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i LOVE yapp abt the ordem paranormal production staff

always will be mouring abt the Ordemcast indefinitve hiatus bc of the conversations abt little details with the production members... love everyone

no one works harder on shit than the ordem production staff have you seen how gorgeous all the sets in ordem look and theyre not even the focus half the time. the lights the designs the photos the Everything. this is gonna fuck severely thank you silent hill escape room team

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i like that this is framed as a cool event for chat but we all know from blue prince that being stuck in a silent hill style puzzle saw trap is basically cellbits living and breathing dream this has nothing to do w twitch i fear he’d have found a way to do this regardless for the enrichment

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Guapoduo week 2 ! Cuddling and amaranth

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okay what did this fucking thing did this time

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nothing worse than the "the federation is good" discourse honestly

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yeah 💖

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Princess: Why do you act like you know me better than I know myself?

Cellbit: Mansplaining.

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subscribing to a fic isn’t enough I need the author to blast a bat signal into the night sky whenever they update

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Phil: [To the tune of "Edge of the World"] We'll see if we die, we already died once for the sins of the Realm, nobody fcking cared, just like Jesus in the real world, he died for our sins then went to heaven–

Phil: Wh– if I go to heaven, can I beat up God to bring Techno back? Is that allowed? [Laughs] If I get to the gates, can I 1v1 God and then send Techno back? I think we need that as a treat, we deserve this.

Can't wait to see Phil and Technoblade 2v1 God

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thoughts on qsmp - a brazilian experience

topics: xenophobia, racism

when I heard about QSMP for the first time, I was enchanted.

it was 2023, I distanced myself from others SMP's since DSMP was... a lot lmao C and I wasn't even directly involved in the fandom! —; Paranormal Ordem comunity was my only actual fandom activity with fanfics and projects and Cellbit was... tired from a lot of things (Enigma of Fear, myself was unsatisfied with his streams and comunity handle by him, I was angry and sad with a lot of things) and then I saw something about Quackity and the Eggs.

oh, that was something, I loved that. a server with multilingual members with a real translator? that's dope, not gonna lie here. oh, Foolish is in it... PHILZA is in it, that's really cool.

CELLBIT AND TAZERCRAFT WILL JOIN????? now, THAT'S CRAZY. and then, I was completely consumed by the server. I couldn't think of anything else, I was completely in love with the idea of ​​being able to share my culture; of teaching my language the way it is spoken every day; of meeting new people who don't even understand Portuguese and I don't even write in Spanish; of seeing different streamers that I had never heard of because of the language barrier.

I'm from the north of Brazil. Even though I'm here in this country, my culture is also invisible for various reasons and being able to share it little by little gave me… happiness.

and then the first wave happened.

I know that brazilians are not really easy to deal with on the internet. we are noisy, we are numerous, we can really go over the top when we like something — and it's no wonder that half of the accounts on stantwt have brazilian admins. but when the elections happened, I think people got a little too scared by our noise. and I'm not trying to make us look like saints, to say that we never made mistakes or that the fanbases of Brazilian streamers were 100% calm (believe me, I have a LOT to say about the fanbase of a certain blond cubito and his streamer and even q!Cellbit himself), but I also don't think the way we were treated was fair.

I remember I tweeted "some of u guys just like brazilians when all of us are just memes, silly and loud but when we use this intensity to things u dont agree u talk shit about us :)" and that... hasn't changed much, honestly.

and I LOVE QSMP, seriously. I always think about it, I have fanfics, documents, theorys, GOD I LOVED this server so much it hurts because I think I will never love a server this much.

and I love Bolas and Soulfire, but I can't help but feel angry about the day Purgatory happened because I feel like that was the end of the server. and I'm sorry, but it's simply terrifying to remember that ALL the lores that were set to start that day were completely interrupted to the point that CCs who had entered just to even restart their lores never returned. I could spend HOURS (as I already have, by the way) talking badly about this event and everything that followed it.

but it was at this event that I got a small glimpse of the xenophobia we would suffer the following year.

since the Festa Junina event, I talked incessantly about how excited I was for the Carnival event. I LOVE Carnival, it is one of my favorite parties and one of the most beautiful in my memory. I always said how everyone would love Carnival, that they could even put Boi Bumbá there.

two weeks before the carnival event, we suffered a massive wave of xenophobia from the Quackity community. I watched the event, which was not even half of what was being planned, completely sad. and I'm sorry to those who still like the streamer, but I just can't do it anymore.

when I look at him, I remember that my friends were called monkeys for being Brazilian by people who used their face as an icon; I remember that we begged for WEEKS, it wasn't one day, it wasn't two days, it was WEEKS asking Quackity, the OWNER of the server that claimed to be "inclusive with everyone beyond the language barrier", to say something in favor of BRAZILIANS. and all we received was a SHALLOW speech on the live that didn't even say who the attacks were being directed at. we begged for at least a note on the official accounts only to later find out that the admins of the update accounts couldn't post anything because it was "controversial" even though they really wanted to support us.

"I don't speak monkey" | 2. "3 monkeys speaking portuguese"

Many tweets using the term "brazuca" which IS a term used with the intention of offending.

and that hurt. it hurt a lot to see that a server that I shared my culture so much with became this. but more than anything, I felt angry. I felt angry for all the Brazilians in the community, I felt angry for the CCs who were also being massively targeted by the xenophobia of the server owner's own community.

And February came. and one thing that people outside the community or who were not as active in the Brazilian and Spanish-speaking community don't know is that: cellbit being exposed early wasn't a coincidence. The intense xenophobia of certain Quackity fans was mainly aimed at the cellbit community that actively spoke about these absurdities, especially after the exposure of the streamer Forever at the beginning of the year.

and I know the text is confusing, but this is a great outburst of what we've been through. What happened with Forever was a big trigger: accusations that brazilians were covering it up when it was US who discovered the tweets, spoke to the victim and translated them into other languages ​​because informal brazilian portuguese is extremely difficult to understand if you're not a native speaker or don't study the language.

then, they turned their targets to Cellbit, where a Space on Twitter took place calling him an abuser, making jokes about him allegedly beating his ex-girlfriend and calling his fans "abusinlovers" and saying that his current girlfriend, Lorena, should suffer the same alleged treatment he gave to his ex.

"talking about cellbit"

and after his ex purposely made that tweet, all of us BRAZILIANS were looking to understand the situation while they continued with the xenophobia against all of us and Cellbit, saying that WE MONKEYS were protecting an abuser when we were as confused as all of them. all this because we were voting for Cellbit for the Streamer Awards and not for Quackity.

and do you know where that translated tweet from his ex came from? from what you call "leaktwt". cellbit denied his ex in that document and the lawsuit against her is still ongoing, but the attacks against him, our community and now Bagi have not stopped.

Do you know why? Because we sided with the administrators. You may have reservations about Leah's conduct, that's fine, I respect that. But she wasn't the only one to talk about her experience there, about the underpaid salaries and abusive working hours. And obviously the Brazilian community and streamers sided with her.

and this generated ANOTHER wave of xenophobia now towards Bagi, who had sided with the Empanada administration; towards Baghera with sexist insults and towards Cellbit who was just QUIET because he didn't want to get involved in any more things.

So, yes, I'm simply TIRED of seeing attacks whenever this server is mentioned by its creator himself, about how he "never made mistakes" and how he was "unfairly treated" when the Brazilian fanbase wants to cry just remembering how they were treated. I love qsmp, but I really don't want it to come back. I don't want a qsmp2 to just forget past mistakes.

and I know this text isn't even half of what I have to say about this server, but all I feel right now is frustration.

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lmao after the news™ we got today i think it's time

i miss making analises posts about the favelas and q!cellbit but ngl that i'm still a little bitter and salt about the qsmp after all even i love the project so much

maybe one day i will be able to calm down and externalize all my thoughts

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i miss making analises posts about the favelas and q!cellbit but ngl that i'm still a little bitter and salt about the qsmp after all even i love the project so much

maybe one day i will be able to calm down and externalize all my thoughts

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#qsmp #reblog

who remember this day

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spiderbit fluff or fright day six!! weed fic | nightmares

based on olos amazing amazing fanfic!! go read it nowwwwww

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D4ylight D3mon

ARG Enigma do Medo

via Twitter

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Welcome to the family, Zeno!