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With you

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A little reflection on growth and change.

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mentally i'm here

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“You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.”

— Thich Nhat Hanh

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“Breathe. This is just a chapter. Not the whole story.”

— Unknown

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Another day where I can’t grasp the concept of loving you because you’re no longer there.

You’re gone and I’m struggling to cope but I thought I had decided already and yet here I am.

Dealing with your ghost has proven to be a hard task this time around.

I miss your greetings early in the mornings. I miss you telepathically communicating with me. I miss not being able to hide things from you because of your ability to read me. I miss hearing your voice or the way you’d call me ‘guerita’.

I wish it was you who held my hands, who’d touch me in places the sun hasn’t yet.

I’ve started to lose my appetite and I feel as if these days I might burst.

God must be upset with me because I don’t even hear Him much lately.

Maybe he disapproves.

I disapprove as well but the love in my chest is unbearable and the lack of it from you is a heavier burden to carry.

None like God but being closer to my love drives me closer to God so why can’t it be holy?

And why do I have to hurt someone else in the process?

Love shouldn’t be this complicated.

That’s what I thought growing up and I have no right to believe that.

Maybe I have so much to learn because this is not how I imagined things would be and though I cannot tell him, I guess I’ll the world through anonymity.

I love him so much that his absence has started to feel like an illness.

I hope I build the courage to reach for the antidote before it’s too late.

- Thorne, G.