haoyu1314

[haoyu1314]

Stop seeing him is best for us two.

[haoyu1314]

12.12.21

As planned, I needed to go to Wuxi as early as possible, but things got a bit tired at night that I managed to wake up at around 11:00 in the morning. I hurriedly took a bath and drove my bike to the bus station. It was a smooth journey, too; I had a couple of KFC fried chicken and a drink before heading to the waiting lounge for my 11:40′ish trip to Wuxi. 

I've arrived at the apartment after 50 minutes, and I unexpectedly saw him at the reception, and we’d got eye-to-eye contact, me wondering why he was at my place whilst him wondering why I was around. To cut the story short, he’s got a client to attend in private. Well, yeah . . . given to the nature of his job, what can I do? 

I ain’t supposed to send him a message as it feels awkward as I man knew who his client is and knowing that he was with someone, he’ll definitely act tired when it is my turn. What the hell am I thinking? Are we a couple? That’s definitely wrong to think of him . . . as his client and myself are of the same level. Fuck! I can’t believe why I am thinking that way . . .

Yeah, this is what happens when you “fell” to a debauchee. Funny? Yeah! Should I stop it? 

[haoyu1314]

December 9

As I opened my Facebook account, Vic's birthday was one of the notifications I got. I was hesitant to greet him as he didn't even remember my birthday back in October. But then again, I realise that it is better to be the first person to initiate rather than do nothing at all - it's called humanity.

Same Date Coffee Shop of 小雨

I got invited by a friend who opened a coffee and pasta shop, and he offered me a coffee and a pasta. He asked for my suggestions right after I had it, but I felt guilty about what I'd told him. But I thought of it as right, oh! I'm getting too Asian again.

Was I right or wrong? It's hard to figure out, and only those who are open-minded would agree with what I've done.

I felt guiltier when he didn't charge me when I was about to pay for it. He said it was a trial as the shop is not yet fully operational.  

I ended up rushing out of his shop out of guilt, but yeah, telling the truth is nice, but I realised that we could sometimes do a few white lies to encourage someone - much more when it is a friend.

[haoyu1314]

December 7

It's not about today, but it's the 7th! 

Last night could be one of the exciting moments I had after months of love hiatus, and it was exhilarating yet strange as again it is another one-way affection - I suppose? 

Today I started to smile again, and I got accustomed to ignoring what was happening in the office - talks, convo, etc., as I've been thinking of the way he looked at me as he topped me. It was naughty and funny, but I controlled it as we couldn't make too much noise. 

His almond eyes remind of the night of 7th; it made him sexier, but yeah . . .  it's all about my feelings, not his. For him, it is just body contact . . . I still wish to find someone who truly loves me, and I prefer Chinese with almond-shaped eyes. 

Same Date 

10:16 

I thought of sending him a message, but it seems not proper, as literally, we don't have a relationship aside from having that 'fuck' out of our lust. Yeah, it may have happened twice, but yeah . . . it is nothing, nothing but pleasure and curiosity. But what the hell am I doing now? Why the hell I am thinking of him? Damn! 

[haoyu1314]

#AscottCentralWuxi

I was invited to attend the year-end Christmas party celebration of the Filipino community in Wuxi, P.R.C. 

And because of this . . .  

I’ve decided to ask a friend who happens to manage one of Wuxi’s hotels - it’s an international brand for which I trusted most. I sent him a private message asking whether there’s availability for Saturday (2020/12/19). Luckily, I got a booking via my friend’s account - I was worried at first as I couldn’t find rooms via Ctrip.

Ctrip is amongst the most commonly used APP in China for hotel, flights, and train bookings. 

But honestly, aside from attending the Filipino Community Year-End Party, I’d like to check what the hotel is offering - sauna, steam bath, food, and the room of course!

I was excited to go to Wuxi from Jiangyin. But, because of my prior commitment with the webinar offered by Purdue University, I’ve attended it first then went to Wuxi after two hours or at noon. It wasn’t a relaxing trip as I’m still using walk-in crutches and I need to save a little for an expensive Didi service. Well, to cut the story short, I took the bus and arrived at the Wuxi City at 1:00 in the afternoon.

It wasn’t that far, but you need to endure all sort of “bus experience “ of which I’ve got no choice as it’s my choice of transportation. Another hassling experience is my Didi service from Wuxi Passenger’s Terminal Station to Ascott Central due to my ”worst” Chinese language, that enables me to give a concrete direction as the place of location for pick up. But despite those, I managed to book another car and arrived in safety in the hotel.

Upon arrival, I must comply with the needed documents, including my health code upon check-in, and so far, I got all of those. I mace it sure that I coordinated well to avoid getting tagged as a lousy client.

Voila! I was given a room with a fantastic view, but of course, it wasn't as homey as the one I usually got at Somerset Harmony City (Wuxi). I'm used with laundry and kitchenette in a room; the passage seems too tight for someone who uses walk-in-crutches. . . 

and I was a little bit disappointed that both steam and sauna services aren't available. It's the basic standard that I'm always considering for a hotel to get my 100% recommendation, plus, I think the cleaners aren't  cleaning some areas that well. Just say, for example, the dressing table, it was dusty, I hope they can instruct their janitorial/cleaning department to be very particular about it, much more than we are currently in a pandemic situation - cleanliness matters a lot!

I've also ordered a spring chicken (Korean dish), it wasn't that satisfying, and it seems more Chinese than Koreans.

The night view of my room is amazingly fantastic for 500 RMB. I had a literal awesome night in that hotel room, much more at morning time where'd I've to see how the city changes, from a quiet night to bustling city life. I'll definitely go back to this hotel - and hopefully, will get a more satisfying experience!

I've also tried their food at breakfast as I was given a complimentary stub: the setting is another exhilarating experience, it's well-arranged according to your food preferences. I wish staff can talk in English, I mean, they're good at it, all they just need is to train the existing team (linguistically) to ensure that the international image of Ascott is maintained.

By the way, I have chosen the window table to see the outer view from the dining room, and it's another lovely view for me as I usually observe the activities of those people outside the building, more so what city life is in Wuxi.

I hope to check in again one of these days.

That's all folks!

[haoyu1314]

#decathlon

Dear TaoTao,

Happy Birthday! I feel so grateful that I am able to spend this day with you, surrounded by our family. As I write this note, from the crowded Decathlon Shop in Jiangyin on my way home, I am almost brought to tears as I reflect upon how much I love you. I will admit that I am using your birthday card as a quasi-pretext. In this note, I want to express to you what you mean to me. And, trust me, you mean so much. It occurs to me that I may have neglected to communicate this to you over the years.

Throughout my life, you have been (and continue to be) a source of support and love. Quite honestly, you are one of the few people whom I think about nearly every day. You are a special man, Taotao; strong, genuine, fiercely independent, incredibly aware, smart, and stylish. You are the skilled ringmaster of the circus. You make sure that everything runs smoothly, you delegate, you cure the sick, you assemble exquisite flower arrangements, and so, so much more. Above all, you create places that people are drawn to and you make an immense effort towards those you love. I do not know many families that are able to spend as much time together as ours, and that is a testament to you, Taotao. You treat everyone who enters your home like they are special, be they old friends, family members, or new comers. You take care of those who work for you as if they are family, and please know that this is such a telling characteristic of yours. You model to me how to treat people you work with unconditional respect, care, and genuine warmth.

You have taught me the value of quality over quantity as it relates to relationships, possessions, and moments spent with others. Taotao, you’ve taught me the importance of a keeping a neat home and how a clean kitchen, a puffed couch cushion, and a properly made bed embody respect, pride and an appreciation for what you have. You set standards for people to meet, which is so incredibly important. When I am with you, I seek to impress you. I remember, as a ten-year-old, waking up at 6 AM to excitedly make my bed for you to inspect. I pulled each sheet taut and made sure that there were no wrinkles; I diligently fluffed each cushion. And, I took pride in my work. You taught me that even though we had lovely people who would make our beds for us if we left them a mess, it was our job to take responsibility for our belongings and care for them; this was a matter of respect. To this day, I make my bed each morning, and fluff the cushions on my apartment’s arm chair each night before I tuck in to bed. When I do this, I think of you.

I have such fond memories of the time we’ve spent together. I think of our sleepovers and how your bed, with its crisp sheets, downy duvet, plush pillows, and Chinese lavender sachets embraced me like you always have. I appreciate how genuine you are Taotao.  I cherish our conversations. For this reason, I feel so lucky when you sit down next to me at the Clambake Club for dinner. It is so cool that you sit yourself at the “kids table,” with us. You are a great story teller and conversationalist. And I appreciate our shared love of vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce (or should I say, an ocean of chocolate sauce with a small scoop of vanilla ice cream). I love when you tell me about your life, stories about your childhood, about your first kiss, about friendships, about grandfather Ferris, about Mom. I love our chats, yet, I also love the moments we spend together where we don’t talk; sitting on the sun porch reading, watching television, cutting flowers in the garden. I feel so grateful that I am able to be at peace when I am with you.

Taotao, you have loved me through thick and thin. Even when I was arguably the least lovable and most obnoxious, you accepted me. You would brave clothes shopping with me, embarking upon this sort of Mission Impossible even when all I wanted to wear was flannel, “man-shirts,” ratty old sneakers, and jeans from Decathlon. On these birthday shopping trips, you let me choose the clothes that I felt the most confident in, whatever they may be. You never forced me to buy something I didn’t love, reminding me, “if you don’t like it in the store, you sure won’t like it at home.” Over the years, you taught me the value of style, individuality and calculated self-expression through clothing. I find so much joy in dressing myself and choosing clothes that make me feel confident and beautiful. You were the one who showed me, through example, how one does this.

As I grow older, and anticipate decorating my own place, I find myself looking to you for inspiration. The way you have decorated your home is both bold and elegant. The patterns and colors, that you chose, harmonize in such beautiful ways. Your instincts, when it comes to style, are second to none. The flowers you cut and arrange around the house speak to this special, artistic gift.

I love you, even though society still doesn’t allow us to express our love publicly.

Happy Birthday, my dearest Taotao! 

Wdy 

[haoyu1314]

#starbucks

When you are in China, and you’d like to have at least a reasonable internet connection - Starbucks is one of the top choices of foreigners.

In as much as I’d like to spend more time home, I’ve decided to stay here for two reasons: the internet and comfortability. So, it’s been like another “home” for me whenever I wanted to escape the stress I’ve got with my office mates - they’re lovely, but they talked so loud.

In this branch, the staff knows my preferences already: extra hot toffee nut and a pastry with additional service because of my foot injury.

Usually, I stayed at the long table so I can stretch my injured foot while doing some editing and reviews of my students Assessment Events, or when I am hoping to at least meet that special “someone” whom I longed for quite a while. (haha)

Just like today, I opted to bring the charger in the hope of meeting people who can share their chargers - although, again, I failed. But as I was like saying, there’s always a better tomorrow.

Oh, by the way, this is my first ever blog, I hope you’ll enjoy reading my post … I’ll try to write regularly. Ciao!