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[haru-mmd]

Hello, its been a while. I apologise ive been quiet for so long, ive just been taking a long break and im at most peace at the moment. so i thought id give a small update to those who want to know.

I took the time to take care of myself and better myself

i finally got a job and my own car.

and me and my lover are soon moving into our place.

Im genuinely happy.

So while ill still check into here from time to time.

Ill be continuing to focus on my life. i think in truth i was just trying so hard to fit in to a community i cant relate to. while i still love the show dearly. if anyone who was paying attention to my renders. they would notice as i continued to post. they seemed more rushed.

and for those still wondering if i will still post. im still not sure if i want to continue my small au. as i still want to continue to focus on life.

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Pleading my Case

Ok so There is Video on youtube about me. Calling me a Predator cause of things out of context and my lack of judgement.

So i want to give my Perspective once Again cause people arent seeing my side at all.

I admit that i made a horrible mistake with kade since i was so easy to manipulate at the time i was friends with him.

the server that me and kade were seen in talking about erp was a private server i made that was meant for adults but kade ended up inviting minors in there (Without my permission)

I keep the Patreon private for a reason, and you guys putting my Patreon out like this isnt helping, as i try to keep that to adults alone.

I do not Participate/ Nor do i Condone predatory behavior.

The screenshots you seen of me and kade was me trying to deny him ERP as i was not comfortable with it. But again i was guilt tripped and manipulated by him

Reality is ive had kade long blocked for 4 years

If you choose not to believe me that is ok. i just want to give my side of the story cause some of the screenshots are taken out of context

I just made a post with as much evidence as i can gather.

(Final Update) please read this

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I've had a few Days to think about my actions in my past, and people are right, im not a victim, i never said i was a victim. while i do stand on the fact i was manipulated by that Loser, but it still doesn't compare to what i put some people through, and i feel that i owe them a massive apology for silencing them, and putting them through hell to try to help me.

I still stand that i thought i was doing the right thing, but i will do whatever it takes to make up for all the pain i caused to those who were silenced by my stupidity. i do hope that i can be given another chance. i understand if not. i love this fandom with all my heart, and i would be lost without it.

but if you are one of the people who were silenced by my stupidity, years ago, i am so so deeply sorry for all the pain i caused you, for letting that cunt do whatever he wants, i wish i was stronger, and i wish i could go back and fix it all. but time machines don't exist. so if there is anything i can do to make up for everything i put you through. please don't hesitate to tell me.

And if anyone knows those silenced people. please pass this on to them.

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Here is some proof from not only me but some friends (Hidden for privacy)

Here is One friend confronting him the day after i blocked him (when i found out from gnome about him being a registered offender.

i was known as kai at the time, and he was threatening me for blocking him.

Also here is Kade sending People To contact me, to try to get me to talk to him.

And i even have all his accounts blocked, minus the deleted one since its deleted.

(His Accounts are highlighted in red)

As for the Patreon, I keep that Shit to Just adults only and Discourage Minors from going there. im even as far as paranoid that someone is a minor.

And lastly The "NSFW Server with minors" It wasnt filled with minors.

Kade invited someone to the wrong server. and that user raided the whole server.

Unfortunately i cant provide evidence on that one as i too pissed at kade at the time.

and here is gnome stating why i didnt have the courage to ban him and block him.

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Overall all i wanted to do was try to help someone become as i like to see the best in everyone. I messed up and i don't expect to be forgiven. i was naive, i was easy to manipulate. i couldnt say no without feeling terrible. i wish i could go back and prevent it all by just banning him and blocking him right away. but i cant do that.

At the end i wish i could take back everything and fix my mistakes. And if anyone who felt silenced is reading this, i am soo deeply sorry for doing that, i wish i could take it all back and fix everything. I wish i was strong.

if you wish to not forgive than i ask to block me

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Pleading my Case

Updated Please go to bottom to see update.

Ok so There is Video on youtube about me. Calling me a Predator cause of things out of context and my lack of judgement.

So i want to give my Perspective once Again cause people arent seeing my side at all.

I admit that i made a horrible mistake with kade since i was so easy to manipulate at the time i was friends with him.

the server that me and kade were seen in talking about erp was a private server i made that was meant for adults but kade ended up inviting minors in there (Without my permission)

I keep the Patreon private for a reason, and you guys putting my Patreon out like this isnt helping, as i try to keep that to adults alone.

I do not Participate/ Nor do i Condone predatory behavior.

The screenshots you seen of me and kade was me trying to deny him ERP as i was not comfortable with it. But again i was guilt tripped and manipulated by him

Reality is ive had kade long blocked for 4 years

If you choose not to believe me that is ok. i just want to give my side of the story cause some of the screenshots are taken out of context

I just made a post with as much evidence as i can gather.

(Final Update) please read this

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Confession Gresley

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A Love Confession

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As a Gear Head, I completely Approve of this. as i hate bright lights at night when im on my way home.

HEY, FELLOW HATERS OF INSANELY-BRIGHT CAR HEADLIGHTS, SOMEONE HAS STARTED A PETITION TO REGULATE THEM.

It's an official petition through the Australian Government's e-petition page, which means if it gets enough signatures, it will be tabled in government.

You do have to be an Australian citizen to sign it, BUT!!! PLEASE REBLOG THIS EVEN IF YOURE NOT, because these kind of things have a roll-on effect, and if Australia legislates LED headlights, then other countries may follow.

FYI, the petition asks only for your name and email, and once you've clicked the sign button, they'll send you an email to confirm your signature --- you need to click the confirmation link in the email to have your signature counted.

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The Need for Speed Modding community is a blessing and a curse XD

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Lovely Day

Its a Sunny day in my area, so why not make a sunny day on sodor!

Gordon decided to take a stroll in the nice weather.

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Testing the Waters

Since The Water doesn't reflect shaders, i played around with reflections and here is the results.

Our Gorb Enjoying the Evening Sea

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Reminder that this Blog May Contain Occasional NSFW.

If you do not like that.

Please do one of the following:

Block the #Spicy Rabbit tag as it will be placed on all posts of that content

Block Me

I am just going to say that you have been warned and anything you do is your responsibility, not mine.

as Any Comments asking me to take it down will be deleted or Ignored.

And if I suspect your underage. I will Most Certainly Block you

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Your Gordon is Such a cutie!!!!

Humanized TTTE

Wanted to get back into drawing so I made these. I am happy how they came out.

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Old Memories

For those who don't know, Haru had a twin named Ren, but he passed away years ago.

This is what he would have looked like.

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Gordon Being a Goober

We were supposed to make a funny meme specifically the "yeah we gay keep scrolling"

But he has Other plans it seems <3

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Daisy Cammell Introduction

I finished a Character that was on my list for a while now,

And its Daisy!

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Waiting on the Bridge

Us Waiting on the Sunset on the bridge <3