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There's something I've got to tell you:

I feel the same way I did when I was born,

Facing the light and my face in my mothers eyes,

How it felt to breath for the very first time,

I feel that way tonight,

I really do,

That's all I had to say to you.

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Hearing these private hints is like having to squint,

A delicate balance between hearing and listening,

But once that sweet spot is found the result is profound,

So i ask: are you listening?

To the feeling not the sound!

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I WROTE THIS FOR MY FRIENDS:

I'm sorry for being so miserable guys

Some days i feel possessed

And other days i feel like I've been blessed by God

I really want to be good

I really want to do good

And I know none of this really matters

And I don't want sympathy

I just want to apologise

And I'm only saying this because I'm drunk

I love you

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Gold can keep you up at night

Unless you stand before white

Sometimes in the dark

Sometimes in the light

In the name of relief

Closing your eyes in ecstasy

You can return to eternity

Now that your being is free

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Oh my how i feel strange,

Like the world is a game I've forgotten how to play,

The difference is night and day,

Please do not meet my eyes I am too terrified,

I must escape the spotlight of being alive,

You see how crazy this is?

Peace seems far away,

Fading,

Fading like reality.

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I only know you by your reflection,

The one that bounces off a myriad of surfaces: the window, the screen and my mind,

Of which shows no imperfection,

Hence my distant admiration,

That you'll never know,

Apart from an occasional smile; one that conceals more than it reveals,

But for the sake of my heart, it will do

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I remember every impulse,

Every urge,

Every dream,

Every primal scream for you to leave,

Then I gave in,

I answered your persistent knock,

I followed your tantalising hiss,

I allowed you to take over,

Only to feel empty forgetting that I did.

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Eye contact doesn't mean much,

We may catch our eyes smiling at each other but really I'm meandering in a daze,

I'm not looking at you, I'm looking for you,

But the signs were blurred by wishful thinking,

I see someone, I've found no-one.

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I extend my hand, extending my finger towards you like that one painting

As I hide behind my insecurities, I shiver with fear

It's a cold feeling, a cold way of living

But maybe if you extend your hand, extending your finger towards me like that one painting, I could feel the warmth of life; the life that exists in the air I blow my wishes out with

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Well it's a new chapter

You feel the butterflies in your stomach, their eagerness

To Turn that page gently and wildly

How zealous we are to zoom our eyes to the ending

But instead we should fixate our attention on the word infront of us

Following it to the next word completing its sentence in marriage

The vows we made before turning this chapter must be upheld; no infidelity

The fruit of this marriage is that each paragraph is filled with twists and turns; the surprises and accidents of life

If you know a surprise , before the surprise, the magic is lost

Similarly if you foresee an accident would you not try with your rational to prevent it?

What good is that?

Your not immersed in the chapter

You betray the author; the mighty author

My friend it's one word at a time

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Watching films in my mind

Where actors say their lines

That didn't make the cut

Yet they still want a slice

Like a director needs directions to get into heaven

And the credits were begging for a happy ending

But It didn't come

So it was time to see the reverend

A surprise visit; very loud questions

Rhetorical faces changing the lens

X marks the spot unless you draw it in sand

That was a great shot let's do it again

It's time to wrap it up , tuna would be nice

Maybe with some vegetables carefully diced

I've got a collection of the ones that didn't make the cut

I thank our heavenly father for this slice

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Waking up to an earthquake

My heart rattling in its ribcage

Confusion "is this lucid?"

It's gone before it starts

Comes and goes like scenery

Life returns

My breath returns

I return

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Daily mania

It's no fun

When the moon wakes up

It's jesters follow

My mind their source of entertainment

I'd rather it wasn't

Physical discomfort

Spiritual unease

Fuck

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In a mind that's dying

My regrets and mistakes are colliding

It keeps me awake until I've decided

That's all I can take for today

I do not want to die but my choices say otherwise

Please cut out my eyes and donate them to the blind

Somewhere deep inside I know I know why

But frankly that's a why I don't want to find

I'm too tired to look

I'm yawning a lot

The warnings have stopped

The torment has not

When I was a baby sleeping peacefully in my cot

I'd listen to the melodies that accompanied my dreams

And I would smile about a million different things

Then a million got reduced to nothing

Now I rarely find something

Even when I do, all it does is sting

Reminding me of the very life that I'm wasting

The reminder is not needed, it's hard for me to forget

The only time I do is when I'm in my bed

And the whites of my eyes are dark inside my head

And I've finally caught my mind preparing itself for death

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What's a heart without a home?

What's a home without a heart?

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What's protection when infection peirces the veil of self deception?

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You cannot pry open a lillie no matter the strength

Nature will do her thing; take a seat on the bench

On our bench I shall rest; soon it will blossom and blossom again