel upset, at least, so she just... stands up and starts walking out- ERIDAN: *he wants to say something, he wants to stop her, so many questions swirling through his head, but all he does is lay there feeling ridiculous and stupid under that blanket*

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-- growingGradience [GG] began pestering technologicGodot [TG] -- GG: dave?? TG: yeah GG: can we talk? TG: yeah GG: ok GG: can you come to the room? DAVE: -he doesn't respond, but he does go to the room, entering and taking a breath before he does- JADE: -Dove is asleep and she is standing there. She looks both worried and relieved when Dave steps in- hey...! DAVE: -he can't say the same about her, but he looks around the room- what do you need JADE: i... need to talk to you about something JADE: that i should have talked to you about a while ago JADE: can we sit down? DAVE: dirk told you didnt he JADE: ... JADE: i asked him where you were JADE: dave JADE: i wasnt trying to lie to you about anything! and im not hiding anything JADE: eridan asked me a while ago if-- we wanted to do that quadrant thing and i told him only if it was platonic JADE: and that i wanted to talk to you about it first JADE: theres just been so much going on i... never felt like there was a good time JADE: but i should have JADE: youre more important to me than to let something like this hurt you JADE: and JADE: im sorry DAVE: -he's still standing because he just doesnt feel like sitting down. too many thoughts are spinning around in his head- ok DAVE: but according to eridan you guys seem to have it as a thing already DAVE: he compared you two to roxy and latula JADE: i... have no idea what roxy and latula do honestly! JADE: but maybe he thinks you and i already talked about it and thats my fault too JADE: ive been helping him a lot and weve been getting pretty close JADE: but thats really it! DAVE: but close how DAVE: if its supposedly just friends who get frustrated with each other sometimes JADE: yeah! it is like that JADE: i dont do anything with him that i wouldnt do with like... sollux or something JADE: he just wants to call it a quadrant and im ok with that but only if you are too DAVE: so you feel the same way about sollux that you do with eridan DAVE: is that what youre saying JADE: well...! i dont want to kick solluxs butt nearly as much but JADE: yeah pretty much DAVE: then how is it a quadrant at all JADE: i-- dont know! JADE: -she feels sort of stuck. It made sense in her head, but trying to explain it now...- JADE: i just thought... JADE: it would be like agreeing to help each other JADE: -or agreeing to help him anyway... he obviously needed it- JADE: maybe it was just JADE: a stupid idea JADE: its not like i really get it JADE: and i dont want to if its going to be like this JADE: -she seems somewhat decisive about this- DAVE: do you like DAVE: touch him DAVE: or kiss him JADE: weve... hugged?? DAVE: is he going to be doves dad too JADE: no of course not! JADE: im not even thinking this is a good idea anymore JADE: i think i thought about this for all the wrong reasons DAVE: look DAVE: i dont want to keep you away from shit you want JADE: this isnt like that JADE: i think i just JADE: wanted to help and i thought this was the best way i could JADE: of course i care but... im just doing something dumb because of it DAVE: its not dumb if you want it JADE: it is dumb JADE: im just getting mixed up in things i dont understand for selfish reasons JADE: and its not fair to anybody JADE: if i dont even know how its a quadrant then who am i to say it should be a thing? DAVE: jade he made it sound like you guys were solidly there JADE: he and i can still be close!! JADE: but if im just taking up his quadrant without knowing why JADE: thats not fair JADE: and i never wanted you to feel like this DAVE: are you sure theres no reason JADE: theres not enough of one JADE: not for something like this JADE: i wanted to talk to you to get my thoughts straight and... now i have DAVE: ok -he still feels pretty unsettled about this whole thing mainly because he doesn't really get what any of this was, but for now he can accept it- if thats what you needed JADE: -just... frowns up at him- JADE: it was never like us dave JADE: not at all JADE: im just sorry all this happened this way... JADE: its my fault that nothing was ever made clear JADE: to anybody JADE: its just been so far at the back of my mind... i honestly kind of forgot about it JADE: -and that's just another reason this seems like a bad idea- DAVE: its ok DAVE: i know you didnt mean for this to happen the way it did DAVE: and you didnt try to make this something that would interfere JADE: yes i am pretty much done with all of that at this point JADE: theres no way i would ever want to do anything to change our relationship JADE: im sure about that JADE: ... do you want to come sit with me DAVE: -he nods and sits next to her- JADE: ... -carefully, she gets her arms around him- JADE: im sorry dave DAVE: its ok DAVE: sorry for freaking out JADE: you dont have to apologize for that JADE: of course you were scared JADE: -nuzzles at his cheek, placing a little kiss there- DAVE: -sighs- i uh DAVE: didnt know it was a platonic thing at first JADE: -frown- i know JADE: but i promise JADE: i would never do that ok? JADE: theres no way i could hide something like that from you anyway JADE: i felt so bad when someone else kissed me that i told you immediately remember?? hahaha DAVE: -nods, kind of laughing at that whole thing- yeah DAVE: mrs officer JADE: gosh... JADE: that was such a dumb mess haha JADE: but it all worked out JADE: for the best! DAVE: yeah haha DAVE: -looks over toward dove- that girl can sleep JADE: haha dont jinx it!! JADE: shes having a good nap today DAVE: pretty sure you could like set an alarm right next to her ear and she wouldnt even wake up JADE: ill set an alarm next to your ear JADE: one that calls you a big noob JADE: owned!!!! DAVE: what the fuck DAVE: what did i do to deserve this DAVE: im a pro here DAVE: that alarm is lyin JADE: more like JADE: a... JADE: prop JADE: -leans all over him- DAVE: -looks down at her- you know that doesnt make sense right JADE: it makes perfect sense!! JADE: only a noob wouldnt get it JADE: that proves how much more mgl i am -Jade it's mlg...- DAVE: ... DAVE: -bursts out in so much laughter he has to bury his face in her shoulder so he doesn't wake up dove- JADE: oh my god DAVE: mlg jade DAVE: mlg JADE: milg? JADE: is that like mother id like to... grope???? DAVE: oh my god DAVE: jade DAVE: jade DAVE: jade JADE: mother id like to go... out on a date with! DAVE: no theres no i in there DAVE: but if there was youd be my milg in both respects JADE: :D DAVE: my milg and my milf JADE: i will be both for you any time DAVE: dont let dove hear that DAVE: shes gonna get embarrassed JADE: she doesnt know what a milf milg is DAVE: well you just said what milg is JADE: shhhhh DAVE: you shh JADE: make me?? DAVE: -kisses her- JADE: -leans all into him. RIGHT WHERE SHE WANTED YOU- DAVE: -perfect, because his hands are going to cup her face to keep her there-

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Eridan’s Announcement

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ERIDAN: *he's been awake for a couple days now, still not feeling super used to his current state.  He was feeling suprisingly optimistic despite it, but optimistic for him wasn't entirely pessimism free, and right now he was in one of those more pessimistic moments.  At least he had more things to do now, and was currently trying to keep himself busy with a FIRE EMBLEM game on one of roxy's handheld game systems* JADE: -it's definitely not the best time right now, especially not with how she's been seeing Dave, but at least there's one thing that's managed to pull through and come out for the best. She did tell him that they would do this together, and it's such a relief that Eridan managed to pull through, more than she had realized until the fear of losing him was so imminent. Some feelings were just hard to quantify until the worst possible moments, and as shameful as that felt not to fully realize, she knew now. And now she was going to bug him, to make sure he was awake and staying that way. She's pretty sure he might not be able to eat solid food right now, but she did bring some flameless scented candles, just because.- JADE: eridan hi!! ERIDAN: *he glanced up from the game, his fins perking slightly* oh hey jade fancy seein you here JADE: i know so fancy! JADE: i should have dressed up :p JADE: -plops the "candles" on his bedside table- ERIDAN: wwhatre those *nods to the candles*  *he goes ahead and closes the ds and sets it to the side* JADE: theyre flameless candles! JADE: so you can smell good things if you want to but not worry about anything being on fire JADE: also they look kind of soothing and nice i think ERIDAN: wwoah i didnt evven knoww shit like that existed JADE: yeah!! JADE: it totally exists and now you know and also own them :) JADE: was that one of roxys games? ERIDAN: yeah she brought me a bunch *looks down at the system* particularly ones that fit in neatly wwith my interests such as this JADE: what is it? ERIDAN: its called fire emblem an its about commandin an army typically a rebels attemptin to down the evvil kingdoms lookin to thwwart them an their people JADE: oh!!! JADE: i love that one! ERIDAN: wwoah youvve played ERIDAN: *it JADE: yeah! JADE: i like rpgs ERIDAN: makes sense its pretty fuckin rpg heavvy for a strategy game JADE: haha yeah! JADE: how are you feeling? -leans against the bed- ERIDAN: goin from numb feelin an positivve to kinda miserable i guess but thats wwhat games an shit are good for right JADE: ... they can be JADE: is there anything bothering you in specific? ERIDAN: a lot i guess ERIDAN: *sighs* ERIDAN: i just heard from john ERIDAN: about kar ERIDAN: no one told me but i guess i understand wwhy they wwouldnt JADE: ... oh JADE: yeah... JADE: im JADE: sorry... ERIDAN: jade i cant fuckin do this anymore JADE: what? ERIDAN: i cant do the wwhole bein captain thing i cant JADE: eridan... ERIDAN: im so goddamned wweak noww im barely holdin it together an evvery time i think im finally gettin it together i get knocked back the fuck dowwn ERIDAN: i need a goddamned break JADE: ... JADE: -her brows knit, and she watches him carefully- JADE: i understand JADE: if thats what you need JADE: youve worked so hard JADE: and we wouldnt be here without you JADE: but we have your back too JADE: with whatever you need to do ERIDAN: i guess i really need to do this but i dont knoww wwho im pickin yet as my replacement howwevver temporary JADE: thats a pretty important decision too... so i think its ok to give it some thought JADE: ... eridan ERIDAN: *glances up at her* wwhat JADE: im really proud of you JADE: -smiles at him- ERIDAN: *blushes a little* wwhat wwhy im literally givvin the thing i wworked my entire life for up howws that a thing to be proud of JADE: because JADE: youre recognizing that maybe youre not ready for it right now JADE: and thats okay JADE: youre doing what you need to do for yourself JADE: thats what matters right now JADE: thats always what matters most JADE: -reaches over and squeezes his hand- ERIDAN: i thought achievvin my goals wwas wwhats best *stares at their hands* ugh ERIDAN: i feel gross JADE: it can be hard JADE: when things change in your life and in your mind JADE: achieving your goals is important but sometimes its good to rethink your goals too ERIDAN: wwhat do i evven havve to wwork towward noww JADE: i think that... given everything that is important to you right now JADE: i would say JADE: you could start with yourself? JADE: i know thats hard too JADE: but if you can be more okay with yourself... JADE: and more okay with just JADE: trying to be happy instead of trying to reach all these goals JADE: then i think that actually reaching those goals would be easier JADE: its sort of like JADE: the difference between someone telling you to do something and just doing something because you want to JADE: when youre fighting with yourself and telling yourself you have to... even the things that you like become hard JADE: because its not fun not to feel like its a choice JADE: its not fun to feel like you cant just be yourself and have that be enough JADE: and i dont think youve let yourself just be enough for a very long time ERIDAN: *looks up at her, her words making a whole lot of sense even though he wants to just deny the truth and throw it out a window* no i guess i havvent JADE: -she smiles a little, sympathetically- JADE: yeah... ERIDAN: ugh thats probably really fuckin obvvious JADE: its ok JADE: you dont need to be mad at yourself for trying JADE: thats all you were trying to do JADE: right? ERIDAN: yeah ERIDAN: an tryin to feel like i wwas actually fu ckin wworth somethin instead of a garbage heap of shitbrains JADE: and we can get there JADE: but not by forcing it JADE: you dont have to prove yourself to anyone anymore JADE: youve done more than enough ERIDAN: *eyebrows arch sadly*you really think so JADE: of course i do JADE: -she pulls his hand closer, just sort of hugging it to her chest- JADE: this is just a new chapter for you JADE: not a failure JADE: but a success ERIDAN: *tears are WELLING UP IN HIS EYES.  Boy he's sure doing a lot of crying lately, but then again everyone probably has been* JADE: -that makes her chest ache a little more, and it's... difficult. not to hold his hand tighter, to bring it closer to her face and press it to her cheek.- JADE: its all going to be okay JADE: one step at a time ERIDAN: *he nods, sniffling pathetically*  thanks for bein so supportivve jade i really appreciate it JADE: -she sort of laughs a little, but not at him. just because... this is natural to her. because it pains her to see him like this, and she can't imagine not being here.- you dont have to thank me silly JADE: -she turns his hand just enough to kiss the back of it, and her own tears are getting the better of her now- ERIDAN: *WIMPERS* shit *the tears are really flowing now* yeah i guess not but im doin it anywway JADE: -now she's giggling again some, leaning closer to him, resting her head on his shoulder and brushing fuzzy ears on his chin- ERIDAN: fuck i forgot howw damned furry your ears are *lays his head on hers* JADE: hehehe JADE: -wiggles them- JADE: how could you ERIDAN: fuCK *THAT TICKERS and he squirms a little* JADE: ahaha!! sorry ERIDAN: geez control yourself *gives her a squeeze* JADE: im sorry!! im so out of control JADE: im wild and crazy JADE: -tail wags- ERIDAN: you got that right you fuckin animal JADE: -she's giggling again, just snuggling up to him- JADE: how are you feeling now? ERIDAN: i dunno really fuckin anxious but i suppose more ready to proceed wwith wwhatevver it is im doin JADE: thats good JADE: thats the way youre supposed to feel when youre making an important decision i think ERIDAN: wwoah really JADE: yeah JADE: because that means you care about it JADE: but that youre feeling confident in your feelings too ERIDAN: you knoww that makes a lotta sense JADE: :) JADE: im glad ERIDAN: wwanna hang an stay an wwatch some shit for awwhile jade JADE: yeah!! id like that ERIDAN: okay *AND SO THEY DID, helping eridan to clear his head a bit more and think about how he was going to approach things* JADE: -AND IT WAS LOVELY-

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Miasmajesty Part Two

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