gvr0salia

[gvr0salia]

that's how mfs with "depression" look at me after they find out my mental issues are so overwhelming i can't function. yes, my room is crusty, my brain is foggy, i forget important details and keeping track on them doesn't work. i'm not just sad for a while. i'm just lucky/unlucky enough that i'm somewhat looked after.

(the thing is i'm undiagnosed and i can't get any help at the moment. i tried, nothing worked. so, i'll kill myself instead.)

[gvr0salia]

It's okay. You won't lose much if I die. There are plenty other people out there that will be better friends than I was.

♡ update:

i picked option one.

i'll die at around 8-9 PM

i'm unsure if my irls should get a suicide note too. i don't want them to know too much about me.

♡ goodbye!!!!

[gvr0salia]

i can't kms on a thursday, so today it isss i can't wait to just die.

fuck everything i'm kms at the end of the school year

[gvr0salia]

♡ update:

i picked option one.

i'll die at around 8-9 PM

i'm unsure if my irls should get a suicide note too. i don't want them to know too much about me.

♡ goodbye!!!!

[gvr0salia]

I apologise for not being strong enough. I apologise for being this fuckass weak bitch who can't decide to do shit. I'm not brave enough to slit my fucking wrists until I pass out. The fact that I was so sure I made progress... "Progress" my ass, I just pretended I wasn't as ill.

Just to let you know that I'm grateful for our interactions and that I hope you won't miss me too much. Do not miss me. I'm not worth it. Just pretend that I never existed in the first place. Understand that I am not made for this world and move on from me.

I am simply too ill to function. I don't think anything can save me. Healing from all that is just an impossible dream. It's too much, everything's too much. Do not pretend to like me. It's okay, I wouldn't like myself either.

I can't even decide for myself. I hate this body, I hate this life. I want to reincarnate. I hate it. I hate who I am, I just want to die with agony and alone, bc that's just how I live, basically.

[gvr0salia]

i want to cvt myself until i see my bones

[gvr0salia]

questioning if i should jump off a plane without a parachute on.

fuck everything i'm kms at the end of the school year

[gvr0salia]

Yozo'd so hard I got so drunk I threw up. Never again, not worth it.

[gvr0salia]

fuck everything i'm kms at the end of the school year

[gvr0salia]

should i attempt on thursday or next week?

can't wait to bleed out and die 🫶🫶

[gvr0salia]

how do u take the blade out from the pencil sharpener

[gvr0salia]

can't wait to bleed out and die 🫶🫶

[gvr0salia]

give me one unhealthy coping mechanism i can do in secret bc healthy ones are too slow

[gvr0salia]

me, after i just woke up: "i'm so fucking tired when will this day end"

[gvr0salia]

if my family keeps pissing me off i'll fr kms

[gvr0salia]

[gvr0salia]

the tag #landminejirai is so funny to me. the literal translation of jirai is landmine, right? so basically, youre sayoing that you are a landmine landmine.

ah yes, i am a landmine landmine. beware. i set off way easier and my explosions are way deadlier.