happycharacter

[happycharacter]

@islandmusic @230yen @bonkie @adequately Going to try this again, because this has taken a seriously bad toll on my health. Please leave me alone. I don't want anything bad between us and I'd really like you to stop checking my blogs and reposting things from me. I don't bother you or look at your blogs or repost things from you, and I thought we talked about this and worked it out. This makes me feel sick and anxious, and I just want to be able to enjoy things and post in peace without feeling sick to my stomach. Please leave me alone.

[happycharacter]

@islandmusic I am sorry to have to post this again; even though you DMed me, I can't actually reply to it since your DMs are set to people you follow. I really do appreciate your POV about how you feel, thank you so much for replying and just having a genuine conversation about this whole thing with me. ^^;;

I am sorry for the trouble I gave you for awhile; I really do understand feeling "copied" by others, because I've had people steal things I've made myself for their own and imitate personal aspects of my identty to an extent--and I know its not a good feeling. It's very frustrating and it does feel hard to get away from it. I'm sorry that your privacy and feelings often aren't respected by others. To be very genuine--I do think you are very unique and have a keen eye for pretty pictures, and I understand you post a lot in "kawaii" circles and those people really can be brutal. I see so many blogs that look and feel so similar, like carbon copies of each other, you know? I get that there are many people who took your aesthetics and ran with it. I'm sorry it felt like I was another one in that. I think when I first made my blog, I didn't really understand that because it never happened to me 'til I had gingerbreadfrosting for awhile. I think once I started experiencing it, I understood how annoying and disheartening it is. It's hard to want to be yourself when there are people that are dying to jump to it and make it their own. But I try to find all of my own uploads to my blogs organically now; I do get inspired to look for certain things based on other posts I might see but these days, I don't really want to bother stealing from anyone.

I'm not sure why this started in the beginning, and I know its likely disappointing that I can't explain my part of it, because you do deserve a reason and an apology. Even though I don't remember, I am sorry for back then, too. I think that I only started reposting from your other blog earlier this year because I saw some posts from it by someone else's blog where it looked like the blog was deactivated, and I assumed it was. It seems like things just escalated from there. For the record, I do forgive you and accept your apology! I know that when this starts, its really suffocating and its hard to get away from, and I shouldn't have done that to you. In your situation, I don't truly blame you for the way you felt. We're both mature adults though, and I want us to both be ourselves and enjoy posting here instead of worrying about feeling copied or stolen from.

I don't know how you'll feel about this, but I'd like to be able to unblock each other and I'd rather just reblog from you in the future if I come across your things. You don't have to unblock me if you don't want to! It's totally up to you, but I will unblock you later, and you can interact with any of my blogs if you choose to. I never reposted any of your GIFs because I know its tiring to see that done, but if I saw some of them in someone's blog/my dash then I would remake them just to have on my blog. I only did it to be able to post it, and I didn't really tag these posts properly to get notes, but I do know that it looks bad and is a negative feeling alone just knowing that something you already GIFed was done by someone else, and I am sorry for the stress I've caused you. If you'd like, if you know any posts in particular that were reposted from you, you can send them to me and I'll remove it. I definitely have no intention of stealing from you, I don't go out of my way to and I try to make sure I haven't done so lately. If I post something similar to something you have at a time, I'd just like to clarify it was by accident, and if I do post something you have after you've posted it first, and you happen to notice, you can always let me know and I'd be happy removing mine. ^^

I had to leave my computer mid-writing this so I hope this makes sense and comes together well. Thank you again for being so nice about this, and I'm really glad we could talk about it at all! You can choose to reply to this if you want, but I also understand if you want to leave it at this. If you do choose to reply, don't worry about how "late" it is, there's no rush. I'm also sorry if some of my words don't make sense or are mixed up in any of this, I didn't sleep much last night.

[happycharacter]

@islandmusic I am posting this since I can't DM you or send you asks. I don't know if you'll see this or how you will reply to it but I wanted to give talking to you directly a try. This is compassionately/gingerbreadfrosting/tropicsweet, and I am sorry for things that happened between us in the past, but I would really like to start over on a new leaf. It was two years ago in 2022, I was 17, and I'm about to be 20 now; which doesn't sound like much but I have had a lot of time to grow since then. I'm sorry for the trouble I gave you, I truly have no quarrel with you and I'd like for things to be peaceful between us so that we can exist in harmony. I would really like if you would stop reposting from my blog and reposting my GIFs, as I no longer do this to you and I make it a goal to make sure that I don't (if I have lately, then it was an honest coincidence; I also never stole any GIFs from you, I usually reGIF stuff from other people if they have me blocked or if I want the GIFs separately in a post, which I usually do when a post has multiple GIFs, so if I made GIFs of the same thing you did, that is why that happened). I admit that I would repost from people I didn't really like, but again I was 16-17 at the time and I don't really do that anymore, anything like that is a coincidence and I make sure I find things organically to post now.

I am honestly not even sure how this started, which I think is a bigger reason that us not liking each other is silly. But I know you think I copied you at some point, but I never truly intended to. I did develop a common interest with you, but I really never tried to "copy" or "steal" it with that intention. I will be honest and say you do have very pretty blogs and a nicely curated aesthetic! And you seem nice, I really do not particularly dislike you. I am grown up now, and I hope you'll take this genuinely, because I genuinely am saying all of this. I hope maybe we can talk about it, or you'll at least agree with me.

My DMs on this blog are open if you want to talk about it, if they don't work you can message any of my other blogs. But even if you don't want to talk directly, I hope that we can end silly stuff like this, because I want to get along with you. I am genuinely sorry, and I hope that we can be on the same page. :,-)