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Walk to Remember

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Opening the doors to a new world!

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Yard Sale Pizza

My pizza restaurant.

“The best pizza restaurant on Earth, and I made it up for people I care for.”

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New home!

Voice: “Go to Nuffield Health in Sheffield!”

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The Sun Inn pub

The pub was always a place my family visited often.

The point of the pub was to meet singles for dates but actually it became family friendly because of family’s moving to the area.

We love the pub and it’s decor.

The cider I drink tastes great, the music and vibe is nice and the Tyrell’s crisps they sell are very tasty.

Where I chatted with my dad many times.

I had a beer first date with Greg. (Who dumped me shortly afterwards).

And Alex scrubbed up in the male toilets to get ready to shake hands with my dad.

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I love depression.

Sitting in pain gives me healing powers.

I cry, I smile, I laugh.

This cry of pain makes me feel better about life.

It describes my life.

I was traumatised in the past, seeing my mum dead and my dad with a weapon in there is mentally scarring.

Everyday I sit with my negative thoughts and wonder what the point of life is.

You may say, what exactly is there to be depressed about. But actually there is so much.

Please don’t say I can’t be depressed when I am.

I was that abused and traumatised that I made up two parents to escape the pain of life.

If you want to know why they were made up and who I based their personality and looks on, you can ask them and they will explain.

You don’t need to cry if your really depressed.

The point is that sometimes depression makes you feel like what’s the point?

Why cry, why have the emotions you know?

Why cry? It is strong but sometimes people just give up.

That’s the real depression.

My imaginary dad cried watching it. That’s the dad I knew in life not you. Sorry you were so desperate for a hug because you never had visitors in your room in the mental institute. I love you but I don’t remember you sorry.

I stood in front of my real dad and he asked me for a hug.

I cried looking at his open arms. I felt like saying “sorry I don’t know who you are. I’m told your the nastiest man around town and your standing in front of me asking for a hug. Do I hug you or run? I’m so scared. Your love is there but I know your not the dad I had later in life. I’m sorry, are you a nice person? I’ve forgotten so much. Who are you?”.

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South Side Shopping Centre

Wow what to say. My friend Izzie went with me many times.

Up to the car park with her Meercat Mondays cinema vouchers.

Then there was the night Aida and Morenike headed there for a birthday party.

So what shops are there?

To think it’s really a mental institute is mind boggling.

Ed’s Diner

A fun retro burger bar and restaurant was upstairs with an escalator reaching its level. A mentally deranged ward in reality.

Subway

A sandwich shop, on ground level, with tasty sandwich’s. A mentally ill canteen in reality.

Krispy Kreme

A doughnut shop where I bought a doughnut with my dad. A newspaper stand. I ate a news paper instead.

Cineworld

The intersection of the mentally ill patients, which was actually a cinema.

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Here’s my dad promoting his fundraisers for mentally ill teenagers from Lavender Walk, an adolescent mental institute in London.

There he is doing his swimming lengths in a local pool.

Lavender Walk actually turned out to be another prison not an adolescent mental institute.

My dad was very lonely at work, as a teacher for the adolescents there (so they could keep up with their studies when away from school) so I’m very sad for him.

He would regularly message me at college but I never picked up he was lonely. I believed it was just checking on how I was doing. I’m utterly sorry for not replying and picking up his calls.

So the question is, who wrote this fundraiser post?

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(Source: Royal China Group)

Let’s talk about the hidden secret, Royal China restaurants!

Yet another Chinese restaurant, you may say. Yes!

So as you can see, it is a super classy restaurant.

I went there so many times as a child and even sat round one of the big tables with friends.

We had duck with pancakes and hoisin sauce…

You place the duck meat, in the pancake, place celery sticks and put the sauce on top.

Next you roll the pancake up, and then eat! You get to make it yourself :)

Fukian fried rice was my favourite dish.

Rice with tiny meat and veg.

What’s also important is I also tried jellyfish! Then had a bad stomach for two weeks!

(Source: Google)

My childhood relic!

In good ol’ Putney :)

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Source: Takashimaya, Tokyo.

Not a made up place!!!

Let’s talk about Japan!

Well what can we say about this place above? It’s Takashimaya, in Tokyo, Japan :) (a famous department store)

Let’s ask my inner souls for more info.

Take it away 4 year old Hannie!

“Well hi, I’m 40.. no sorry 4 years old and I’d like to say Takashimya was the best store in the whole wide world because it housed so many things and I loved it so much, that I was running around trying to find so many things because for a long time, I had been stripped of my belongings, so Japan was so special to me.

And you might think? How is this possible? How was I able to do so much at such a young age? Well I have to tell you, it’s possible.

Believe me, it’s possible.

Thank you, 30 year old Hannie.

Over and out!”

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Time to talk about life.

For most of my life, I have been in and out of hospitals for many reasons.

Looking back into my past, one of my first serious ones was, Hammersmith Hospital.

Ever since then, I have found, on the job site Indeed, that there has always been, a job opening, for their small gift shop.

However it now looks like I made the whole hospital up.

In fact the hospital is a prison!!? Wow.

Let’s take a look!

Wow.

So many traumatic thoughts about it. Stuff buried deep.

Just written to say, this is yet another place I made up.

The adjacent hospital Queen Charlotte’s maternity ward seems to have had only two patients!

I was pregnant with my child, in childhood, and I went there to birth it.

Let’s see the birthing baths for pregnancy!

Aah… Scary!

A serious thought to mention is that my family always made the point that I was born in that hospital Queen Charlotte’s but I’m believing this is not the case. My own child was born there, and it was troublesome, to say the least!

(Source: NHS)

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Camille’s Thai restaurant.

The speciality of this restaurant situated in White Hart Lane is the chocolate pie.

So why is this place important?

It’s important in so many respects because it has become a hang out for my dads friends but it has also been a hangout spot for tourists in Barnes because they want a cheap but affordable lunch.

Why is it different to Awesome Thai in Barnes?

That’s because the restaurant is supposed to be a gateway to Nivana because it is a Buddhist restaurant in as much as the name actually means ‘Religion’ in the Buddhist sense.

There’s a small circle at the back of the restaurant which is used for destroying energy that has been corrupted.

It’s an important restaurant for me as I like Thai food.

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The white hart pub.

The point of the white hart pub was to get locals talking and mingling with people from different societies, but it looks like lots of bankers or business professionals frequented there more than once because it looks like my good friend went to make friends and created so many business contacts it created a hub for these types.

However I went many times with my dad or by myself and found it to be seemingly empty.

It’s not the coziest of pubs and it’s not my favourite pub but it’s still important to mark White Hart Lane.

The special drink there is rekordalig cider because they actually put a lime in the glass and the Bloody Mary drink has a salt rim with added spice and seasoning.

You think what’s special about that when you can get it from the Sun Inn but no you can’t because they have serious spice in White Hart pub.

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The Tree House restaurant and pub.

The treehouse is an important part of White Hart Lane because originally the restaurant was called Annie’s because a woman that worked there was called Annie.

She looked like my friend Isabelle, so I went around town saying, “Isabelle works at Annie’s” which confused everyone else because they believed that the real Isabelle had a job at the restaurant that nobody knew about.

So the TreeHouse is important to me because of Isabelle.

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Here is the famous Riva grocery store.

Originally this was supposed to be an alcohol shop but then changed to a grocery store because I wanted more custom from Barnes.

That’s why you can see a wine bottle in the logo.

But the best thing about it is the parcel desk at the back that does Hermes courier deliveries.

You can print off shipping labels for your internet stores like Depop and EBay.

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Alex’s bottles.

Can’t find the image but there is a beautiful shop in White Hart Lane, called Forbidden Planet shop which houses antiques and collectibles.

The antiques are actually from Alex’s broom cupboard at the bottom of his stairs in the ‘Attic of Creation’ which is another name for the shop.

The shop is nameless because I just wanted a shop to showcase Alex’s collection of glass bottles.

So there you have it, a beautiful shop with an array of collectibles in the window.

The shop is single window glazed because I wanted it to resemble the glass like quality of the bottles and decanters.

Continental enameled blue glass decanter & stopper (19th century), Jeweled purple Czech perfume bottle, Pink Czech Art Deco perfume bottle, Jeweled cranberry Czech perfume bottle

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China Chef is a Chinese restaurant I wanted to create because I wasn’t getting a diversity of Chinese cuisine. Lots of people in my neighbourhood were hearing about Chinese cuisine because my parents spoke so highly of Royal China but really the question was, did Royal China ever exist because so many people tried to find it because my parents recommendation but no one could. So China chef was supposed to bring Chinese food to the masses.