omg i woke up and saw your post about requests and came running!! you alr know i need all the angst in my life so can i please req dk + come back to me if he hurts youâ đ„șđ«¶đ»
thx for helping me realize i write mostly angst for sunshine boy and continuing the tradition đ«¶đ» akjddsk
DK (SVT) | âCome back to me if he hurts you.â
angst | 0.7k | gn!reader
He stares at you, processing. It feels - well, thereâs no way to put how it feels. His chest is hollow. He has no parallel to draw, so he just⊠stares.
The information shouldnât come as a surprise. Heâs heard through the grapevine that you began dating again. Honestly, should he even care? He does. But should he? Does he have any right to care? The split was amicable, mutual. Friendly even. Youâre friends still. You seem happy. Heâs genuinely happy that you are happy, so whyâŠ
âSeok? Are you alright?â your panicked voice and slowly approaching hand make him wake up and flinch away. He feels his face soften from whatever grimace he was making upon seeing your hurt expression.
âSorry, yeah,â he clears his throat, âIâm alright. Uh, so things are good, yeah?â
He tries hard to ignore your face morphing into a mask of indifference.
âYeah, things are good,â you repeat.
The silence that follows is awkward and stretches on. He wants to break it but he has no idea how.
âThis was a mistake, wasnât it?â you laugh, but it sounds empty as you hide your face in your hands, âI donât know why I told you.â
âHey,â he protests way too quickly and his hand immediately shoots to your shoulder, and he pulls it back just as quickly. You turn towards him and frown. Itâs unusual to see him so serious. âI want you to tell me. Youâre my friend.â
Your smile is sad. He hates it.
âWeâre more than that, Min,â you sigh. Itâs quiet again and heâs just as helpless.
âI guess I want to tell you everything - would that be cruel?â you meet his eyes again, but all he sees is the anxious way you fidget with a loose thread on your pants, âI guess I just want to know if you think weâll work out. Youâre the one whoâd be the best judge of that.â
âIâm the worst one to be the judge of that,â he corrects you, his voice slipping into his comedic persona easily, âSeeing how things turned out.â
You do laugh and some of the unpleasant feelings lift off his shoulders. He doesnât know what would be the best or most appropriate thing to say next. Heâs not sure how heâs supposed to feel. All he knows is he has to start talking or this will be very pathetic very soon.
âIâm really happy for you, sorry,â he smiles, blinking away some of the moisture in his eyes, âI donât know why this-â he motions vaguely to his face, âHappened.â
You chuckle, but looking at you, your eyes are wet too.Â
âI get it,â you nod, âIâm so scared itâll end wrong again.â
He sighs. As if he didnât know the feeling intimately well.Â
âDid-â he stops himself before he can finish, thinking better of it, but you push for it anyway. âDid I do something? Something so bad it makes you afraid now?â
âOh god, Min, no,â you rush to reassure him and end up grabbing his hand in both of yours. You bite your lit. This isnât exactly how you expected the talk to go. âIf anything you loved me too well. So Iâm afraid I wonât feel love like that again. Or that Iâll fuck up and lose it.â
âYou couldnât ever fuck up like that,â he laughs - the idea alone is so ridiculous, âBecause youâre the kind of person nobody would want to lose.â
You shake your head, leaning into him with a laugh. Heâs warm against your side. It feels comfortable. Comfortable like it used to feel even before you dated, like it did when you were together too. You missed being this comfortable with Seokmin after the breakup.Â
Things change, but maybe they donât need to be all that different. You have too much history to let go. And all of it is good - as much as humanly possible.
âCome back to me if he hurts you,â he outstretches his pinky to you. You huff, but thereâs a wobbly grin on your face anyway when you promise with your own.
âYou got it, Min.â
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Cozy and Comfy ⧠l.jh
Pairing: Lee Jihoon x gn!reader
Genre: fluff
Summary: Jihoon doesnât understand why you like lying on top of him so much no matter how many times you explain. To be honest he isn't sure why he misses it when you suddenly stop but he'll get to the bottom of the mystery.
Word count: 3.5k
A/N: it's soft hours for woozi rn.
There are a few things Jihoon values above all else. Some of these things are his privacy and personal space - understandably so, after living and spending most of his time with twelve other guys for a significant part of his life.
However, this is his private time now and even though he might not be the biggest fan of physical affection, his hand cradles your head to his chest. His other hand is on the small of your back to reassure you heâs there.Â
You seem most satisfied like this, seeking out this exact position night after night whenever he comes home to you. He doesnât mind, if heâs being completely transparent - he likes it too. This sort of intimacy that seems to help him recharge instead of draining him further. He wonders if itâs going to be the same once you live together, wonders if heâll mind if this little ritual stops.
Jihoon remembers the beginning, when you shyly proposed the idea and he let you do whatever you wanted because he was curious. There was a wide smile on your face when you crawled between his legs and settled almost fully on top of him. You were adorable, gently rubbing your face against his chest. He teased you - are you a cat or what? He didnât want you to get up, didnât expect that you wouldnât recognize the humor in his voice. Before he could say anything, his body reacted on its own to stop you. It felt even better when he was holding you, he discovered. And his touch was enough to let you know he wants you to stay right there.
And now here you are.
Today your hand is stretched slightly so you can play with his hair. Itâs getting inconvenient at this length but he has to admit your attention makes it slightly better. He lets you mess with the tips and pull at them gently. He even allows you to loosely braid the strands you can reach. Maybe itâs that heâs already slowly drifting off, maybe itâs that heâs just in love.
Heâd like to have more time with you, but the nights usually end like this - with him suddenly falling asleep before he can realize how tired he is and you waking him up so softly and gently he doesnât mind it at all. Itâs nice, if heâs honest. To have someone to trust, to have you slowly lead him to the bedroom. You look so sheepish after having to wake him up that it always feels like the first time you gave him the privilege to be led to your room.Â
Itâs the perfect way to spend the night. This way he gets to fall asleep next to you twice instead of just once.
Jihoon doesnât understand why you like lying on top of him so much no matter how many times you explain. Not that he minds - he just canât comprehend what youâre saying to him.
He doesnât get your excited youâre so cozy and comfy. He gets that heâs warm, sure, or that you like hearing his heartbeat. He also likes it when you sometimes sneak your hand under his shirt and put it above his heart. Just as heâs fond of moments when nothing can help you relax but lying like this while youâre both naked, with nothing but a blanket covering you. Hell, itâs nice is fine too. But the rest of it? Itâs just confusing.
What he also doesnât understand, and what pretty much solves the question of whether heâd miss lying with you like this if you stopped doing it as often, is whatâs been going on these past few days.
Itâs not literally always that you lie on top of him, sometimes itâs too hot or youâre just not feeling as affectionate or one of you is in pain or sick. But none of this applies now. He knows this because itâs definitely not hot, he checked that youâre feeling fine, and youâre all over him otherwise.Â
Itâs just that you wonât take part in your little ritual.Â
Last night you did for a bit but you were restless and squirming until you gave up and laid tucked into his side. Now, heâs not complaining about that - it also feels nice but itâs not exactly what heâs used to and what he started to look forward to each day that heâs spending with you.
On the fourth day he cracks and once he lies down, he opens his arms for you. Jihoon knows heâs cheating because you never say no if he explicitly asks for any type of affection. He figures thereâs no harm, though, thinking that maybe youâre just feeling a little self conscious as you sometimes do. He sees the surprise on your face, feels reassured by the giddy laugh from your lips and how happily you take your place where you belong. He might hold you just a little tighter for a bit. Just maybe. He pretends he doesnât know heâs doing it.
Yet even though everything seemed fine, like things returned to normal, they didnât. Youâre trying to hide it, but itâs impossible to mask your squirming when youâre literally on top of him.
âIs everything alright?â he asks, his brows furrowed into a concerned frown. Are you feeling uncomfortable with the position all of a sudden? Are you hurt? He trusts you to say something if that was the case, but maybe you needed some encouragement? Needed him to show that he cares? His hold loses some of its strength.
âYeah, why?â you turn your head to look at him. To your credit, you keep lying on him, and even if your voice is nothing but curious, he feels like youâre calling him out. Daring him to say he misses the affection he sometimes playfully teases you about. He contemplates for a moment before he decides that he trusts you. Really trusts you. And heâs⊠worried.
He might not understand what you mean by him being cozy and comfy to lay on but he knows itâs what he wants to be. He doesnât think anything about him changed, so he wonders if maybe he did something that changed your perception of him. He licks his lips, ready, and then groans nonetheless. He knows you wonât tell anyone, but stillâŠ
âItâs just, uh, you donât seem comfortable and I donât know, did something happen? Did I do something?â
His hand moves from the back of your head to your face, gently caressing your face with his fingers. Did you maybe just feel uncomfortable sharing whatever is the issue with him? He doesnât know why youâd feel that way, but heâs ready to do whatever he needs to if it means getting your trust back.
âHey, Jihoon,â you call his name softly, as if you knew just what was going on in his head. You scoot closer to him, a movement which naturally makes him curl an arm around your waist. âItâs nothing. Itâs really nothing.â
âYeah?â he asks and immediately cringes at how defensive he sounds, âSorry.â
You smile and pull away, slowly moving to straddle him once he lets you. Soon you guide his hands back to your waist.Â
âHave you started working out more?â you ask and it makes the frown on Jihoonâs face deepen.
âNo, I donât think so,â he shrugs. If anything, it was a struggle to fit the work outs into his schedule. He couldnât have more of them if he wanted to. âWhy? Do you think I should - or should work out less?â
âNo, not at all,â youâre quick to reassure him, âItâs just that your body is, uhm, harder lately.â
Your voice gets weaker towards the end, but not enough that he would have trouble hearing you, although he canât really imagine what you mean.Â
âExplain?â he asks, blinking a couple times. You groan, leaning down to hide your face in his shoulder.
âItâs just that, well, usually youâre kind of soft and comfortable? Like not soft soft but just, I donât know, nice to lay on,â you rush with the explanation but thatâs okay - so far Jihoon understands nothing anyway, âBut lately youâre so hard - your body, I mean. Like youâre turning into a rock or something. Are you sure youâre not overdoing it at the gym?â
Itâs a bit too much information that he doesnât know what to do with. Again, heâs not sure what you mean exactly, so he stares at you for a second or two before he finally speaks up.
âWe started adding more weights recently, so maybe,â he shrugs.
âAnd you didnât notice something is different?â you ask, rising from your hiding spot. You seem confused - just as confused as he is.
âWell itâs not like I poke myself to know what my body feels like, y/n,â he deadpans, âIâm more sore but something hurts all the time, so I canât say I noticed much of a difference.â
He watches as your expression morphs into one of concern and heâs so grateful for his quick reflexes that allow him to pull you down before you can get up from his lap. âWhatâs wrong?â
âYou tell me when it hurts, right?â you ask, worrying your lip between your teeth. He smiles softly and nods. Heâs glad when you relax, but he keeps his hands on your hips anyway. âYou rest enough, right?â
He resists rolling his eyes and just confirms instead. âYou know I have to take care of my body if I want to do this for a long time - and that includes rest.â
âAnd eating proper meals,â you remind him. He chuckles, agreeing with you easily. âIf youâre short on time and need a meal quickly just let me know.â
He smiles, bringing one of your hands to his lips and kisses the back of your hand. Heâs grateful for you, truly. But he canât help but wonder if you know how much youâre actually doing for him. If youâre aware even all the little things add up.
âI appreciate that, but you know I can just order-âÂ
Before he can finish the sentence, thereâs a finger pressed against his lips. He doesnât protest upon seeing the determination in your eyes. âYou know what I want to say, right?â
âOf course,â he sighs, his lips still turned up, âAnd you know I enjoy when you cook for me.â
The way you beam at him one would think heâs never told you before. But he did. Every time. Because it was true and the least he could do.
It gets quiet for a while, but Jihoonâs happy enough to know that nothingâs wrong. He knows his overworked muscles will eventually get stronger and heal, returning to their original consistency that was apparently soft but not soft soft. Thereâs always a chance that youâll get over your fondness for this particular position, but thatâs something only time will tell. For what itâs worth in the eyes of fate, he hopes you never will.
With the crisis over, his body starts to feel the day again. As if all the aches simply hid to make room for his insecurity and only now started to come back once the air cleared. He tries to push back the yawn, but fails yet again. He hears you shake your head, well familiar with the sight. He holds you tighter before you can think about leaving.
âWe can move to bed, youâll fall asleep soon anyway,â you rub your hands over his chest, but Jihoon is nothing if not stubborn. So despite his aching body, he flips you sideways and traps you between his body and the edge of the couch. He takes more pride than he probably should from the fact that you cling to him despite his not soft body. Heâs holding you. He wouldnât let you fall.Â
âIn a while, I like this thing we have,â he mumbles, taking advantage of your face still buried in his chest where you canât see the longing in his eyes.
You know itâs a lost fight anyway, and itâs not hard to oblige when the prize is being held by Jihoon and relaxing watching whatever you put on. He always tells you that the pillows are more comfortable than him, but youâre pretty sure you saw him frowning while you took one to put under your head.
You settle into a more comfortable position with your back against his chest and his arm loosely thrown over your waist. You canât even remember the last time you spooned like this. Itâs nice. Regardless, you miss your usual position. It allows you to watch him once he falls asleep, and his heartbeat is nicer under your palm or your ear instead of against your spine.
It doesnât take long for you to feel as his breathing evens out against your neck. His face is buried in your hair and you donât understand how that can be comfortable. You wonât complain, though, when you are so perfectly surrounded by his warmth. You feel your own eyes becoming heavy. Youâre actually looking forward to your bed, but you donât have the heart to wake up Jihoon yet. Itâs always a gamble, trying to allow him to sleep for as long as you can without falling asleep yourself, but you have yet to lose. You are responsible for his comfort, after all. And thatâs a job you do best.
Things get back to how they were eventually. Jihoonâs body regenerated enough that itâs returned to the cozy state now, even though he still has some reservations regarding the label. One day you went as far as to call his biceps squishy, which he has yet to process.Â
Overall, though, things are peaceful.
Just as he wanted.
Only today was tough. Really tough.
One of those days heâs so grateful he could cry for taxis being a thing. He doesnât know how heâd make it home otherwise and still he managed to doze off in the car. At least heâs familiar enough with the route to your apartment that he can manage it even half asleep. Itâs a small miracle he doesnât stumble and fall on the stairs.
You on the other hand think itâs a miracle heâs made it this far without passing out cold.
The moment you opened the door - or more precisely the moment you had to open the door you knew something was wrong. If your boyfriend canât even unlock the door himself, something is very wrong.
Itâs heartbreaking to see him like this, but at least heâs out of it enough not to mind your concerned gaze on him as he shoos you away so he can take off his shoes. A herculean task it seems because it takes him forever. Youâre close to telling him to just come in anyway when he pulls them off at the last second.
You help him straighten up under the guise of taking off his jacket - something he usually doesnât allow either, but itâs not wildly off limits. Neither is hugging him as a greeting. If you cling to him a little to help him to the bedroom, thatâs between you and the sky above because you believe he falls asleep on you for a minute there. A belief that comes concerningly close to being the truth when he blinks and looks around the room as if he had no idea where he is.
âThis is the bedroom,â he slurs the words together, but at least you know heâs not sleepwalking yet.
âYeah - look at you, Jihoon. Where else do you think we should be?â you chide, gently. He can be moody when heâs tired, though you think heâs not in a state where his brain is capable of processing something as complex as a mood.
Instead of answering, he nods in the vague direction of the living room. You have half a mind to scold him, but then think better of it. Another thing about tired Jihoon is that heâs even more stubborn.Â
âOkay, sure, we can go there, but wash up first, hm?â you instruct him and turn to walk away when he grabs your wrist. His hand falls limply back down, but it achieves what he wanted.
âWhy? Iâll do it later,â he argues, frown pulling at his features.
âYou wonât, love, and we both know it. Now, you can either wash up yourself while I heat up some food, or I can help you and then get you the food, so?âÂ
One more thing about Jihoon is that heâs infuriatingly determined to take care of himself without relying on others. Especially when it comes to you.
Heâs getting better though. You see it when his lips pout slightly but he still gets up and heads to the bathroom.
You take that as your sign to head to the kitchen to warm up the soup you made earlier. Itâs not much, but you hope heâll be stronger later and youâll manage to persuade him to eat a proper meal. For now, though, the soup will have to do. You donât think he would manage anything requiring him to put actual effort into eating.
Just as you begin pouring the warm substance into a bowl, you hear footsteps in the living room. You follow their trail across the room in your head and then breathe a sigh of relief at the soft thud where the couch should be. You carry the soup over, not too hot, just the right temperature to eat.
Jihoon is already sitting there, although it looks like heâd much rather fall sideways and sleep. You hand him the bowl carefully, however you never get to give him the spoon as he just drinks the liquid straight from the bowl. You sigh, but leave him to it and carry the utensil back to the kitchen. Heâs done with the soup when you return, but he looks so miserable that you decide to put the dirty dish further away on the table and deal with it later.Â
You sit down next to him but donât stay put for too long, lying down and opening your arms for him. He looks at you with pure confusion.
âWhat are you doing?â
âCome on,â you sigh, motioning for him to lay down. He looks hesitant, if a bit more awake.
âIâm heavy,â he counters.
âWeighted blanket. Stop fighting and just lay down. Iâll push you off if itâs too much,â you raise your brows at him in a clear challenge. He might be more stubborn, but youâd win this fight since you wouldnât fall asleep halfway through it. He sighs, grumbling something unintelligible under his breath. He does move though, and you make space for him between your legs, helping him settle over your body. All that working out and yet he struggles to hold himself above you, his body shaking with the effort.
âItâs alright, lie down,â you coax him, slowly. He all but melts over you once your bodies touch, like butter on a warm toast. He looks so comfortable you feel a little bad for guiding him to a more comfortable position with his head on your chest. Itâs for him to lay comfortably, of course, but it also gives you easy access to his hair.Â
First you smooth any stray hair away from his face, maybe taking just a second to caress his skin while he allows the affection. Your fingers glide through the locks without any trouble. Again and again you brush your fingers through them, enjoying the texture, scratching across his scalp like you know he likes. You think how much youâll miss this when he cuts his hair short again.
âStop, Iâll fall asleep,â he murmurs, words barely recognizable, âI havenât asked about your day yet.â
You sigh - try to, really hard you try, but fail harder. You just laugh, in love.Â
âIt wasnât anything special,â you assure him, âThereâs always later if youâre curious.â
You think he tries to nod, a little jerk of his head against your chest. He presses his face further into your chest, his ear right above your heart. You know the feeling well, holding your breath - hoping. Hoping heâll find the same comfort in you as you find in him.
âItâs really nice,â he more so breathes than whispers. And soon enough, his breathing slows down and evens out, his body getting heavier like a blanket pushing you into the cushions of the couch.
You smile for a second, and then return to playing with his hair.
This is what home should feel like, you decide. Like the trust he puts in you by letting his guard down, like the unconditional love he shows you by always holding you while he falls asleep - but also like the safety in knowing there will be a new day and nothing will change.
Youâll still have each other.
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Jun (SVT) | Not Jealous
fluff | 0.8k | gn!reader
A/N: i once again blame @hanniedream and her silly bf jun ideas for making me stuck in jun brainrot >:(
âYouâre doing it again,â you accuse him with a pout when you join him again at the bar.Â
âHm?â he frowns, turning his body towards you.
âYouâre not jealous at all,â you sigh, âSomeone flirts with me and you donât care at all.â
Itâs a tradition at this point - someone lowkey flirts with you with Jun in sight, you decline them, and life goes on. Your boyfriend hardly ever so much as comments on it anymore.
Youâre not actually bothered by it, but today you wish heâd show a little more feeling at someone flirting with his partner. He senses youâre upset, and even if he thinks itâs more the late hour getting to you than you actually being mad, itâs always safer to check or at least distract you.
âWanna know my secret?â he smiles, gently putting his hand over your knee and slowly stroking your skin to soothe you.
âYeah,â you jump at the opportunity. He huffs at your sudden enthusiasm, then takes a couple of deep breaths. He meant to pull out some lame joke, but heâs not so sure he can do it anymore. His mind just goes a little blank when you look at him like this. And so the painful truth is his only way.
âI imagine theyâll flirt with me next.â
â...come again?â
âIâll think theyâll be flirting with me next and how Iâd feel in that situation,â he rephrases carefully, feeling his ears beginning to burn up.
âJun, look, I love you but what the actual fuck. Please explain the thought process,â
âYou always say Iâm hotter than you,â he gives you an expectant look, and you play along and nod, âSay it.â
âYeah, youâre hotter than me,â you roll your eyes, and you definitely do not smile seeing the happy grin on his face.
âWell then naturally, theyâll see you and be interested and flirt, but when they see me, theyâll come right over instead,â he explains, slowly growing embarrassed and looking to you for support. Youâre a little too focused on the fact that this sounds a lot like when a long time ago it was you explaining why youâre insecure when people see you together. He seemed so confused about it, and you wonder if it actually caused some damage. âAnd yeah, I just think that and how uncomfortable Iâd be if someone came onto me like that when I already have you and youâre everything I want and need. And youâre out of their league too!â
You jump a little when you realize how close Jun leaned towards you while you were trying to comprehend what heâs telling you. His skin looks adorably flushed, and you know itâs definitely not from the very much non-alcoholic juice and vodka cocktail heâs been drinking. You close the gap between you, resting your forehead against his.
âI think I want to marry you,â you sigh, closing your eyes before you can see the relieved smile that you know would make you propose right then and there.Â
âSo are you still mad at me?â he asks, taking your hands in his.
âI wasnât mad, I just think itâs unfair,â you shake your head before kissing him. He hums into the kiss, sliding a hand behind your head. It moves to rest around your shoulders when you pull away.
âBut you know, Jun, that last guy was kind of hot,â you mention off-handedly as you swirl the drink in your glass.
âHm, yeah, he had a nice body,â Jun leans back, tilting his head in thought.
âAnd you still thought I was out of his league? Still thought youâd mind him flirting with you?â youâre just teasing, your reward being his laugh.
âHonestly, Iâm so annoyed someone is flirting with you that itâs not hard to only find the ugly things on them,â he shrugs, smirking when he notices your surprised face, âI get jealous, I just try not to show it if itâs stupid.â
You push his shoulder and groan. You cross your arms on the table and put your head on them, glaring at your laughing boyfriend.Â
Heâs right though. Whenever you feel uncomfortable, heâs right there to protect you and take care of sending the offender away. Whenever they cross a boundary, he will show them youâre his, the same as when you make it clear you want him to be possessive about you. He just never makes a scene if there is no need.Â
âI can-â
âNo,â you stop him before he can continue, smiling as he rubs your back gently, âYouâre perfect. Iâm just stupid sometimes.â
âAlways,â he coughs to tease you, but thatâs alright.Â
Youâre grateful to have him - bickering and all.
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