I know somethings wrong with me when i get happy and decide that i need to cut
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In the emergency room CvT to deep way to deep.
I'm fucking stupid
All be safe and careful
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When I click on the @ of one of my moots but they’ve been ba.n.ned and tumblr says ‘that isn’t anyone.’ like wdym that’s my precious babe i need them back
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bl0od dripping down my arm has got to be one of my top ten feelings
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self harm culture is having one spot that no one sees that you cut, and really needing to relapse but you don't have any room left there
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dude i just hit styro for the first time its actually so terrifying what the fuck😍
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I’m going to do it. I’m gonna ask for help from my mom. I forced myself to. I att3pted again tonight and ofc it didn’t work cause I’m still here, but my arm is all cvt to hell (not beans, but mostly light/deep styros ALL over). And I freak out when I get too hot so I’m going to HAVE to have a talk with her soon so she doesn’t freak out when she sees my arm. So I’ve got a rough draft for a letter for her after she gets home from work. It covers everything I’ve been hiding or lying about. It covers my cvtting, my sv1c1d3 att3mpts, the fact that my bullying was also physical, the fact I got s3xually a$sault3d multiple times by multiple people, my trans-ness, my eating disorder, my depression, why I didn’t ask for or get help, the fact I’m not a Christian, everything. And it asks over and over again for help. I want help for it all. I want to get better. And I’m asking for help. I know I’ll probably be forced to stop cvtting and st@rv1ng, but I’m willing to trade that off for genuine help.
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