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Reblog if its ok to spam you with boops

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Just because we aren't seeing more posts about Palestine, doesn't mean the genocide has stopped. Let's keep Praying and speaking up for Gaza, Palestine.

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Yearning for adventure

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i fucking hate travelling long distances on trains

this kind of exhaustion is truly unmatched

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if there is any type of god it certainly doesn't love us. if it did we surely wouldn't be made to suffer like rabid mutts feasting on rotted scraps from men we once considered our family

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looking back at what i wrote three years later, i should've accepted sooner that my adoptive parents were and are abusive.

and the fact that they were likely tipped off by my older sister about this post, my narc adoptive MOTHER told me to apologise to my narc lunatic adopted FATHER (who this rant was about) instead of him confronting me himself (because he really is a goddamn coward), forced me to delete it, and then made me feel guilty for venting online in an essentially anonymous manner (no names mentioned in the og post jfc), and the fact that i ended up APOLOGISING for posting the OG rant out of fear of what they would do to me--

god, with all the shit happening in my life atm.. i wish i would've had some way to leave earlier.

i don’t think you NTs understand this.

approaching us with an OBV angry tone and saying “YOU NEED TO– x, y, z” will NOT – I REPEAT – NOT encourage us to do x y z. 

ESPECIALLY IF

we have executive disfunction

we are experiencing changes out of our control

we are out of control in general of certain things relating to x y or z

WE WERE ALREADY PLANNING TO DO X Y Z

we are currently depressed or exhausted emotionally or physically

we already have anxiety surrounding x y z

we physically cannot move bc we are (period tw) BLEEDING and in IMMENSE PAIN

AND THEN YOU GO AND GET SARCASTIC ON ME WHEN I RESPOND WITH FRUSTRATION AND BLUNT HONESTY BECAUSE OF YOUR INITIAL APPROACH

DONT FCKING TELL ME “DONT GO O.D.D. ON ME” 

DONT EVER FCKING USE A FCKING MENTAL DISORDER AGAINST ME

AND THEN USE YOUR AUTHORITY CARD TO CALL ME DISRESPECTFUL

AND THEN TELL ME YOU LOVE ME???

DO NOT TREAT ME LIKE THIS

for chrissake. if you can’t learn to teach or encourage without taking your own frustrations or pain out on me, don’t fcking say sh!t.

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take figures out of their boxes btw. sew patches on your favorite jacket. go to bed with your favorite plushes. wear the pants you usually save for special occasions. draw something cool on your wall. put a sticker on your laptop. dye your hair and pierce your lips. glass is meant to break, metal is meant to rust. items are meant to be used. that's how the world knows that somebody loved them.

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christian evangelism on tumblr today really feels like spam.

"get this post to 1k notes for our lord and saviour jesus christ"

and then you find blogs reblogging that same post 100+ times, making their blog completely unreadable.

meanwhile, you might get whiplash from seemingly harmless fandom reblogs mixed with posts sharing the love and grace they proclaim that come in the form of far-right, anti-healthcare, anti-human rights, support of genocide, narcissism, and a whole slew of blind faith and a lack of critical thinking.

some of you should rename your blogs "christian spam-hole, with a side of fascism and salted delulu."

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cats in grass, gouache

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It's wild that you don't necessarily need to even be abused to have childhood trauma. Like just having an excessively negative, spiteful, toxic and mean-spirited parent is enough, even if they never do it at you, or on purpose. Imagine being a doctor and explaining that to a parent.

"Hey you know how you don't have any friends because people find you unpleasant to be around? Well it turns out that your child is also a person, and finds you unpleasant to be around. Growing up in an environment where they are constantly subjected to your opinions technically counts as torture, since the situation was both continuously distressing and inescapable. You are literally so annoying that you gave your child brain damage."

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CORRUPTED HEART

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Happy Winter Solstice! 🌙✨

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355🐇12.21.23 bizzle , my friend hollis' grandma's bunny

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You are not hard to love 🌷

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sometimes I wonder how we all survive and then I look at my best friends and I go “oh, I survive because I don’t want to leave you yet” and it makes sense. life is so hard a lot of the time, but I want one more bowl of pasta with you.

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writing a garbage essay feels like you’re the cow who gave birth to the two headed calf. in the morning, my professor will wrap him in newspaper and dissect him on a cold operating table. but here he is alive, under the pale glow of my computer screen. he is beautiful. there are twice as many logical fallacies as usual.