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favorite taylor swift lyrics: untouchable

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omg i love this!! @taylorswift

COSTUME REVEAL + My Story! Losing 100 pounds and overcoming life’s obstacles.

Dedicated to the person who got me through the darkest times in my life, @taylorswift.

PART I. COSTUME REVEAL

Here’s the meaning behind my costume. My entire outfit is based around the lyric “the monsters turned out to be just trees”. This lyric truly means so much to me. It justifies to me that all the negative people in my life, all the hardships I’ve had to overcome, and all the self-doubt I’ve had to endure cannot do any harm to me because I am an evergreen tree whose leaves will stay on all year long. 

My sign goes from black leaves to green to golden. The black leaves are symbolic of the harsh times in my life while the golden leaves represent where I am now, in the golden age of my life! 

The roots on my pants are also golden which continues the reputation theme throughout!

I’m really proud of this costume and am so grateful that my close friends were willing to spend a week helping me get this finished product. My birthday’s on Sunday and it just feels great to know I have such supportive friends.

PART II. MY STORY

FYI this is pretty lengthy but for those struggling I hope it’s worth the read.

So here’s my story.

When I was fifteen, I was in the worst place of my entire life, yet I didn’t even realize it. was living with my single mother at the time in my hometown Miami, Florida. In the span of eight years (since my parents divorced when I was seven), we had moved about twelve times. We could never afford to keep up with the bills, but we just kept on moving around until we could find some sort of stability. We spent almost an entire month with our running water cut off and we had to carry buckets of water over from the next-door neighbor’s house so that we could shower. After my parent’s divorce, I made an immediate connection with my step-mother. She soon became my second mother, one who gave me all the emotional support a kid needed growing up. When my mom spent long nights working two jobs to pay the bills, my step-mom sat with me to listen to Taylor’s songs, she’d cook my favorite food (fettucine alfredo), and she’d just listen to me talk about just anything.

But then when I was fifteen, she was gone. My dad and her suddenly split up and I went from spending half my time with her, to loving her through a phone call. I had lost the only stability I had ever known. Soon thereafter, my mom and I were evicted from the house we were living in and I was sent off to live with my dad and his new girlfriend, one who was everything but friendly. Gone were my home-cooked meals, bonding sessions, and overall emotional support. During this time, I made it to the weight of 285 pounds. I had high blood pressure and fatty liver disease. I’d find myself sleeping through the mornings to wake up to a cheeseburger and shake waiting for me in the fridge. Every morning. I no longer had nobody to talk to and was left to sink into my own thoughts.

As an obese teenager, I was usually the outcast in a group of other kids. I couldn’t run as fast, had to catch my breath after going up a flight of stairs, and was just seen as abnormal. That, along with my love for Taylor Swift among other pop stars led to me being a social outcast. This meant I didn’t really have anybody to turn to for help, besides well, Taylor’s music.

But as the months continued, so did my loss of self. It wasn’t until I was diagnosed as pre-diabetic that I knew I had to turn my life around before it was too late. All the negative people in my life told me I could never change my ways and that well, I’d be unhealthy forever. But Taylor told me something different. Taylor told me, “Today is never too late to be brand new”. And damn right she was.

I moved back in with my mom and I was determined to change. I completely changed my eating habits… in its entirety. I went from drinking two liter bottles of Coke-Cola and a bottle in Nutella in a sitting to eating grilled chicken and vegetables instead. I started walking every day until I found myself walking six miles every day. I joined a CrossFit gym and began to walk six miles and attend a CrossFit class every day. Before I knew it, I had lost ten pounds. Then twenty. Then forty. Until I found myself weighing 190 pounds, a weight I hadn’t been at since the sixth grade. I began shedding the skin that made me feel ashamed of who I was. The skin that caused me to feel like I wasn’t worth believing in.

My determination in school also helped me extremely and I was able to skip the eleventh grade and graduate high school a year early, becoming one of the top twenty students in my graduating class. I put all my drive and ambitions into becoming a healthier person and a smarter person. I was not going to let the person I was change the person I had the potential to be. Taylor always told me otherwise. Taylor’s music was like the best friend that understood everything without an explanation… she just always understood me. She gave me the pep-talks I wouldn’t have had otherwise. She was, in a way, the closest thing I had to someone who believed in me.

By the April of 2017, I was notified that I would be getting a full ride to an honors program at a local college to get my associates degree before transferring to the university of my dreams. I was entering college, a new person inside and out because of the changes I made in my life, which would have not been possible without Taylor.

Then in college I was given the opportunity to create a project for diabetes awareness and prevention in Miami, one that I never thought would go anywhere. I submitted my project to the Clinton Global Initiative for World Change and I was notified that this year, I would be getting an all-expense paid trip to travel to Illinois this fall to attend this world conference, and possibly be able to shake hands with Bill & Chelsea Clinton. I was wonderstruck. I still am wonderstruck. I can safely say that I am finally clean of all the demons that once lurked in my life.

And now, I can proudly say I rid myself of high blood pressure, fatty liver disease, and pre-diabetes. I just finished my first year at college and have a 4.0 GPA and am pursuing a degree in the chemical engineering field. And I will hopefully be transferring to the university of my dreams, Georgia Tech next year. I am the happiest I’ve ever been and I just want you all to know that no matter how dark the times feel, how hopeless you feel, you can overcome it. And you will come out stronger than ever. You’ll come out clean.

I will be attending the reputation tour in Miami, Florida on 8.18.2018 and will be sitting in section 149, row 17, seat 17. I hope I can thank you Taylor in person for everything you’ve done for me. @taylornation

Thank you, Taylor for being the only person who told me you believed in me. Thank you for showing me that I am worthwhile and that I am not damaged goods. Thank you for making me clean.

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I am LIVING for Surprise Songs

It is literally so so amazing that you can tell Taylor is all up on Tumblr looking for what songs we as her fans really want her to sing. She’s not considering whether or not everyone in her audience will know the song or if the song was especially popular, she literally just loves us and wants to make us happy and I STAN A LEGEND and just a super nice gal

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Fat Mood

SHE SANG THE LUCKY ONE UMMMMmmMM 911 !!?

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@taylorswift @taylornation

please read❤️

Dear Taylor, today i was diagnosed as a terminal cancer patient. my chemotherapy was not effective, and there is nothing else my doctor can do. my last wish, is to meet you. my whole heart is broken at the thought of never getting to hug you and thank you for all you done for me. i am praying to meet you in kansas city, because that’s my last show. you have taught me so many important values. Fearless. don’t be afraid to speak now. your reputation doesn’t define you. your words and songs have been my escape for years. taylor, please if you’re reading this. my last wish is meeting you, getting to hug you so tight. everyone reading this, please help me.

@taylorswift @taylornation

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brb I’m crying

“So um, for this tour, just full disclosure, this tour is the most fun I’ve ever had on a tour ever in my whole life! And um, one of the things that makes it fun for me is, well, obviously the number one that makes it fun for me is you, like you guy are absolutely so awesome. But on this tour, I’ve been bringing back old songs that I haven’t played in so long, you know, it’s you, me, and a guitar, figure why not play something that I haven’t played in forever, and I really, really haven’t played this song in forever, and that’s an actual time measurement - since forever. and so i figured when I was back in Pennsylvania, I figured I might play something I wrote while I was still living there. There are so many people in the crowd tonight that are so young that they weren’t even born when I wrote this song. But it’s a song that I wrote when I was living in Pennsylvania and traveling back and forth to Nashville with my mom. And I would write songs and try to figure out some way to do this, if it was possible that I would ever get to do this, and trying everything, every way we knew how, knocking on doors, she’d pull up to the front of a label in the rental car and I’d say, ‘Hi, I’m Taylor! Here’s my demo CD, I’m 13!“ And this is a song that I wrote about not knowing if it was ever going to work out, or what I was going to do, and it’s called A Place In This World.”

— Taylor before A Place In This World in Pittsburgh, PA on August 7th

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Catch me like this avoiding my high school “friends”

How’d we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy.

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Today I was in Home Goods and I Knew You Were Trouble was playing and me and another girl looking at navy blue decor pillows were both humming along and we laughed and ended up buying the same pillow so long story short girl has great taste in home decor and music so I want to be her best friend

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✨ i’ll be there for you, cause you’ll be there for me too ✨

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*aggressively supports Taylor Swift*

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So I, put a bullet where shoulda put a helmet and I

Crashed my car ‘cause I wanna get carRIED AWAY! (HEY)

THAT’S WHY I’M STANDING ON THE OVERPASS SCREAMING AT MYSELF! (HEY)

I WANNA GET BETTER!!!

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Hayley Kiyoko and Taylor Swift at Gillette Stadium in Foxborough, MA, July 26th, 2018.

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Songs we, as a society, still need to hear on the b stage this tour

- the lucky one

- cold as you

- breathe

- the story of us

- sweeter than fiction

- the other side of the door

- a place in this world

- wonderland

- the outside

- starlight

- this love

- tell me why

- stay beautiful

- you are in love

- if this was a movie

- hey stephen

- innocent

- the way I loved you

- begin again

Reblog if you agree

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omg that's rough! :( legit the first time I got pepper spray I assumed it was locked and like jokingly pressed the button to release it and it got all in the air in my apartment... it was a bad day

IM GOING TO DIE MT DAD SENT ME A NEW PEOPER SPEAY AND HE WANTSD ME TO TEST IT SO I WAS DAMJLIAR WITB JOS TO USE IT AND I COMPLETELY FORGOT I…USED IT AND I JSUT RUBBED MY EUE AND IT HEITS SO BAD

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Okay but Come Back be Here is my favorite song from red and 

THIS IS FALLING IN LOVE IN THE CRUELEST WAY

this is falling for you when you are WORLDS AWAY

Is part of what is probably the greatest bridge of all time I am just saying

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Taylor after she sang Come Back Be Here in Toronto, Ontario (August 4, 2018)