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Veggie garden, medi-cal paperwork, drop off resume at CVS, call Sally's

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"I'm getting better"

"That's jobless living with your parents"

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I'm no longer recoiled but I still feel poisonous

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"If you carry that, you'll die tired."

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Growing up, I was enamored by the beauty of the world but didn't want to be a part of it. I felt that if there was a God, he was vindictive and apathetic.

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Kiwi star refresher coconut milk

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Goals:

Glycolic acid

New cleanser

100% squalene

Rice and rosemary

Rollerskates

Get the Drawing pad/pen

Paint somewhere beautiful

Medical application, possibly dental, and apply for disability

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As I stood in the stall with you getting a cap to pour water in, I remember having an overwhelming feeling of significance wash over me. I feel like I lost you today because I'm pretty sure I did, but even if I never see you again, the only thing I carry for you is love

and regret that I didn't love you better.

I wish you every peace in this life and the next

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From fear to sadness, sadness to anger, anger to hate, and hate to resentment, I knew it was phases of pain, but I thought I was the perpetrator of emotions- not the victim. Can you even claim to be the victim when you're blood drunk? It was the illusion of control that I was enamored by. How long it took me to realize that it's impossible to heal from something you don't acknowledge. I want discipline of passion and mind enough to not be a voyer to my own life.

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Worldline: when and where you are

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I want discipline of passion and regularity even if I don't know how to yet

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God left you here

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Ink

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My depression has taken me to places darker than my thoughts

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gab kpin f &h~perfect set

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Went outside to talk to your mom Fixing, and as soon as I said something,you said "oh that's erin" then after your mom responded,you tried saying nice things about me, and then as soon as you had the chance, left to go talk shit about me in private.

Fixing curtains, accidentally dumped a few things over. You said "how about we just leave it alone?" And when I said well I fixed the curtains, you didn't say anything

Then when you said you wanted to go to the gas station, You were planning on us getting food.. When I said I wasn't hungry and asked why you wanted me to get picked up at the grocery store, you said "well why did I just waste my time planning everything then"

And then when I said idk if WE should go downstairs, you said "YOU shouldn't go downstairs" with exaggeration on the 'you'

Then when outside, you were ashing on your face and in your drink and when I tried telling you, you ignored me and said it's fine.

When you said you were out of drops and I said that you just need a refill and to change your pillow case, you said you had no refills and that's when I said "that's why WE need to set up a telehealth appointment" and you said "I know, that's the point" in a super passive aggressive way.

Remember these things, this behavior.