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Brynn searched for a friendly face, someone who may be on her side. She found one. Sitting opposite her, the brunette trace the rim of her coffee cup, silent for a beat.

“Maybe,” she finally said quietly. “I need help.” Pausing, there was no way to say this. “I was, well, am in Hunter’s inner circle. I believe in Soc things, and I understand it and the way our lives work. But I also know love like everyone should experience and I see two very special girls who could lose everything to a couple of self-righteous, violent kids. We stopped living, and I can’t be okay with that. I can’t watch Avery and Madelyn lose two guys that make them smile in a way I’ve never seen before. I want us to stand with the people we love at a party and just be happy without looks or comments or feeling less than. I’ve done that, I won’t accept it anymore. And I need your help to get peace in this town for good.” She took a deep, shaky breath, “please?”

Gwen’s head snapped up at the sound of Brynn’s unhappy voice, her soft green eyes searching her face. “What’s the matter?” She asked, brow furrowing with worry as the brunette began to speak, her voice thick. 

It was time for peace in Tulsa. It was in everyone’s best interest, even if they didn’t know it yet. She reached forward and grabbed her hand. “I’ll help in any way I can, Brynn.” She told her, sincerity exuding from her in soft, comforting waves. “You’re absolutely right.”

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ten women I have been warned against becoming {insp}

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Gwen sipped on her coffee at a table by the window in Juliet’s, pouring over medical papers and text books and the like. She knew in her heart of hearts that she was meant to be a doctor and she’d stop at nothing to achieve that. She didn’t even look up when someone sat across from her in the little cafe.

“Can I help you?” She mumbled to them, her fingers leafing through pages to find what she needed.

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{Gwen was laying down against her bag in the park eating her lunch and enjoying the sun. It was a cool day but they hadn't had any kind of precipitation lately so it had stayed in the 50's that whole week and had been pretty nice. She was almost dozed off when a shadow moved in front of the sun and her eyes fluttered open.} Oh, hi. Sorry, you scared me a little. Want to sit down?

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They aren’t, Gwen. They aren’t there… {The pain in her eyes was almost unbearable. If he could change it all, he would.} I’ve caused so much damage, I have to fix it. And I don’t know how right now, but I’m going to. The last thing I want is you caught in the cross-fire. {He leaned in and placed a gentle, lingering kiss on her cheek. Before whispering,} I’m not asking you to wait because that would be some really great guy or girl’s loss. {The tension seemed suffocating, and all he could think was how could he make her smile again now.}

If you could see what I see, you wouldn't be saying that now... {Her chest seemed to have an unliftable weight on top of it as her chest heaved a little.} There is good in you, Castello. {She whispered, their pained expressions meeting.} I saw it in you the moment I met you. I wish you could see that.

{When he said guy or girl, she felt her stomach drop. Her feelings had always been something she was uncomfortable with, and Cas saying it out loud actually made her feel a little better about it. He wasn't running away, he didn't think she was a freak. It was nice.}

{A heavy silence filled the air, the feeling of his lips on her cheek like a ghost.} I have to go... {She whispered, her voice shaking.} I-I need to get back to work. {She hopped down from the counter, her knees feeling a little shaky as she walked toward him.} Don't let your life pass you by because this is the way you think it's supposed to be, Cas.

{She leaned forward and kissed his lips so softly it seemed to have barely happened.}

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Pretending - Glee

Will we ever say the words we're feeling Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls Will we ever have our happy ending? Or will we forever only be pretending? Will we always, always, always be Keeping secrets safe Every move we make Seems like no ones letting go And it's such a shame Cause if you feel the same How am I supposed to know?

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Close to You - The Carpenters

Why do stars fall down from the sky, ev'ry time you walk by?

Just like me, they long to be close to you.

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You see the best in people, {he murmured back with the ghost of a troubled smile on his lips.} I’m a single father and a guardian, worries and weight of three precious worlds will always fall on me. I abandoned my girlfriend and our unborn child, I think what I have is far better than what I deserve, Gwen. She’s everything to me, and when she sees me…every time we’re reunited, the biggest smile lights that beautiful face and she reaches for me and calls me ‘Dada.’ That’s far more than I ever deserved. I have to do right by her and the boys. It’s not that I don’t—feel something…

Those best parts are still there, though, {She whispered, her fingertips lightly brushing his jawline. Her heart felt very heavy.} We all make mistakes, Cas... some of them haunt us forever... but I don't think they should define us. You learn from them and then try to let them go. What defines us is what we choose to do after the mistake. And you chose to come back for Sherri and your daughter. Natalie is a precious gift - your precious gift. Yours and Sherri's. The boys are too. Children are something to be treasured, no matter what. {There was a flash of pain in her eyes.} I completely understand. {He was being so selfless. She wanted to tell him that he had a life too, that they could be together, even if just for a few minutes a day at lunch, or on the nights that Sherri had Nat, but she didn't. It was selfish of her to want him.} I... {She trailed off. She didn't know what else to say. There seemed to be so many things left unsaid, so many unanswered questions hanging in the thick air around them.}

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{Her eyes fluttered closed with his touch, her skin tingling.} You're a good guy, Castello. {She whispered, shaking her head a little.} 

I don't want you to hurt either. I don't want you to be confused. I don't want you to have the weight of the world on your shoulders and all of these worries. I think you deserve better than that.

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I didn't mean to spring this on you... I just wanted to clarify things before we went any further. {Her eyes were apologetic as she watched his face, trying to read him. There was a little lump in her throat. She wasn't sure what she was really feeling at the moment.} What do you want, Cas? I mean... do you know?

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{He knew the conversation had to be coming eventually, but he wasn’t sure he was ready for it now.} I— {Words failed for him while they seemed to come so easily for her.} Yeah, I dig. {His gaze fell from her warm eyes to their hands as he tried to process something better to say. What was the right thing to say?} Sherri and I… {well, that certainly wasn’t a good start to anything.} …we have Natalie. We created Natalie, and I’m still trying to figure out how to give her the most normal life possible given all circumstances. She’s my priority, the boys are my priority. My life stopped being about me a long time ago, and that’s not fair to you. And there is pressure and I am trying to figure this all out because at some point life has to move forward, just for me, it feels like circles. 

{Gwen looked down and nodded before glancing back up again with a sad smile. Her heart ached for him.} You're right, it's not fair... to either of us. We've both been burned before. {She nudged him and smiled, but there was a truthful haunting behind her green eyes. An understanding.} So. {She clapped her hands together, withdrawing them from his grasp.} Until you figure it all out, and you will, Cas - it just takes a little time and patient... Until you figure it all out, I'll be here. As your friend. Aaand, you can come over at any time, day or night. And we can stay up late and eat cookie dough - I always burn them so I never finish them up - and we can pet Zorro and you can talk my head off about all your responsibilities and I'll help you figure it all out. And I'll just blab about my totally privileged and uncomplicated Soc life and you can take a nap next to me. And we can read Penny Lane articles about our alleged relationship and watch people stare at us while they try and figure it out and totally laugh in their faces. And we can go to the drive-in and watch those stupid movies and listen to people having sex in their cars, and I can study my medical books while you read your novels, and it will all be a total gas. Yeah? {She kissed his cheek, warmth exuding from her very bones.}

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