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Manifesting the best version of myself

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Manifestation works. Believe in yourself

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The reality is that there will always be a side of me thats quiet and a side of me thats loud

I cant be just one it just doesnt work

Either its too draining or too difficult to form connections that way so around loud people i am quiet and around quiet people i can be a bit louder

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Trying to form real connections with people, showing my genuine self (though i think i have two sides to myself), enjoying nature, trying new things

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Telling an old friend happy birthday even if the last time we talked was me saying happy birthday the last year because i cant help myself

Telling a friend i dont like that much congratulations for finishing exams because i cant help myself

Yet being hesitant to give up my seat on public transport because im afraid of how people will perceive me??? Crazy.

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I cry a lot.

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I see videos of couples doing couply things, people in love, people taking care of each other, enveloped in each others arms, hugging, holding hands. Its not jealousy that i feel, its more of a sadness. A kind of emptiness in feeling that i will never get those experiences (at least romantically) while im a teenager or maybe ever, really. Self-love is important and all that, but i want to know what its like to be someone favorite person.

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Driving is hard. Whoever said it wasnt is lying. Ive driven 11 times now and its still hard. Getting the speed right, looking out the window, making sure your tires dont get caught, watching for other cars, looking at the traffic light, everything. The instructor tells me to do something and so i do, only to be told im doing it too much now. They are probably annoyed at me because theyre human. I cried during a lesson once, teared up twice. I have my permit exam soon. I dont know if i could pass first try.

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Being kind takes courage and i dont have it yet.

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i wonder whos gonna be my first love

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i swear lip balm is a scam

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even though the big one was lost, we can still fight for the smaller wins

many drops make a shower, right?

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Cant wait for the next chapter of my life

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I hate being perceived but i want to be loved

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i cant join conversations about “hear me out”s because i dont have any and all i can do is laugh about it which makes me feel like im not contributing enough to the convo and it gets tiring after a while

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(might be controversial) my sister says that she likes gracie abrams songs but not the person because of the finn wolfhard situation. if im being completely honest, that whole situation was practically nothing. she was freshly 18 and probably didnt even acknowledge that within herself. if she had been 17, no one would make such a big deal out of it. its been like 7 years, i think shes learned from it by now. we cant keep holding grudges forever for something as minor as this.