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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHINICHI KUDO (& CONAN EDOGAWA)

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fanart i made a while back for skip to loafer 😇

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NEW SHIMAMITSU ART DROPPED (⁠☆)

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“Come take my hand, my little rose.” 🌹🌼

I watched Skip and Loafer and I love it so much 🥹🥹 The cozy vibes are immaculate 🙏✨

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With Shima feeling jealous and replaced by Ujiie. I wonder if he knows they're seat neighbors the way he and Mitsumi were y1. Walking past and seeing them talking and having fun would send him into a spiral I think

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chapter 60 shima save me save me

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so i am now caught up with skip and loafer. hi JKSDFKLFSDKL

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he needs like a therapist or something man idk

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Hananoi is selfless in in an "odd" way but that shows what kind of person he is.

I love that Hotaru tries to understand him and that she makes the same efforts as him, like looking for Hananoi's earrings.

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really good event so far

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Celebrating the first day in my grad program and impending doom debt with a drawing of THE otp of 2023 💖💖💖💖💖

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The dark cloud effect on these panels is kinda unsettling, it's like it's there to show Shima having dark thoughts and emotions; though, I don't neccesarily think it's a bad thing; everyone can have dark thoughts and that's normal.

I'm just intrigued to learn what Shima might be feeling right here.

"I want to perform this role better than anyone else. I want to show everyone that no one knows this role better than I do. I want to show everyone that deep inside I am broken and lonely like this monster. I want people to wonder how do I get so good at this role that they would wonder if I experience the same thing. I want people to know I am not the perfect Shima Sousuke they knew. I want to scare them a little. I want them to think twice about me. I want them to take a glimpse of the real me."

... or at least this is how I read Shima; the reason why he wants to perform this role better than anyone else. Maybe I'm overreaching.

I think he started to think like this after the summer vacation, after Mitsumi inspired and encourage him to be himself, just the way he is. He always tried to show his good side to everyone, but thanks to Mitsumi and this new role, he probably wanted to go a little... rough? Messy? (there's gotta be a better word for that, ugh). To throw people off a little. Maybe also to test Mitsumi's words, that people won't instantly dislike you just because you show a weakness or two; though, I don't think he realized it yet.

It's kinda like a self projection. Shima resonates with the monster's struggle, I think performing this role is his new-found way to express himself, to learn to lay himself bare; which is great!

So far, Kanechika is responding positively to his acting. I wonder if his peers feel uncomfortable because they couldn't keep up with Shima, but judging by the looks of it, it doesn't seem like the theater club is reacting negatively to Shima's great acting. I think, partly because of that, Shima is able to enjoy his time in the theater club.

Funny enough, in the next panel, we're shown with this.

I know Ujie's words is from a completely different topic and just happen to fit Shima's narrative timely, but 🤣😭

Not only it implies it's a bare minimun of wanting to do your best, it also implies it's the bare minimum of showing your real self to people. Which... stings? because not everyone can do that.

What do you think?

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shima's loserboy realness this chap 😀😄😁

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HE'S HAVING FUN 😭😭😭😭

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not to make everything about egashira mika but i saw a tweet about how shima gets really jealous of mitsumi with ujie when ujie is like a coughing baby bc he doesn't really know him so he sees him as competition and it reminded me of early mika when she doesn't see mitsumi as real competition bc shes a weird country bumpkin but later get jealous because she recognizes her strengths and shima affection towards her so they really are perfect narrative juxtapositions: shima hates himself so much so he thinks anyone could win mitsumi over him and mika hates herself so much she needs to assert some people as inferior to her. they deal with their issues in opposite ways but in the end they both just have incredible low self esteem and don't deem themselves as worth of true, genuine love which they happen to get from the same person lol

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what shima said: does it count?

what shima meant: is it good enough? did i meet your expectations? am i good enough? do i matter? will you accept me? am i worthy? do you see me? will you validate me? will you love me? will you embrace me for who i am, flaws and all?