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violent romantic, depressed optimist, leader with no ambitions for leadership steve rogers really can do it all

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Tales of Suspense (1959) #92

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For way, way too long after he's thawed, Steve uses the quip "put me back" at every minor inconvenience he experiences.

His toast burns in the morning? Put me back. His pencil breaks when he's sketching and marks the page up? Put me back. He hits his hip on the corner of a table? Put me back.

Back where? Anyone around him asks.

Back on ice, is Steve's answer.

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Some day, I’ll write a super post on the relationship between Tony Stark and Steve Rogers (as a writer, I find both characters fascinating), but I urge you to rewatch the scene from Avengers (2012) on the Quinjet after they’re in Stuttgart. It seems like Tony and Steve are verbally sparring (friendly) even though Steve is pissed and Tony is distrustful. Both are understandable - Steve just fought a whole World War over the Tesseract and now he’s being dragged back into another war over it. Anyone would be pissed in that position - and Tony is dealing with the fact that his Dad's (according to Howard) best buddy from the War is alive again.

But in the Quinjet, Tony calls Steve ‘Capsicle’ and Steve’s demeanor changes very subtly. Steve grits his teeth, making his jaw bulge and his look changes ever so slightly to a glare. Steve is now verbally sparring with Tony (derogatory) while Tony is still being friendly, unaware that anything has shifted.

It’s at least implied that Steve was aware both of freezing and of defrosting because he can hear people talking as it was happening. This would hurt to an unbearable degree, on top of which, he's paralyzed while many unknown people are touching him. He's completely vulnerable. So when Tony called him ‘Capsicle’, it would have triggered Steve’s PTSD. This was entirely accidental, and I don’t blame Tony for doing so, but I think going forward, Steve’s brain labeled Tony as Not Safe. To Tony, they’re still sparring, having a good time, but to Steve, they’re no longer in friendly waters. Steve’s shields are now up around Tony and they never once come back down.

I think from the point of Tony calling him Capsicle, they’re were always headed to a falling out like they did in Civil War without some kind of escape hatch where both of them talk about their feelings. Their exchange of "he's my friend"/"so was I" is really a call-back to that moment on the Quinjet because to Tony they were friends, while Steve doesn't trust Tony whatsoever. He doesn't call Tony for help (CATWS), he doesn't call Tony to help (IM3), and he doesn't trust Tony not of screw things up (AoU).

Keep in mind, the following:

As progressive as Steve is for someone from his time (an ally to any and all minority groups, repeatedly sticking his neck out to help other communities), he comes from an era where talking about mental health, even the slightest hint of PTSD, can get you locked up in an asylum, which could be a death sentence back then. People did not discuss mental health back then ever. It’s the kind of mentality that takes time to walk back from, and Avengers takes place six weeks after Steve woke up.

There is no canonical evidence that Steve and Howard were anything but acquaintances. We see Steve meet Howard twice and never again. Steve doesn't mention Howard to Bucky or the other Howlies or Peggy. However, it is within character for Howard to tell people that Steve Rogers was his bestest friend in the whole world during the war when that wasn't at all true because Howard Stark was an ahole.

Even if they were friends, Howard's abuse of Tony should be on Howard, not on Steve. Steve was technically dead during all of those years and had no control over what people were saying about him. Is Tony incorrect for partially blaming Steve for Howard's abuse, yes. Is it understandable for Tony to blame a dead man, also yes.

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“no job is worth your physical & mental health” i hauve. Bills.

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payneland + hands

this one's for you @stark-lord

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dead boy detectives (9/??) + Text Posts

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the holy trinity: the father (fuck it we ball) the son (it is what it is) the holy spirit (to be cringe is to be free)

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yapper in chief 📣

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*pats aaron dingles head* you can fit so much denial and repression into this bad boy

anyways here’s a fic about it

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hey buddies when you heard the mention of meth lab jim did y’all ever ask what if meth lab jim was jim street from swat undercover? no? well i did ! and here’s how i answered !

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i could not make this up

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pov one of you is a future veterinarian

based on (x).

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This goes for both of them. Danlou is so beautiful and special.

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part 9

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Liam: I really like this whole ‘good guy, bad guy’ thing you guys have going on.

Stiles: It’s not an act, it’s just that I’m mean and Scott isn’t