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Tell a friend to tell a friend- She's BAAAAAAAAACK

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IT'S HAPPENING!????

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Why, oh why, did I turn to Sherlock, "that-show-with-those-gays-that-I-see-edits-of-every-few-months", hoping it'd cure my Aziracrow divorce depression?

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I AM SHERLOCKED????

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"my hobbies include threatening suicide"

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I think it's really interesting that when Crowley tells Aziraphale he doesn't have a side anymore, Crowley looks genuinely sad. Like, crushed. Look:

I think this is for several reasons, and I want to talk about it.

Aziraphale's cracked perceptions.

Aziraphale saw heaven as "the good guys" for a very long time. He still does, justifying any actions committed by angels that go against how the Bible teaches us to live sinless lives as a part of "The Great Plan". However, after some time, Aziraphale begins to lose faith in these mindless excuses for violence and hatred. A really good example of this is when he says he's on "God's, of course!" side, and then he can't form a response to Crowley's following comment about killing innocent children. Aziraphale was created to follow God's command, but he was also created to be morally "good", and the former has begun to contradict the latter, unravelling his view of himself as a devoted servant and turning him into what he believes is a failure, because he can't choose God over "good". Being groomed (for lack of a better word) to see the world very simply, he immediately assumes this means he must be a demon, and that he is the problem. Crowley breaks this down into almost invisible crumbles speckled like dust over Aziraphale, even to the point of "shades of grey", but Aziraphale, as we see in episode six, can't brush off such strongly imposed beliefs. They're branded into him. To put it shortly, Aziraphale's view of himself and "good" has changed dramatically over the years. His grip on devotion to God is slipping- he doesn't realize this until this scene.

And it arises a question: who am I, if not a servant? Who am I for, if not God?

Crowley, to decode the dialogue, basically says, "me. We're for each other." He's trying to comfort Aziraphale, because the fact that Aziraphale is too good for Heaven devastates him. Aziraphale's realizing the toxicity of a system that ultimately does not care for him, no longer values "good" -and perhaps never did- and now grapples with the possibility of an alternate purpose of existence.

Crowley's reaction is a moment of beautiful acting. He's watching someone he loves suffer. Aziraphale's trying desperately to understand Heaven, the world, life itself. Everything he thought he knew is really coming unscrewed. And he looks defeated. And hurt. This hurts Crowley.

The biggest reason I think Crowley looks sad is that he's been in Aziraphale position before. Questioning things, realizing he's been fed a simplified worldview. And he understands exactly how Aziraphale feels, and that there's no way out except Hell, which is simply no better. He also knows that unlike himself, who can't bring himself to leave Azi, Aziraphale's still too selfless to agree to run away into the starts while Earth is destroyed. He knows he's utterly helpless this time and I don't think that's something he's used to. He's going to have to watch Aziraphale's perceptions crack, and fall, and shatter.

He can't shield him with his wing this time.

Crowley's also realizing that he's fallen in love with Azi's innocence. He loves the delusional optimism and hope Aziraphale has, no matter how much he pretends otherwise. Crowley remembers when he was that innocent, and he remembers that he was happy. He had to find happiness all over again after her fell, and he only found it with Aziraphale. But for such a strong believer who's less willing to question things, coming to his senses will be far, far harder for Aziraphale. Finding happiness will be harder, and happiness is all Crowley wants for Aziraphale.

Over the millennia, he slowly tugs the angel into the shade of grey, trying to protect him from getting hurt by drip-feeding him the truth of Heaven. It won't, and can't work.

Aziraphale will be hurt by reality, and that is why Crowley is devasted, apologetic, and gentle in this scene. He only wants to protect his love.

This is the face of a powerless demon who sees worth and good in someone who's blindfolded by their own trauma. Even as the blindfold slips, that person doesn't want to open their eyes. It's a terrible sight for such a wonderful thing to see.

The person must look eventually. Crowley knows what will happen when they do.

Crowley stopped looking a long time ago, however, and he's encouraging Azi to do the same, because he found something more worthy of setting his gaze upon.

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it hurts so much

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Look, I'm not saying that Crowley kissed Aziraphale with tongue. But I wouldn't put it past David and Michael.

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Michael Sheen’s and David Tennant’s acting in the last few minutes of 2x06….

They showed more emotion than I have ever felt in my entire life…

For real: Michael & David invented emotions I didn’t know existed before

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i want to rip out my organs

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This my interpretation of Crowley's "no nightingales".

"A nightingale sang" was used at the end of season 1 as a way of showing that all was good, gentle, and romantic.

The song "A nightingale sang in Berkely Square" itself describes a series of romantic scenes, ending each one with "a nightingale sang". This translates to, in terms of Aziraphale and Crowley, their moments together undisturbed. The nightingale singing is the brief happiness they can enjoy in each other's unperturbed company. It's an in-the-moment happy ending that Aziraphale isn't ready to take further yet by agreeing to "go off together" with Crowley because it's "too fast" for him.

But this time, there's "no nightingales". This is Crowley's way of saying "this isn't good or romantic. Look at us. Our relationship is falling apart. This isn't a happy ending.". Every time they argue, they make up with an apology dance that has replaced any form of real, healthy communication. Every time, Crowley comes back or Aziraphale admits he was wrong, and they continue as normal.

This cycle makes it impossible for the relationship to progress romantically- the emotional depth isn't deepening.

This time, Crowley's tired. He's just confessed his love and Aziraphale only repeats his brainwashed desires to return to his toxic manipulator. Crowley is trying to tell Aziraphale, down to the very last moment beside his car, waiting, that this is the final time. There's "no nightingales" because their relationship doesn't rely on their mutual romantic love anymore. It's not enough- they both have to start working to preserve their relationship and communicate better. The "nightingale" is a metaphor for the underlying foundations of trust, co-dependency, intrigue, shared opinions, and playfulness in their relationship. But that's all temporarily gone, now.

Think of it like vacuum cleaners before dyson. The more you use them, the less efficient they become. Crowley and Aziraphale can only ignore the problems in their relationship for so long, polishing over broken floorboards, before it needs to be refurbished entirely. That underlying love is fading because they aren't nurturing it. It's wasting away as they use it to replace communication, understanding, and reassurance.

The nightingale is silent because it's them who need to find a solution this time. They can't go on like this forever- for once they must work it out. They can't (apology) dance forever- Crowley's stepping off the dancefloor and extending a hand to Aziraphale. He's saying, "Do you realize we're in crisis? Do you feel like love alone can save us this time?"

And Aziraphale doesn't hear anything, because its him who's the nightingale, and Crowley's asking him to sing.

The relationship is in Aziraphale's hands, and he's forgotten the lyrics.

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French the language of love the only language aziraphale is not fluent in

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I feel like Aziraphale is often portrayed as not reciprocating Crowley's love or rejecting Crowley, but people are too hard on him. Unlike Crowley, it took him a long time to come to the realization that "shades of grey" exist. Crowley was brutally forced to confront the truth of heaven's toxicity when he sauntered vaguely downwards, which is one of the reasons he puts up a very nonchalant, "cool" front- he was in a lot of pain, and now he's grown thicker skin as a self-defence mechanism. Aziraphale is still in the process of coming to terms with the truth. He's been in heaven's toxic system for much longer than Crowley, and in an abusive relationship longer than his relationship with Crowley; it will take him longer to reject his impulses to do what's "good" and "right" even to a self-destructive level of selflessness. He loves Crowley, but he feels like he has no choice but to push him away. It's why he says "you go too fast for me". Crowley's ahead of him, and trying to pull him into that shade of grey just light/dark enough for them both. Aziraphale is wary of this because he's been groomed into a black-and-white view of the world. People don't appreciate moments like "to shades of grey" and "I need you". Even when Crowley offers for Aziraphale to stay at his place, we see his softness. "I don't think my side would like that very much." He considers himself as part of a whole, a "hive mind" who all think the same and hold the same morals, and he does what that hive wants. But he speaks that line very softly, and his eyes are full of gratitude, and he's at least acknowledging Crowley's offer. He isn't rejecting it, his trauma is. He and Crowley both know he wants to accept.

If you look and listen hard enough, you'll realize that he's slowly opening up to shades of grey. He's making huge developments as a character, and just because they're marginal to us, and frustratingly slow for Crowley, doesn't mean that they aren't a whole lot more impactful to their relationship than mindless snogging.

He even gives Crowley holy water, not knowing its intended use, and knowing it will end the existence of a demon, which goes against all "good" morals. He quite literally gives Crowley a weapon just to stop him from stealing it. He protects Crowley and defies heaven. Moments like those are so significant, and so underappreciated.

Crikey I'm writing a lot today. Neil I hope I got this right.

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Aziracrow kiss scene analysis

Okay, so we've all seen it.

But what does it mean? Today I'm going to talk about Aziraphale and Crowley's kiss.

Viewpoints

Firstly, there are numerous ways to view this scene, including assault, romance, desperation, and an attempt at communication. I won't be talking about all of these, but I do want to delve deeper into the body language of Aziraphale and Crowley.

It's not "cute".

Firstly, this kiss wasn't romantic, gentle, or tender. Crowley grabs Aziraphale by the collar and basically smashes his lips onto Aziraphale's. It's quite an aggressive kiss, throwing them both off-balance. They sway a little, both of them very still, and neither of them pull away or deepen the kiss. It's obvious neither of them know how to kiss, and I think this makes it unpleasant for them both. We see Crowley holding Aziraphale for quite some time but nothing happens. He doesn't pull away to see if Aziraphale is okay, or use body language to make Aziraphale feel more comfortable. He's got no idea what the purpose of the kiss is, but its the last thing he can do. The kiss wasn't romantic, it was a culmination of the prior 6000 years.

Aziraphale's reaction

Secondly, Aziraphale is very clearly in shock. He gradually closes his eyes and places his hands on Crowley's back. It seems to me that this is him trying to "kiss back", except he obviously doesn't know how, and he's confused and angry at the same time. He looks distressed, which could be because of the situation, but also because he's trying to decide what to do. He doesn't want to hurt Crowley by shoving him away in disgust, or kiss him passionately back. They're both in new waters.

It's important to note that Crowley seems to release Aziraphale and not the other way round. He's the instigator of the kiss. Aziraphale is breathing heavily afterwards, on the verge of tears, and this signals to the audience that he's panicking slightly. I think this is because it couldn't be more clear now that he and Crowley are in love. There's no room for ambiguity or questioning- Crowley's defined his feelings (and their relationship) now, and through a human action.

Although they were both aware of their love, they were also both comfortable in their relationship, and perfectly happy going on dates, sharing property, calling each other pet names, and hearing others refer to them as a couple (at least, they don't deny it most of the time). To summarise, the kiss wasn't needed. Defining their relationship by human means was unneeded. Aziraphale is upset and disgusted because the action is so unnecessary, so unlike them. Crowley's trying to fit them into a mould as a desperate attempt of preserving the relationship. Crowley's confession might have been a way of indirectly asking for reassurance, or making their pre-existing relationship more physically intimate, but its's not a get-down-on-one-knee "will you go to nandos with me" imogen-from-heartstopper. His confession also clearly doesn't change anything, because Aziraphale doesn't recoil in shock, or even react much. He knows Crowley loves him, but he doesn't communicate that. So Crowley, thinking Aziraphale has misunderstood him, tries again.

Why kiss?

I think it's crucial that we understand that the kiss isn't a confirmation of their love. Crowley has already stated that they could've been "us", and that "he would like to spend" his existence with Aziraphale. The kiss is a reinforcement of what's already been said, and Crowley instigates it because he's trying to communicate with Aziraphale through human behaviours to bridge their contrasting perspectives.

This fails.

Crowley and Aziraphale already know they love one another. The kiss was a "stay with me, I love you" from Crowley, and an "I know, it's more complicated than that" from Aziraphale in response, but neither of them see it that way. Crowley was trying to make it clear how he feels, when that wasn't the problem. Nothing was unaddressed after Crowley's speech, and the kiss was an unexpected and confusing event for them both. Crowley never planned this- their bad communication has just reached a point where he's desperately trying to make Aziraphale understand him using any tool he can.

My thoughts

I think the true function of this kiss is to highlight their dysfunctional relationship. They can't communicate, so they fill in that gap with apology dances, protecting one another, and human interactions like kissing. They're so far apart in perspective and worldview that the only way to communicate is through a common thing they are both familiar with, which is human behaviour.

The reason Aziraphale is so upset, from my interpretation, is that the kiss changes nothing. They're both talking at one another and not listening, not compromising or attempting to understand each other's views. Aziraphale and Crowley both talked the talk, and the kiss is just Crowley repeating his earlier words. Essentially, Crowley's still not listening. They still aren't communicating.

We view kissing as a romantic interaction between two people to show mutual affection. For Crowley, it's not that. It's a final, desperate resort. "This is how I feel, can't you understand? I'm going to make you understand in the only way I know how that I have left!" But Aziraphale does understand, and he agrees. He just wants them to be together under different circumstances because he's in a toxic relationship with heaven and he thinks he can change it for better.

Summary

-the kiss wasn't romantic, it was just passionate

-Aziraphale isn't disgusted, he's confused and devastated because they've failed to communicate again, and they can't reach an understanding

-The kiss doesn't change their relationship, it just defines it, and neither of them really wanted to define it. We see multiple people pressure them into a "relationship", from calling them an "item" to interrogating Crowley about their status (he's not anybody's "bit on the side"!), and this causes Crowley to want reassurance, especially after their relationship has weakened slightly due to the stress of recent events concerning heaven, hell, Gabriel and Beelzebub, and poor communication. He confesses due to not only insecurity, but others changing his viewpoint of his relationship.

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Thanks for reading my essay I have too much free time

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There is nothing more amusing to me than homophobes trying to pretend Neil made aziracrow gay in season 2. Like, where have you been for the last 6000 years? What have you been watching?

They've always been "gay". The kiss wasn't a change in or a development of anything. It wasn't even romantic in the slightest, it was a desperate attempt to convince Aziraphale to stay through a human demonstration of affection that Crowley hoped Aziraphale would understand because humans have specific ways of showing different types of love and attraction, whereas angels and demons don't. Aziraphale understands how humans show romantic and sexual attraction, so Crowley attempted to appeal to this knowledge and use it as a tool to explain how he defines their relationship.

But they aren't human, and relationships don't have to be physical, and they've always been ineffably in love. Nobody "made them gay". I find it so strange that people lack basic understanding of love and relationships outside of societal norms. Love is very specific to the people involved.

Also, the fact that neither of them are "gay" destroys the whole argument against making their relationship homosexual. They're angels, they existed before the concept of gender was even constructed. They don't have sexes, either, because they don't reproduce. They just appear as what we recognize as "male" on earth. So, not only are they themselves not gay, but they're also completely outside of human understandings of relationships and love. People trying to look at them through a human lens will ultimately fail to see anything except friendship and a "woke" kiss.

If you can't grasp the concept of love by itself, regardless of gender, sex, species, societal norms, and social cultures then not only can you fail to understand Good Omens, but you'll ultimately miss out on a lot of things in life. You'll melt into the crowd of people who define things as a "situationship" just because two people have a unique connection or feel no desire to label their love. You'll miss out on self-discovery and experiencing new things, opening yourself to meeting new people, and exploring your own identity. Such fixed mindsets only limit us and how we interact with others.

While labels can help us better understand things and feel more comfortable with our identities, people are also equally within their rights to reject them and simply get on with their lives. Aziraphel and Crowley are in love. They aren't gay or male or human.

If you go looking for a "woke" TV show with too many gays, you're going to find it. But Good omens is about love, and we as an audience enjoyed that love before it was made physically intimate. While some people wanted a kiss, others were fine with them as they were, and those differences in where we wanted the relationship to go represent the wonderfully diverse range of human perspectives on love, proving that we all view it slightly differently. If we open ourselves to relationships like Aziraphale and Crowley's and discussing them to try and understand (I feel we are beginning to understand them as characters and a couple as a fandom), we open ourselves to love.

That means friends, partners, soulmates, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives, family, pets, a love for the world around us, and more.

Love isn't "gay". Period.

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Most chill public enemy no1 award goes to...

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Nothing helps with the pain. Funny video complications, memes of aziracrow... it still hurts. The finale made me sick to my stomach and the feeling hasn't gone away. I don't know if it ever will. I genuinely feel like I've lost something so precious and personal not some ineffable idiots who probs wouldn't care because they have bigger problems like idk THE SECOND COMING.