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the fact that languages change over time is so funny to me. we have thousands of language that work perfectly well, but no that's not good enough, we need to keep fiddling with them. no not making them better, just making them different. why? well, humans enjoy making up words and phrases. for fun. enrichment activity

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MEN!

you have to wear this and nothing else

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Late season 4 truly sees Garak and Quark matching each others’ freak in the weirdest way possible. In “For the Cause,” there’s the scene in Garak’s shop where Kira threatens him away from Ziyal, and then Garak tells Quark that he’s less worried now about Ziyal potentially trying to kill him because if she were, Kira wouldn’t be trying to warn him away. And then Quark, without missing a beat, just says, “Unless that’s part of the plan” and then tries to convince Garak that Kira’s trying to reverse-psychology him. And Garak gets SO legitimately worried despite how insane the whole logical path is. (Hilariously, he was right to be wary of Ziyal, but it was a huge leap to assume that Kira knew that she was contemplating potentially killing Garak.)

And then “Body Parts” has that whole sequence where Garak tries out numerous methods of killing Quark in a holosuite and Quark takes the entire thing so seriously and gets extremely intimidated by Garak by the end of it. And he never once considers the possibility that, given that maintaining his position on the station is very important to Garak and that Sisko very much disapproves of even consensual murder on the station (as seen with the situation with Worf and Kurn), perhaps Garak is simply fucking with him. They just seem to get a weird kick out of taking turns trolling each other by amping up the other’s paranoia.

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(I thought this was funny)

Happy Easter!

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WHEN ON PERIOD:

do not crash out

your feelings are NOT valid

do not send that text

don't kill yourself. lock in

do not act on negative emotions until at least 2 days have elapsed

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I understand that museums have to be dark because light can destroy fragile artifacts. That said, I’m always afraid to walk around the blind corners because what if there is a skeleton

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Lighter than a butterfly...

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You guys will not believe who came through my shop

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Many new parents are delighted to discover that if left to their own devices for long enough, their children will just go ahead and raise themselves. Later on, the same parents are shocked and dismayed to find that their children didn't raise themselves to obey and respect their parents.

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This is it, the best news story (from BBC news):

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they should invent a grief that doesn’t define you in new and strange ways for the rest of your life

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sometimes when I’m being especially self deprecating and convinced no one likes me I have to tell myself “you’re being goob. you are being goob right now”

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Being a ranger I spend a lot of time alone in the wilderness for hours in the company of one of four co workers.

One such worker for the purpose of this post we shall refer to as Dave.

Dave is a very quiet man. He confesses that if conversation happens too quickly and for too long he gets tired so we often work in silence. He's very polite and good natured but it's obvious that he would happily live and work alone for the rest of his life given the option.

He's very much in the previous generation of ranger, a practical man in his fourties or fifties happy to be kept physically busy for a day and then be sent home with some pay. I had to show him how to use a work issued smart phone.

Meanwhile the rest of the team is made up of the current generation of rangers; openly nurodivergent queer women in their twenties or thirties who work this job because it's the only setting where we can vaguely look sane.

So Dave sticks out a bit. It's really nice when he opens up though because he's an impulsive individual when left to his own devices and has plenty of stories to tell if the mood takes him. I really like working with Dave.

Anyway, one day we've got a job that takes a three hour hike to get to and early on the topic of deer comes up.

I hadn't realised this was the first time we had discussed deer, but blatantly it was. Dave's entire demeanour changes, there's a bit of passion in his voice, but it's also hushed as if he's talking about something sacred.

"Deer are my favourite animal." He says.

I'm also eager to hear Dave talk about himself, so I encourage him to say more.

"I'd love to be a deer myself."

And more

"If a genie offered me the opportunity to become a deer I'd take it. I wouldn't even stop to ask what the price was."

And more

"Sometimes I feel like I'm a deer having a dream about being a human.*

And there I am, a long time commuter to the therian/otherkin community keeping up the encouraging face of someone being politely interested, knowing that this man is straight up a therian with no frame of reference.

And I decided that I wouldn't push the subject outside of the bounds of what Dave is comfortable with, I wouldn't try to teach him the terms "Therian" or "Otherkin" but absolutely I would talk with this man as if he's a deer.

And it's a bit magical really. He's an impulsive individual so I have to talk him out of some risky choices every so often and "this is why deer like you keep getting stuck in fences" has become this magical phrase that allows him to step down from a mistake with a bit of a smile on his face.

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