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rant

can someone put a spell on my doctors so they're nicer and actually listen to me bc i'm in daily pain after eating, and i dont know what to eat anymore bc my body doesnt like anything apparently, and it got to the point that i started craving meat???? i have never in my whole life wished for meat, not even as a kid, i was forced to eat it till 17 and then i was vegetarian (later vegan) for 12 years. never once did i want to eat meat, i had nightmares about it, it disgusted me. and suddenly the other day my spontaneous thoughts were like "...tuna pizza, hamburgr, chicken ceasar salad" and i was always scared that accidental meat would cause to get so ill i'd throw up, but yesterday i had chicken breast with nothing else and my body was so happy, NO PAIN for the first time in idk how long

i was a little bloated/nauseous afterward but nothing close to otherwise. and i'm not saying this to say vegan/vegetarian diet is the wrong thing, no i still wish i could go back. i was strong and healthy for years until like covid hit. i was lifting 25kg dogs by myself out of a squat onto a table etc. without ever going to the gym. in the early years i was training 3-4 times a week and was the best batter and catcher at softball (not professional obvs but i once played for 8h straight bc i was best fit in the position. yes even breathing had me sore the next day, but by god- i was fit. i was athletic. i went hiking up a mountain top while sick and with a twisted ankle. like

now i can't even go for a 10m walk, last week i ate only broth and toast bc thats how upset my stomach was. my pain is epigastric, always arriving 5-10min after food and then peaking within the next hour, lasting the next 2ish hours until it slowly dissipates.

and my doctors are claiming its all psychosomatic :) it's all in my head

even tho i never had stomach pain or nausea acutely in response to stress, i'm in the best state psychologically i've ever been, best place to be in life rn. but they don't care

SO YEAH SOMEONE PLS PUT A SPELL ON THEM TO SEE THE TRUTH

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when people offer help and are helpful and ALSO respect your boundaries

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take back what is yours

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Just a little PSA for all our mental health (and chronic pain*) spoonies out there! A lot of doctors neglect to mention this little side effect, which means a lot of us are suffering extra from the heat without knowing why.

*Many psych meds are used to treat chronic pain as well, if you didn’t know!

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Grumble grumble…

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quick jalim <3

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They warm my soul

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Jason watching an enemy soldier kill alien vampires with a pipe: i hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me

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Nicky is SO done with whatever these two have😞

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House of Ashes memes giffed

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Salim laughed, bright and earnest, and Jason couldn't help but feel like he'd won something, earning a laugh like that. "Friend. I like when you call me that."

Scene from this excellent fic that completely melted my heart <3 I am in love with the way they're both written - straight outta the game with a deep well of characterization that I'm now accepting as canon.

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a moment to rest

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Some of my Jalim sketches because they're my world right now :3

They're just flirting and joking around

The second one is not detailed enough but tbh I was tired///

I hope I've not upset anyone or forgot something important. Just want to share some of my stuff

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I absolutely love the facial animation in this game. Voice acting also adds life to the characters. I almost shed tears at Jason's confession, his strangled voice and pursed lips, blinking.

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little Jalim sketch cause I’ve been thinking about them

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jalim boxing or something