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hi uh this is just a psa

IM ANTI-PEDOPHILE IM ANTI-MAP IM ANTI-KINDERGENDER OR WHATEVER THE FUCK IT IS

PUT ME ON THE ANTI MASTERLISTS!!!!

IF YOURE A PEDOPHILE BLOCK ME!!!! IF YOU’RE A PEDOPHILE APOLOGIST BLOCK ME!!! IF YOU BELIEVE PEDOPHILES BELONG ANYWHERE NEAR THE LBGT+ COMMUNITY BLOCK ME!!!!! IF YOU’RE A MINOR ATTRACTED PERSON OR WHATEVER BLOCK ME!!!!

BASICALLY IF YOU’RE AN ADULT WHO IS ATTRACTED TO MINORS AND/OR BELIEVE YOU BELONG ANYWHERE NEAR THE LBGT+ COMMUNITY SMACK THAT BLOCK BUTTON!!!! I DONT WANT YOU INTERACTING WITH ME OR MY POSTS!!!!!! BYE!!!!

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so my dnd group had another session today, where one of my friends had her first ever session with the funniest rogue ever, and because there were some issues with when people joined and people leaving this was the first session where the entire party was together and it was CHAOS. Now I’m playing a bard who’s terrified of any sort of relationship because her sister died and she doesn’t want to lose anyone else, and we also have a rogue, cleric, monk and sorcerer

our bard, rogue and cleric are a threeway flirt gang and it’s the funniest thing because my bard is married to her performance partn

other things that happened: our rogue took 3 psychic damage for taking my bard’s sombrero (ahh vicous mockery what a wonderful spell)

the rogue rolled a nat 20 on a check to make her first impression on half the party

probably the most inconvenient thing though was that the bard and rogue’s characters are predisposed to disagreeing with the prospect of a group fund so uh yeah (I felt bad for doing it but I didn’t want to change her character)

the player who left, her character just became an npc that the rest of the party stole from for convenience

the cleric and the rogue now have a bird call - the bard got so embarrassed she started crying 

the bard kept on mentioning that she had a so but the party didn’t clock on until she literally called him her husband (had a nice convo where they were like “oh is he nice” “WAIT WHAT IF IT’S A SHE?” “maybe *winks*”)

But the worst thing is that even though this party is chaotic af the campaign i’m planning has TWO bards, and one is apparently insane

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Try something for me. I want you to say her name. I want you to say her name into the empty air and just listen to the echoes swimming upstream through time. I want you to say her name into the darkness and watch all the ghosts swirl into life for just a moment. I know that it hurts. I know that sometimes you can’t get up because the beat of your own sluggish heart sounds like her footsteps. I know that sometimes you can’t fill your lungs with half a good breath because the air tastes too much like her perfume and you can’t bear to let it disappear like unspoken words down your throat. I know that you are afraid to invoke too many ghosts in case they swarm around you and carry you away with them. Or maybe, maybe that’s not what you fear— maybe what you’re really afraid of is how badly you want it to happen,     how desperately you wish to disappear like the wisp of memories no one else remembers     how hopelessly you wish for the world to fade out in sepia tones so you can pretend it makes sense again. I know that her name is a prayer now. I know that her name is a prayer reserved for the darkest nights ands grayest days when the ghost of her in the corner of your eyes      feels more real than anything your fingers can touch in this world now. But child, I want you to say her name and listen to the echoes fading away into silence. I want you to say her name and taste the aftermath in the air. I want you to say her name again and again         and again                 and again until you can say it without a hitch in your breath,                                    without a stutter in your heartbeat. And then, I want you to say it just one more time and say your name right after hers so that you can touch her and exist with her and fade away into silence with her–      at least in sound      at least in the chambers of your straining ears the way you wish you had.

learn to say goodbye ( j.p. )

after having a dnd session today this was literally the perfect thing to see based on my character’s backstory

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Everyone please go to Crankgameplays on twitch and watch his stream right now!!!! He's doing a kareoke to raise money for Australia and if his stream gets more attention Australia gets more help I guess!!!

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I think I hallucinated a Nintendo DS game from my childhood so I’m searching the internet desperately in hopes of finding the game that shares a song with one of the old Japanese wwe fighters about flying something that I thought was by Ubisoft but apparently isn’t

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Save Me

If I was real, would you save me? 

If I could live and breathe, would you save me? 

If I was capable of real, human love, would you save me? 

If I wasn't an empty husk of narration, would you save me? 

If I wasn't fictional, would you save me? 

If I hadn't died, would you save me? 

Would you save me now? 

If I screamed loud enough, anyone would. 

Yet, no matter what I do-

No matter how loudly I scream and cry, 

You don't save me. Why? 

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Every year since 2018 around Christmas/New Year's (I say this because the "2019 drawing" was actually Christmas 2018) I draw Alice from Doki Doki Precure to see how my art improves. Today I start my journey to drawing my 2020 Alice and seeing how my style changes even if I lost motivation a long time ago in the hopes it'll get me back on track with my drawing and help me figure out whether I want to continue.

When I'm done I'll put all three on here.

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When Rex started rapping...

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Do you know something that's really bothered me ever since I watched it?

In Malediktator (however its spelled I'm lazy), when Chloe's doing her nice little presentation and the entire class is making fun of her, Marinette says something that just seems really out of character for her, like the line could be used by anyone else and it would make more sense for them to say it.

"We may not deserve to see your documentary but you don't deserve to be called a superhero"

And it just.... Ugh

There's just something about that line that seems so mean that it really doesn't fit her, even if she doesn't like Chloe. It feels really out of character, especially how unprompted the line seems - because she says it a way after Chloe says the class doesn't deserve to see it and even HAS A RESPONSE TO THAT LINE which makes way much more sense for her character

"Oh what a shame"

Which is like yeah, I can totally see Marinette sarcastically reacting to Chloe saying that, but I just can't ever imagine her saying that to anyone, even if it had been Lila saying something like that

Literally I just rewatched it and there's something that feels so off about it and it might just be me but it really bothers me

It's probably just me though

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aaaaah it’s so good oh my god

Silencing Pressure - Pt. 2

How did things get this bad? Marinette felt as if her life was some cruel soap opera. If it was, weren’t things supposed to get better? Or is she just the gag character? Is her only purpose to be something for others to laugh at and think ‘Well, at least I’m not her’? Perfect, just perfect.

Her classmates had gone along with the majority for so long that they started to believe it. Marinette really was in the wrong, and Lila really was telling the truth. They couldn’t all be wrong for so long, right? Of course, they knew that Lila wasn’t the nicest person in the world. Maybe that had a play in their behavior. Yeah, that’s why they did what they did: for survival.

Lila, in just a few weeks, had made herself the queen of the school, outranking Chloé in popularity. People knew her name, and some knew to cling to her. Of them were Chloé, Sabrina, and Alya. They all knew what kind of person Lila was, but, if you want to survive high school, you’ve got to keep things cool with the apex predator. It wasn’t like the liar could be outsmarted; no matter how you looked at it, Lila knew what she was doing, and she knew she was good at it. Marinette would understand. She’s been bullied before, so she’ll get wanting to dodge the wrath. At least, that was the train of thought for Alya.

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my dad caught me writing at 2 am and told me to turn my computer off and now that i’m awake i’m just really annoyed because I was having such a massive amount of focus that I just won’t get back so i’ll probably screw up what I did last night

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In this cold harsh world, it takes a special kind of courage to remain soft and kind. Build that courage. Be soft. Be kind. Be an example.

(via heavyemptyheart)

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The Time Traveller

Picture this: 

Marinette is 18/19, her career is thriving due to the exposure from her teenage years

When she discovers Hawkmoth’s identity she shuts down for a day - the poor excuse for a father yet brilliant inspiration and even mentor she’s had for years was this cruel terrorist she’s been fighting since she was 13

When she confronts him in the final fight, both intend to go out in a blaze of glory: marinette has called on all other heroes while hawkmoth pulled out all the stops and akumatized himself, with mayura and lila willingly at his side

paris is levelled in this fight and millions die, and one by one, the heroes fall as well: alya, nino, kagami, luka, even chloe, all gone. the only heroes left are ladybug, chat noir and bunnyx. they’re on the verge of losing hope and running out of places to hide. 

even then, bunnyx soon meets the same fate as the other heroes and marinette manages not to lose the miraculous, but that moment is all that is needed for hawkmoth, mayura or lila to be able to grab her miraculous. now she’s defenceless, they don’t care about her anymore and go for chat noir

in her desperation, she uses alix’s miraculous and transforms in the hopes of getting to chat noir in time, and she does...barely

just as she arrives, she watches as adrien, untransformed, kicks volpina away and she loses the ring she was holding in her hand. but volpina is unaware of her presence and gets cocky, meaning marinette can grab the miraculous and transform into bunny noire (i’ll choose a better name soon), which she does

when lila realises, she tries to attack marinette, who in her desperation cataclysms the ground to get away, causing a massive earthquake that knocks adrien out and temporarily kos lila and though she doesn’t realise it, makes Hawmoth lose the earrings 

she takes the opportunity to cataclysm volpina’s necklace (she’s an AdUlT now, never ending cataclysm, yayyyyy)

when she confronts hawkmoth for the second time, alone and hysterical, she manages to beat him and steals the butterfly miraculous away from him, but there aren’t any earrings anywhere

when she asks him what he did to them, he says he lost them, and when she asks where, he refuses to tell her - one final victory: if he can’t have emilie back, ladybug can’t have paris back 

with most of paris dead or in hiding, she can’t put him in a prison. so, marinette, traumatised and beyond rage, just walks away from him. she walks away and sobs for her city and all the people she lost, and for her parents who are probably dead, and she cries because she can’t fix it

and when she’s finished crying, she walks around paris, stares at it burning and stares at the bodies that gabriel destroyed and an idea sparks in her mid

she goes to where each hero fell, every place burned into her mind, and she collects their miraculous, completely numb as she does so. she seals them all away in her baton and then takes off the ring

plagg is silent as he watches her put the ring back on, still transformed using the bunny miraculous, and he doesn’t flinch as he watches her make a burrow, or as she steps through it, he’s just silent, accepting, because he took one look at her face and knew what she planned to do 

for a while, she just sits in the burrow, not processing anything that happened, just planning. remembering all the stories that tikki told her and writing down dates and places that she has to visit

after an uncertain length of time she just stands up and walks around the dimension she’s in, examining all the times and places until she finds the one she needs and steps through it

when she steps through it, she’s greeted by a woman dressed in armour, which is decorated with a fabric that has a familiar pattern; however, that woman insists she can’t give up her miraculous even for a minute, so marinette has to return to her burrow

she tries this with every ladybug tikki told her about, but no matter what she tries, each time she is unable to borrow them to do a miraculous cure and with each failure her mental state just gets worse and worse as she gets more frantic

after another failure, she returns to her burrow with one final, desperate idea

she steps into modern day, just a few moments after she’d left the bakery for the last time before the fight and takes her past self by the hand - her past self who even though she looks solemn, still has so much hope in her eyes - and tells her that she needs to borrow the miraculous

and thanfully, marinette knows herself pretty well, knows that she cam fix things if she just has the right tools, but this past marinette jumps to the wrong conclusion - thinks that she’s lost the battle, and marinette doesn’t know how to reassure her without breaking the future, so she just says “believe me when i say this is the final step, not the middle or the first.”

past marinette relinquishes the earrings and, warning her to stay exactly where she is, marinette steps into the burrow again and returns to a burning paris

she detransforms, feels the exhaustion overcome her and nearly faints from it, but she holds herself up as she pulls off the ring and puts in the earrings, tikki goes to talk but silences herself once she sees what happened, and just lets her transform

marinette first searches for gabriel, and upon finding him, calls a lucky charm - handcuffs. 

once he is restrained and unable to escape, she calls the final lucky charm and watches with nothing inside her as the exact same watch she’s been using falls into her hands

“miraculous ladybug!”

and as the ladybugs swarm around paris, saving everyone, she falls to her knees and she lets everything out in an agonising scream that everyone wakes up to - raw and broken and heartwrenching to anyone who hears it, filled with all the pain and agony and depression and anxiety and anger that she’d been repressing since she was 13

and she sobs, curling up into herself and letting herself feel something for the first time in her life

and the citizens of paris just go home, no celebrations, no one congratulating their hero. they can hear her grief, and they respect her

the only people to come to her side are the people she fought with

kagami and chloe go to turn gabriel in before hunting for lila and mayura - they’re pretty sure it’s nathalie

only adrien, alya, nino, luka and alix are left at her side 

they have no idea what she’s been through, how long it feels like it’s been for her since they were last alive 

and even though she;s exhausted and hysterical, marinette takes out the earrings and hands them to alix with her watch and tells her when and where to return them to

alya and nino nearly break down at the reveal that marinette is ladybug - they can’t bear to see their best friend in such a state

and as soon as alix leaves, marinette passes out

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someone decided to have a conversation with the roleplayer and i don’t know whether to laugh or cry

I've seen people talk about the Lila commenter so many times that I feel like it's a rite of passage to have them comment on your stories by now

I saw this and I just started laughing

Honestly though who has the effort to do that on every story related to Lila because man I wish I could be that dedicated to doing anything useful with my life

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Oooh that's so good what the heck

If you continue this can you tag me please?

Silencing Pressure

The class of Caline Bustier went from being envied to being shunned in a matter of weeks. The return of Lila Rossi after the traumatizing events of Heroes’ Day was carefully planned by the sinister teen. Everyone was still in shock over what had gone down and how powerful Hawkmoth had become, leaving all but the most strong-willed shaken and feeling vulnerable. Vulnerability was the perfect fuel for manipulation, especially amongst the minds of teenagers. Better targets than the class of Caline Bustier were scarce at best, and Lila knew better than to let the opportunity slip by. So, the apex predator pounced.

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