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TRASH SUGAR MAGIC

ּ➛ nikolai gogol x fem!reader

𝙨𝙮𝙣𝙤𝙥𝙨𝙞𝙨

“There's no fear in your eyes, even though I just force you to be here. It is something… I can't put my finger on it.” — “Adoration?” — “Yes, yes. Adoration. Why do you look at me so adorably? Tricks could only bring you so far if you want to play with me.”

six years after in prison, nikolai is determined to seek revenge that has been brewing to the very man he once considered friend. he has lost everything—house, fortunes and relationships. the only thing left are just his overcoat, the sight of himself and his own free will. in one of his personal missions to reach closer to his vengeance, he has to kidnap a certain girl.

𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚 & 𝙘𝙬

rated: mature and explicit 18+, archive warnings: choose not to use archive warnings

additional tags: psychological drama, fluff, heavy angst, morally ambiguous characters, slice of life, emotional manipulation, slow burn, stockholm syndrome, abuse, violence, dubious consent, moral dilemmas, age differences, character study

important ! this story will contain disturbing, explicit and sensitive topics, scenes, depictions and narrations. DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨

chapter 1: embrace

chapter 2: hold me down

chapter 3: bask and wallow

chapter 4: white rose

chapter 5: desideratum

chapter 6: beloved be loved

chapter 7: majnun

chapter 8: paradise

chapter 9: you, sanctuary

chapter 10: reflections

chapter 11: make me ur baby

chapter 12: stranger danger

chapter 13: caught up w/ you

chapter 14: shaanti

chapter 15:

chapter 16:

chapter 17:

chapter 18:

[. . .]

𝙢𝙚𝙙𝙡𝙚𝙮 (𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙞 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨)

001: tear

002: dream girl

003: happy

𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙨

trash sugar magic (ao3)

spotify playlist

spotify playlist (by @inyourdreamss1)

moodboards

𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙨

status: on-going, somewhat slow

this is my first multi-chaptered fics. all chapters will be posted im both tumblr and ao3. heavily recommend to read in ao3, though. this fic is inspired by buffalo '66.

no promises of clear plotlines, contains slice-of-life, let's talk about nikolai's morality (again)

no taglist.

no fixed schedule.

blue dividers by @/benkeibear.

©cherikolya 2024 — do not copy, plagiarize and repost my works to any platform, reblogs are very appreciated

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Visual Kei (V系) : My Current Hyperfixation.

I'd like to so badly talk about V系 (Visual Kei/Vkei). This subculture has been my top interest these past few months. It is SO underrated.

Context:

Visual Kei is an alternative music and fashion movement defined as flamboyant, androgynous and theatrical. The aesthetic takes influences from international and Japanese glam rock and punk rock bands.

I have just started getting into vkei. Although I am not that educated on it, I love vkei as a whole. Its fashion, the vibe it gives off, its musicians—and most importantly, its music.

Firstly, I want to talk about the FIRST EVER band that got in me into vkei: MALICE MIZER.

Malice Mizer

This band was nothing but purely majestic. The first song I heard from them was entitled, "Ma Chèrie."

MALICE MIZER was my first vkei band ever. Each and every one of their music had me ascending! The day I discovered this band was the day I found happiness.

- But sadly, they disbanded in 2001.

Here are some songs from them that I recommend:

• Aegen

• Gekka No Yasoukyoku

• Au Revoir

• Bel Air

• Gardenia

• Premier Amour

• Le Ciel

• Transylvania

Members:

Mana - Guitarist

Közi - Guitarist

Yu~ki - Bassist

Gaz - Drummer (original/first)

Tetsu - Vocalist (first)

Kami - Drummer

Gackt - Vocalist (second)

Klaha - Vocalist (last/third)

Visit: (For more context.)

Next up!

— . . Gulu Gulu

I am currently obsessed with this band. They are the first ever JROCK band I have listened to. Despite Gulu Gulu and Malice Mizer being under the same roof (vkei), Gulu Gulu features more rock and metal-like music, unlike Malice Mizer with their angelic songs.

—— Their songs portray loud music, with band vocalist—Ai—screaming his lungs out. But nonetheless, the music they make is absolutely amazing. I cannot explain my love for this band.

- But sadly, they disbanded in March 17, 2023.

Songs I recommend:

• Kaebin

• Henna Merry Go Round

• Rubra

• Living Dead End

• Akunin

• Karappo ga Chirakatta heya

• Hidarite wa Snuff Film

Members:

Ai - Vocalist

Hotaru - Drummer

Lanju - Bassist

Rito - Guitarist

Kazari - (ex-member, Guitarist)

Visit: https://vk.gy/artists/gulu-gulu/

(for more context)

DADAROMA

Dadaroma was the 2nd band I discovered right after Gulu Gulu, and I realized that their music was a bit similar. Specifically, the vocalists' voice. Ai from Gulu Gulu and Yoshiatsu from Dadaroma both captivated me with their amazing voices.

My love for this band is actually insane. Their visuals are stunning and crazed, plus their music makes me feel so lively.

- But sadly, they disbanded in March 2020.

Song I recommend:

• Risley Circus

• POINT OF NO RETURN

• MONEY

• Mr. Terrorman

Members:

Yoshiatsu - Vocalist

Takashi - Guitarist

Tomo - Bassist

Ryohei - Drummer

Visit: (for more context)

JILUKA

JILUKA is such a talented and wonderful band. I recommend this band to people who listen to heavy metal. Despite their ethereal looks, the band makes such crazy music which is why I love them. They were the first band to get me into metal + the band men are so pretty and kind.

I would LOVE to go to a JILUKA concert someday.

- JILUKA has been active since 2013.

Songs I recommend:

• S4VAGE

• VENΦM

• BLVCK

• BaLa-DeDa

• Bloodshot

Members:

Ricko - Vocalist

Sena - Guitarist

Boogie - Bassist

Zyean - Drummer

Visit: (for more context.)

A lot of vkei fans will probably say that the bands I put here are all overrated and that I'm a 'poser' or whatever, but don't think like that.

I know more bands than just JILUKA, Gulu Gulu, Malice Mizer and Dadaroma.

For instance, I listen to Ashmaze, BUCK-TICK, Mejibray, KAKUMAY & Dir en grey. I know a bunch of vkei fans know these bands and consider them popular/overrated, but there's a reason why it's popular. The music, members and the band itself is beautiful and astonishing, which is why it has earned its title as 'popular'.

Plus, as I have stated, I am still discovering vkei bands and learning more about its genres. It'd be really helpful if you guys drop some information about Visual Kei! It is highly appreciated.

I love these bands with all my heart, but please give me recommendations of bands similar to those listed above, or just drop some underrated bands I can get attached to!

Bands I recommend:

Plastic Tree

Dazzling BAD

Versailles

the GazettE

ALIENE MARIAGE

Moi dix Mois

XaaXaa

Diaura

X Japan

SHAZNA

Songs I'd like to recommend you listen:

(band - song)

Mejibray - Kore wo izon to yobu nara

Mejibray - Divergence

Mejibray - DIE KUSSE

Plastic Tree - San-Gatsu Itsu-Ka

Plastic Tree - Ink

Plastic Tree - Tefutefu

Plastic Tree - Kuuchuu Buranko

SHAZNA - Sumire September Love

SHAZNA - Melty Love

SHAZNA - C'est la vie

Moi dix Mois - Monophobia

Moi dix Mois - Lilac of Damnation

Moi dix Mois - Nocturnal Romance

Moi dix Mois - Vestige

Gulu Gulu - Kubiwa Kyouiku no Susume

Gulu Gulu - Oyasumi

Kaneto-Juusei - Kimihahonnou

Kaneto-Juusei - tokyotomushokukobayashiakihito

Kaneto-Juusei - Manatsunobiratwo

(Sorry if the name for Kaneto-Juusei songs are wrong 😔)

: By the way, I suggested songs from bands I am fond of. As I had said, I am still discovering and learning about other bands and their music. Please bear with me, everyone. :')

— The songs I recommended are just so.. amazing. I actually can't describe how much I LOVE this genre of music. I can listen to them for all eternity.

And yes, haha, I know the beef between Ai from Gulu Gulu and Chill from Kaneto-Juusei, so saying that I put Gulu Gulu next to Kaneto-Juusei may be a bit disrespectful but it's kinda silly to me. I love both bands, though I do not support or can confirm the surrounding controversies each band has. I love and enjoy them solely because of their style and music, maybe also one member who isn't as problematic as the others or the band itself.