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i've tasted this season far too many times in the short 22 years of my life. The almost empty, unwilling to try anything else, we have no other options lingering scent that i know is coming with every turn i take but can do nothing to change the ending. The struggling to smile, but im dying inside feeling. The knowing that we have something amazing but, not amazing enough to overcome life. At one point it was so amazing, but then you realize and compare yourself to others. The holding on so tight to those two hands, using all of my weight to prevent you from reaching 11 or between 11 and 12. That another day comes, closer to the end of what we used to be. I'd reach for your but they are busy packing all of your belongings and reaching for the door, So ill grab the faces hands, and hope that i can pull them back far enough to rewind to when we were perfect and freeze them there. I can live in those moments for ever and never have to lose you or what we had. But when i stop to realize, i have grabbed the hands that were in my mind, and am stuck replaying the memories alone.

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I've been alone so long... having someone around is... is a little overwhelming

riku :)

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my brother and I would end up at a Starbucks, sitting close to a homeless man, who is crazy, interviewing an old lady as if it were a talk show....

-_______________________________- zZzzzZ

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numb. its not you. its going to hit you hard soon. it is not you.

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you deserve better.