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haruichyo · 4 years ago

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𝟏:𝟎𝟓𝐚𝐦

𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝

ran x reader

warnings: hurt/comfort, mental health talks, insecurities, reader is into girls as well.

wc: 1k

“ran, am i a bad person?”

the question startled ran to say the least, after three years dating you he did not expect that kind of question to come out of your mouth. it immediately worries him, he knows you’ve had issues with your insecurities and he never fails to give you all the reassurances you need, but this is not something he expected to be asked.

he furrows his eyebrows, eyes looking up from his work to yours. “where did this come from?” he asks you and tilts his head to the side in a questioning manner. you sigh, knowing this conversation will irritate him and you know he won’t be irritated at you but at the person that pushed these thoughts into your head.

“answer me first and i’ll tell you, please ran,” your voice breaks and ran feels his heart drop, getting up from his place in a hurry jogging towards you to bring you into his arms. “hey hey hey- what the fuck? of course not,” he says quickly, his heart beating out of his chest out of concern. “you’re literally the kindest, you treat me like a fucking king baby, no one compares to you, at all,”

“you’re so gentle, you give me so much love and more than i deserve considering what i do as a living,” his hand strokes your hair gently, pulling you slowly so you rest your head on his chest. “ah, i’m sorry i just-” you start before getting cut off by him. “no apologies, what did we say about this?” he grins and flicks your forehead, making you wince in pain.

you sniff before taking a deep breath, calming yourself down as you feel your boyfriend grab your hand, stroking the back of it with his thumb gently.

your ex’s words kept on repeating in your head, and you couldn’t help it because she’s also your best friend so it stung even worse. you know that ran didn’t like her, has always expressed his dislike for her but couldn’t do anything about it because you’re really close and she’s harmless. or that’s what he thought at least.

“now tell me, what happened princess? what brought that up?” you snap out of your thoughts hearing your boyfriend’s voice, a pout forming on your lips as he eyes your expressions carefully.

“i had a fight with (ex name), told me that your line of work is making my paranoia worse, and that being with you was never a good idea-” “she doesnt fucking know me to begin with, who the fuck is she to throw out bullshit like this?” ran cuts you off again, annoyance taking over his emotions, a mark of irritation appearing on his forehead already and you haven’t even gotten to the worst part.

“obviously i got annoyed so i called her so i can understand what the fuck’s her problem,” you continue, your eyes focusing intently on ran’s, noticing his feelings being evident with his expressions. “and she was like i’m just worried and i thought no, that’s just bullshit there has to be more to it,” ran nods, his thumb pausing his strokes on the back of your hand to focus with you. “then she dropped the bomb of ‘i really like you and i guess i haven’t made that clear enough, and i’m worried’ which obviously pissed me off even more”

“i knew this motherfucker was planning something, i swear the next time i see her-” he mutters. “no listen thats not it,” you continue, your eyes tearing up once again as you recall her words. “she told me i’m too unstable to be with you to begin with, and that you deserve better than to have someone like me that has issues.” your tears start falling freely once again, the words stinging, unable to look at your boyfriend in the eyes.

“and that fucked me up you know, telling your best friend that their boyfriend deserves better than them because of shit they cant control, it’s so fucked up,” you sob and ran can’t take this anymore, his blood was boiling and he was so fucking ready to get up and deal with this fuck by himself.

“i guess she was trying to be the whole i’m better date me instead i can fix you or some shit but jesus fucking christ,”

it hurt, someone so close to you hitting you right on your insecurities that you have expressed to them multiple times. you’ve always told her that you never felt enough for ran and that he’s way too good for you, and you’ve expressed those to your boyfriend as well and he never hesitated to reassure you every single time.

he loves you, he is so in love with you he would die to prove it. he would do anything for you and your satisfaction. he knows the risk of having you by his side specially as a bonten executive, he has his own insecurities himself. he had thoughts of you leaving him because you realized that you’re putting yourself in danger by being with him and to be honest, he thinks it’s fair, but it still hurts, and he doesn’t want you to leave him as selfish as that sounds.

“it’s okay baby, i’m right here, i’m never leaving,” he says in a gentle voice in contrast to the anger inside him. he genuinely feels like he’s going to explode. “i’m never leaving you for anyone else, you’re the only one for me, you’re the one i deserve and that’s it, do you understand?” you nod, a hand coming to wipe your tears away before you feel his hands gripping at your shoulders sternly as he shakes his head. “look at me and answer me, do you understand?” he asks once again, your puffed eyes meeting his and you watch them soften. “i do, i understand,” you chuckle and get reminded of how much love this man holds for you.

“i love you ran, i really really do.” you let out before engulfing him into your arms, leaving almost no space between you both. “i love you too angel, it’s always you, no one else,” you grin and squeeze him even tighter just to hear his complaints about him not being able to breathe apparently.

“c’mon, let’s go to bed, we need some rest after all of that dont you think so, pretty?”

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