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Wren: Become your patron troll.

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Sometimes you forget you are as much as a girl as you are a god.

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Famous boy genius, Theodore Tobias “Tobey” McCallister III, donates $2,000,000 dollars to the LGBTQIA+ community. "I hope they find a cure soon,” Tobey states.

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There's something I need this fandom to understand about Martin Kartin Blackwood.

IS he an expert manipulator? Yes. Does he have some serious skills in using people pleasing and framing and psychology to his advantage? ABSOLUTELY. He is gaslight, gatekeep, girlbossing his way through the first 3 seasons and we LOVE him for it.

On the other hand, though, I feel like we don't acknowledge enough as a fandom how isolating people pleasing can be in itself. I ranted about this in the tags of another Martin post, but basically, the person you create to be palatable to as many people as possible becomes a wall. A barrier between you and the outside world. Yes, everyone likes you, but that comes at the cost of no one knowing you in your entirety because you don't let them see the parts of you that are harder to swallow.

Martin effectively trapped himself in his own web of lies, suspended 30 feet away from his own life. He's dissociated from it all from the beginning, which is what made him the candidate Peter chose in the first place. He was always slated for The Lonely as much as he was The Web.

That leads me into my next point, which is that MARTIN PRE-LONELY WAS NOT ENTIRELY DISINGENUOUS. I see so many people implying that Martin straight-up wasn't anything like he said he was in the beginning. Common fandom reading comprehension L. He really does like people, and he really does want to be nice. It just also happens that you don't end up people pleasing to those lengths without it having developed as a defense mechanism!

Take the wall I introduced earlier. You surround yourself in this persona and swallow your teeth to protect yourself from other people. Realistically, it probably started with his mother, who is implied in Canon to not have been kind to him. There's a 3rd partner to Fight or Flight that doesn't get discussed very often, and it is "Fawn." This is the people-pleasing response that we see him exhibit. Ultimately, what he fears is rejection, and therefore, he fears being alone. He's nice and kind and polite and swallows his teeth in order to keep people around.

Post-Lonely Martin is the other extreme. He has no energy to please anyone anymore, and it doesn't serve him. He is tired and angry and constantly stressed. He doesn't bother hiding his teeth anymore, and he's prone to lashing out. Post-Lonely Martin is when he's surpassed his limit. Post-Lonely Martin is burnout.

As someone who relates to Martin Blackwood very much, I can tell you that the quiet moments where he's not deeply distressed either way is where we see the real Martin. He still loves and cares in private, and we see that over and over. The love is real. He just doesn't believe he deserves it in return, so he tries very hard to be someone who does. To "make up" for it.

Thank you and goodnight.

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Always thinking about how The Magnus Archives de-glorifys martyrdom.

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Gang help me pick a name fur her 💔

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Return of the sov!stuck oc... you will make fanart of her.. ouuugh

I may have forgotten her sign in the first photo but shhh

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i finally watched that show adolescence and i all i could think of was the actor for jamie as a callum brodie fan cast

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I’m gonna be real with you Cuno, I don’t think you can reclaim that

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Pathologic AU where everything is the same but Sticky is replaced with Cuno.

Inspired by me accidentally picturing Cuno every time someone mentions Sticky.

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Can. Can we count this as yuri I dont knoooowwww :(

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imagine. youre the youngest kid in a rich family, the son at that. pretty much the best thing to be, right? well no actually. your mom dies either after your birth or before it or sometime around that time. you decide to spend your days in the big tower they built for her with some other kids. you become their leader due to your status as the child of that family. you dont talk to your dad and he doesnt attempt to talk to you either. you dont really leave the tower but the other kids sometimes do. one day, you overhear two of them whispering. you can tell its about your dad. you step inbetween, arms crossed with a menacing look. "what are you two talking about" you ask, as serious as you can make your voice sound at twelve years old. one doghead looks at the other, who shrugs in panic. the first doghead raises his head to (probably) look at you. "sorry- its just that-" "your dad. its about your dad", the second one interrupts. your nose scrunches involuntarily. you hate your dad. "he... he looks. gendernonconforming as fuck". your eyes bulge. a scream older than everyones years in the polyhedron combined escapes your throat. "YOURE INSANE"

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EYY CUNO GOT A JOB

BIG BOY CUNO. PAYCHECK CUNO.

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It'll be so funny. Do it.

Jonny tells me that I should say "I'm so hungry, I could eat Bertie!"

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part three of my disco elysium tarot series is cunoesse as the chariot reversed. the chariot reversed represents lack of self control, powerlessness, and aggression.

harry / kim

upright version 🫶

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its okay that C called you a faggot bc he can reclaim it