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She immediately went still at the hug.

Brown eyes widened as the pale cheeks began flushing into a deep red, her lips half parting in surprise. She hadn’t expected her plan to turn a different way than what she had thought. Not moving a single inch from her seat, she tried to take quiet breaths to stop her racing heart and shaky breaths. But what only got out of her lips was a quiet whisper of the boy’s name.

“Shin-Shintaro…?”

Too close. Too close. Too close. Too close. He was too close!

Ayano bite her lower lip as she tried to stay still since he was almost touching her neck and her scarf for once wasn't helping the situation. Since... since when the room had gotten this hot?! She could feel how her legs were trembling and she had to be careful to not move her neck or his lips would brush against her skin. She was ticklish! She was sure he knew that! Oh, wait, he didn't. Ayano wanted to hide herself in her scarf.

And though it was nice and all that, they weren't... well, dating. It had been only one kiss and a quiet confession but Shintaro didn't seem to acknowledge it. He was still the same person as before she had even got the courage to tell him how she felt. In the end, that kiss was the only thing she would have, right? The girl almost smiled sadly to herself until she remembered her current position. Taking a deep breath, she hesitated for a few seconds before she turned around and gave a kind, gentle —fake, fake, fake— smile to Shintaro.

“You can let go of me, I'm not mad.”

Lying was becoming difficult. Specially since her cheeks were burning and her entire body was shaking all because he was pressing his body against her back. And this time, she was sure he saw through her lie because nothing changed and she felt how her chest continued racing, almost trying to cause her pain. Being this close reminded her of the kiss, and while she didn't want to remember that...

Brown eyes disappeared behind her eyelids as she took his lips on hers, her entire body turned around in the hug, letting her delicate hands to rest on his chest to support her gesture.

Was it just him or were there some thorns in her words there?  …Just a bit?  Nevertheless…

"Well, it’s your own fault, you know?" Sitting lightly in his seat, ready to carry on with his usual daily minimum of sharp insults, Shintaro glances at Ayano who had fallen silent.  Noticing the way she had her head turned, harsh words become stuck dead in his throat unable to flow from his mouth.  

"Er…"

Shintaro couldn’t see her face but something told him the girl was feeling sad about something.  It couldn’t have been that comment about not getting his hopes up too much around her, could it?  Compared to Shintaro’s usual rude comments, he felt that one rather lacked punch.  And then again, this person wasn’t exactly normal.  Not to mention that as of recent their friendship, er- relationship(?) had changed drastically.  Not on the surface, of course. At least to him, though he didn’t show it. 

"Umm…"

Unsure of what to do or say next, the boy immediately started trying to reason it all his head.  When even the most reliable and logical side of his brilliant mind failed to yield satisfactory explanations, he had all but completely given up.  At the very least he could try to cheer her up, even without completely understanding the reason for Ayano’s melancholy.  He certainly wasn’t as good at her when it came to cheering someone up though.  However, if there was one thing Shintaro knew that Ayano would at the very least appreciate any effort he made no matter how small.

Gathering his courage the young male slid across the couch, inching closer to the girl stealthily.  Repeating the phrase ‘It’s not an issue, it’s not an issue, it’s not an issue,’ repeatedly in his mind like some sort of survival mantra he slowly wraps his arms around Ayano’s frame and pulls her into a tight embrace from behind.   

"S, Sorry… I’ll eat whatever you make for me so cheer up a little, alright?"

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LEGAL NAME: Ayano Tateyama

ALIAS[ES]:  None.

DATE OF BIRTH: November 22nd 

GENDER | SPECIES: Female|Human

PLACE OF BIRTH:  Japan

CURRENT LIVING CONDITIONS: Standard

SPOKEN LANGUAGES: Japanese, a bit of English

EDUCATION: Currently still in school

OCCUPATION: High-school student

DRINK | SMOKE | DRUGS:  no/no/no

LIKE[S]: Cooking, manga, music, her family, Shintaro

DISLIKE[S]: Swearing, lies, pain, grief

FEAR[S]:  Other's remembering the other timelines, feeling useless, and more stuff related to the past.

PERSONALITY TRAITS: Kind, gentle, maternal, clumsy, awkward, helpful, dishonest. 

DISORDERS: Hides behind happy expressions her emotions.

{ P H Y S I C A L   I N F O R M A T I O N }

HAIR COLOR: Brown

EYE COLOR: Brown

HEIGHT: 5’5”

TATTOOS: None

PIERCINGS: None

{ F A M I L Y   I N F O R M A T I O N }

SIBLING[S]: Shuuya Kano (adopted), Kousuke Seto (adopted), Tsubomi Kido (adopted)

PARENT[S]: Ayaka Tateyama, Kenjirou Tateyama

CHILDREN: None

PET[S]: None

{ R E L A T I O N S H I P   I N F O R M A T I O N }

SEXUAL PREFERENCE: Heterosexual

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Taken (?)

meet the muse;

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"I can teach you, Shintaro!"

     ”Maybe I should start learning how to cook..”

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"Oh, yes! We are having a bake sale in school!"

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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                                                                  —Do you think

                                   after a l l the ｈｏｒｒｉｂｌｅ things that I’ve done…

                                                it’s ᴘᴏssɪʙʟᴇ to be ＦＯＲＧＩＶＥＮ—;

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Oh, he had definitely listen to her humming. How embarrassing! But she didn't mind so much since he looked embarrassed too. It was adorable how he was struggling, not that she would tell him that.

"So... what do you think? Was it a good song?"

   He stands still, not moving a muscle, rather embarrassed at this point. He cannot reveal the reason for his previous curiousness. She mustn’t know.

   ”Yeah. I am.”

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Again, it was like the very encounter of their goodbyes in that classroom in the Haze except that this was reality and not a dream. The timeline where she belonged was a rarity, and she knew that happy endings for the repeating tragedy were almost impossible.

“Unfortunately, this is not a dream, Shintaro.”

Her words were said with her gentle, soft smile as she moved a few chocolates bangs out of her eyes, the red scarf flying with the wind. She couldn’t let him believe that what was happening was only one of his hallucinations.

“It has been a while, hasn’t it?”

She tilted her head to the side, the smile staying on her lips as she continued watching at the boy longingly. Moving one of her hands, she used it to gesture him and then point to herself. Before, he would be much taller than her because of how young she had died. Now? They were barely apart by a few inches.

“We are almost the same height by now, aren’t we?”

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「Neither did he. He did not plan for this encounter. More like: he didn’t know of this encounter. Not like this. NOT SO. The raven haired male was surprised. Why? How? How on earth …. could she be here?」

                   「He didn’t understand anything anymore..」

「”.. …”, he looked directly at the Tateyama’s lips. Their way of expression changed. From a clumsy nervous one over to a soft and melancholic one, filled with a bit of pain.」

        「She was saying his name. His name. A smile appeared.」

    「”Heh. I must be in a dream. I’m dreaming."」

             Where was the explanation? Where was the reason? 

Just where was the damn pain? There wasn’t pain in his chest because..

            「”It’s not real. Just another nightmare, like every other…"」

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"Uh… I haven’t watched anime in weeks… I had been busy with club activities, there’s a bake sale in a few weeks and I barely have time… wah…"

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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Laughing a bit to herself because of the embarrassment of being caught, she smiles this time with honesty. It is always good to see her friend.

"Are you alright?"

   He tries to dissimulate his presence by turning around, but when she calls his name, he realizes there’s no escape.

   ”Ah?”

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Turning around, Ayano moved her head trying to find the person that was looking at her.

"Shintaro?"

   He knows and likes that song she was humming but… yeah, not saying anything.

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"I am! I am! I swear!"

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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"Ah... well... about that... ahaha..."

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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Eh? How strange! She feels as if she is being stared at!

   Stares at.

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"Ahaha. I have been busy, classes are hard, ehehe."

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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"Ehehe. Hello!"

Humming happily as she smiles to the other. "Gabriel!"

|◘| “Hello Ayano!”

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Humming happily to herself.