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Lawrence Oleander Mental Health Analysis/Headcanons

What is going on in this guy's head? He's quite the enigma but I think I have a few diagnoses that might help explain why he is the way he is. These mental disorders are comorbid, meaning they’re all linked together in some way.

Note: I am in no way qualified to actually diagnose anyone, but I have put a lot of research into this. If you disagree with anything that’s cool, these are just what makes the most sense for me.

This is a long one so everything will be under the cut.

Alexithymia: 

This is a secondary diagnosis, coming from autism in Lawrence’s case.  Having alexithymia means he has a hard time intuitively identifying his own emotions and the emotions of others. This is not to say he doesn’t Feel emotions, he does, and often quite intensely, but being able to figure them out enough to describe them or show them when it’s required socially is very difficult for him. It’s also quite difficult for him to self-regulate.

The more anxious or distraught he is, the harder it is for him to identify his feelings. He's pretty disconnected from his own needs and desires as well, so it’s unlikely he will know what he wants at any given moment. All of this is incredibly alienating for him and made worse when he’s pressured into trying to introspect or act accordingly to social cues. Trying to empathize with others is another thing he tends to struggle with due to this condition.

Lawrence doesn’t have a solid sense of self because it’s so hard for him to introspect. He finds it easier to live moment by moment and doesn’t really have aspirations for the future, other than wanting to get away from society as a whole.

Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD):

Multiple of his other conditions make him more prone to developing anxiety. This is an intense and pervasive fear, usually having to do with everyday situations. His fears are all centered around other people, or the living to be more specific. He learned as a kid that interacting with others is dangerous and often causes him to get hurt in the process. 

Social anxiety can be very debilitating. Often in social situations the biggest thing on his mind is this sense of panic and the intense desire to get away. It makes it difficult to concentrate on others and what they’re saying, much less how to contribute to a conversation. Even just thinking about talking to others makes him nervous, so it’s easiest for him to cope by trying to avoid people entirely. Seeing how many locks he has on his apartment door is a good indicator of just how pervasive his social anxiety is.

Other symptoms of anxiety include an increased heart rate, sweating, rapid breathing, trembling, nausea, feeling weak and difficulties sleeping. This can get even worse and turn into a meltdown or an anxiety attack if he doesn’t find ways to alleviate his symptoms or leave the situation entirely. His alexithymia makes it a lot harder to figure out any specific reason why he’s feeling anxious so even if he had someone to talk to about this, it’ll be difficult for him to explain what he’s going through.

Panic attacks are another thing he suffers with. They are different from anxiety attacks because they happen suddenly and without warning. Usually his symptoms are depersonalization, derealization, confusion, disorientation, rapid heartbeat, dizziness, numbness, stomach and chest pain. It can take quite a lot out of him when one happens and it takes a while to recover from it.

If he finds someone that he feels like he needs around, he will most certainly develop separation anxiety towards them. He hasn’t had anyone he’s felt close to in so long so it’ll be terrifying thinking about that person having the ability to leave him. This is why he decided to remove all of MC’s limbs in the Lawrence kept you ending. How willing he would be to talk this out and figure out a different way to lower his anxiety will depend on how someone has interacted with him before he develops this particular anxiety.

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD-1):

Having this disorder is the underlying cause for pretty much all of his struggles in life and it’s heavily linked to all of his other conditions. While he is level 1 on the spectrum, it’s still very pervasive and made even harder to handle without any support or understanding.

When he was a kid, it was made very apparent to him that he was different from other people. Social interactions are filled with rules and social cues that everyone else around him innately understood, and when he didn’t know what to do or did the wrong things those same people would make him feel bad by chastising or ridiculing him. He’s since learned how to mask by imitating facial expressions, tolerating uncomfortable situations, concealing his special interests, and for the most part dressing appropriately.

Because of his long history of negative social interactions, he feels a great deal of anxiety when he’s forced to interact with others. He doesn’t really feel in control when talking to people unless he’s scripted out what to say ahead of time, and even then it’s pretty nerve-wracking for him. 

There's a lot of things that he's learned to avoid bringing up. Even though he still wants to be able to talk about these things, he often finds it easier and more comfortable to just not say anything at all. He will slowly stop filtering himself the more secure he feels around someone or will forget it altogether if he's hyperfixated on something enough.

Hyperfixation is an intense and prolonged focus on a specific interest or activity. The “moods” he gets into are actually him hyperfixating on something. Usually this is directed at his plants or when he's spending hours googling things on his laptop but as we can tell with MC, he can and will hyperfixate on people as well, or on specific parts of their body. This likely will happen more often towards anyone he's attracted to. Note that it is possible to get him out of this intense focus but if he's set on doing something it will be difficult to change his mind on it.

The things he tends to hyperfixate on usually have to do with a special interest of his. Special interests are long term passions, topics that fascinate the person and bring them joy and fulfillment. Lawrence has a few; plants, herbalism, anatomy, death/decomposition and the river. He knows a lot about each of these topics but has a hard time sharing this info with others. He'll often notice things that others don't when it's related to one of these interests and things that aren't related to them tend to bore him.

Lawrence has a unique way of viewing things. As his brain isn't neurotypical, it makes associations that others might not correlate. He does this a lot, regularly talking in metaphors. This also means that when he finds something funny it's hard for others to understand why he's amused. Conversely, he tends to struggle to get other people's jokes and might need them explained to him. He'll probably need a lot of interpersonal things in general explained to him.

Getting overwhelmed is something that happens to him fairly often but stimming can help him regulate and cope in these situations. It’s hard to decide in what ways he would stim but he likely enjoys listening to music on repeat. Gatobob has mentioned that slow trance and electronic mood music are his go to genres. He also likely paces and squeezes/plays with his hands for stimming.

When he’s unable to calm down or get away from a stressful situation he will react with a meltdown. Meltdowns are completely involuntary and he’s unable to control himself when going through one. For him, behaviors can include withdrawing, shutting down, agitated pacing, getting physically aggressive, yelling, running away, being unable to be reasoned with and having difficulty communicating. Meltdowns can be extremely exhausting for whoever goes through them but there are ways to help minimize the risk of them happening again.

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD): 

This is a condition connected to autism that affects the way the brain processes sensory information. SPD is divided into three categories but I will be treating it as a whole for the sake of brevity.

In Lawrence’s case, he’s under-responsive to touch, taste and smell, and has oversensitive hearing. This is why he can down the hottest of hot sauces or everclear like it’s nothing, doesn’t get bothered by the smell of decomposition, doesn’t notice when his place or he himself smells weird. Being hyposensitive to touch gives him a high pain tolerance and means he isn’t bothered by temperatures that would normally be considered too hot or too cold by others. He likes to wear as little as possible because it makes it easier to actually feel his surroundings. He also seeks out things that are physically stimulating, i.e. touching things like dirt, hair, fur, bones, skin, going barefoot, ect.

When it comes to his hearing, he can get very easily overstimulated. He even monitors the volume of his own voice to avoid triggering himself. This is why he gets upset whenever someone is being loud or making too much noise. For him, too much noise can feel genuinely uncomfortable, and quickly leads to him feeling physically unwell and anxious. 

Things that are alive make so much noise, even just by existing, and that was even more overwhelming for him as a kid. This is why he became so fascinated when he came across roadkill as a child. Something so full of life was now bearable for him to be around. He could finally get close to an animal, something that was usually filled with noise and also ran away on sight, and didn’t feel overstimulated by it. He could see it up close and feel it. It was quiet. It was Safe. This same logic applies to his love for The River. It’s a place devoid of sounds so to him it’s like a sanctuary.

SPD also gives him issues with incorrectly processing sensory information, more specifically, body awareness and muscle sensation. Difficulties with intuitively feeling where his limbs are and what they’re doing makes him fairly clumsy, but more importantly, it takes conscious effort from him to accurately tell how much tension and force is required to interact with something. This leads to his actions often ending up a lot rougher and more aggressive than he means to, especially when he’s under stress. He’s hurt people by accident and he’s killed people by accident. This is why he got his tattoos, to try to disconnect himself from the many times he wasn’t able to control the strength behind his actions.

While he might not be fully aware of it, his job of carrying around heavy boxes is something that is a very grounding activity for people who struggle with body awareness. Working the muscles and pressure/compression are both needed to activate the proprioceptive system. I like to think that Lawrence likes to occasionally go out into nature and bury himself in dirt to get that sense of pressure he needs and would probably enjoy long tight hugs for that same reason.

I put a lot of time, mental energy and research into this post but I think this does a pretty thorough job at explaining the reasoning behind everything he does. Please like and/or share if you did like this!!

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Lawrence Oleander's Love Languages and Attachment Style

Love languages

Listed from most to least preferred

Quality Time - Having conversations where he's actively listened to without being judged, or even better, if he's understood, is something he desperately needs. He craves this more than anything and it's the biggest reason why he still reaches out to people occasionally.

He's spent his whole life feeling at the very least like a social outcast, so he will become viciously attached to anyone who listens to him and still chooses to stick around. This is also the quickest and easiest way to earn his trust and affection.

For the people he's closer to, he will listen to them vent or talk about whatever they want, but he usually doesn't have much of anything to say in response. If he's particularly attached to them, he might use whatever they confide in him as ammo, becoming more and more convinced that they should isolate themselves from everyone else but him, and whatever he does as a result is more justified in his eyes.

He also finds it nice to do things with someone once he's able to relax around them, whether that's working, chores, gardening, making art, ect. Significantly more if it's also done in a comfortable silence.

That being said, Lawrence still has a very low social battery. Even if he likes the person, he can only be around someone for so long before kind of shutting down. If the person doesn't understand his cues then he'll start getting snappy, so just be aware. 

 

Physical touch - He’s very touch starved but also not used to it At All. It needs to be on his terms or gradually introduced for him to feel comfortable with it. Once he is comfortable, he does seek it out.

He’s more likely to hover around the person he’s with when he’s in the mood to be touched. That or he'll just grab them rather aggressively. He's.. not the best at actually asking for what he needs. Give him a break though, he's new to this.

If he's focused on other things and the person he has feelings for is near, he'll subconsciously hold onto or touch them. It's calming for him because it's a physical reminder that they're with him and also gives him a little sense of control.

He's actually the most prone to touching when he's in one of his "moods" and likes focusing on very specific parts of the body. He has a habit of petting people when he's like this.

Acts of Service - He really enjoys feeling useful and needed, so he definitely likes giving this kind of love when he has the energy for it. He's very particular about it and only does it when he feels like it, though. 

These things usually include making them tea, grabbing something for them so they don't need to get up and remembering to buy them food or other necessities when he's outside. If they're limbless, washing their hair/body and feeding them is also included. 

Receiving? It depends. He would need to trust this person at least a bit before he’d let them do things for him. If they still had the ability to cook and clean for him and did so, he’d be incredibly grateful. Just don't mess with his plants under the pretense of helping him, not without asking first. Those plants are His to do what he wants to.

Words of Affirmation - This is a tricky one. His long history of being around people who are nice to his face, only to talk behind his back or run away from him, combined with his very low self esteem, makes him very distrusting of any words of affirmation given to him. 

He’s quick to dismiss and get annoyed with any kind of praise he receives. It takes a while for him to get to the point where he’d actually accept it and trust that the person is being honest, even if he might not believe what they say himself. 

No matter what, he’ll get upset and lose trust in them if he gets the feeling that person is not being sincere or is only saying nice things to get something from him.

When he gives it, usually it comes out as a comment. As if there’s no other way to view that person, that is just how they are. These comments are usually not at all straightforward and instead chock full of metaphors.

He tends to speak out more of these observations when he’s in one of his “moods.” Whether the person takes it as genuine praise or just unsettling is up to them. Usually he also talks about the concerning things he wants to do to them but he says it with such adoration that it's hard to dismiss the genuine feelings behind his words.

Gifts - He doesn't really think about giving gifts because they've never been all that meaningful for him. He thinks of them as more of a social burden rather than something to simply enjoy. 

So when he receives something, he's not really sure how to react. Even if it is something he genuinely likes, he feels awkward and uncomfortable about it. He will put it to good use or take care of it, though.

If he does give someone a gift, it'll almost always be a plant or something easy he can pick up from the gas station. If you don't know how to take care of the plant then don't worry, he can teach you. He'd be upset if you neglect it, though.

Lawrence’s Attachment Style - Disorganized/Fearful-Avoidant

This attachment style is a combination of two other unhealthy attachment styles – Anxious and Avoidant. It makes the person want love, to belong and feel supported but also have an intense fear that the people closest to them will hurt them. They are so terrified about the possibility of rejection or disappointment that they tend to self sabotage their relationships or avoid them entirely. This attachment style is characterized by being very hot and cold, seeking closeness and then pushing people away when things start getting too intimate.

When he starts to get close with someone, he has a very hard time believing they genuinely care about him and enjoy his company; it’s much easier for him to assume they want something from him or, at best, are being delusional. He lives under the pretense that he’s unlovable, unwanted, and unworthy. All of his past experiences solidify that opinion and thus, he’s just waiting for the “inevitable” to happen again. 

When it doesn’t happen right away and they continue to be affectionate towards him, he will start getting incredibly anxious about how much power they're getting over him. They can choose to stop caring about him at any time and leave him in an even worse hell than the one he was in before they met. 

When things get to this point he will start vacillating between icing them out or shutting down as a form of self preservation and actively seeking attention from them or acting very possessive. It can be quite jarring whenever this change suddenly happens but he’s too preoccupied with his own needs to realize just how confusing and hurtful his actions are.

Lawrence is constantly on the lookout for signs of betrayal or any perceived rejection. He will jump to negative conclusions with little to no evidence to back it up and become aggressive over this “disloyalty.” It will not be easy to calm him down enough to talk it out and convince him otherwise, at least not right away. How badly he handles it depends entirely on how things have gone before the incident.

The longer the relationship with him lasts, the more stable and secure he’ll start to feel in it. If the person he's with proves that they're safe and consistent, he will start trusting them and feel more comfortable with furthering their levels of intimacy. 

A person needs a certain level of patience, compassion and healthy communication in order to form a healthy bond with him. If they're hot and cold, dismissive or overly secretive then a relationship with him will likely be much more volatile.

I hope you enjoyed this post! Let me know what you think and if you agree or not! I will be writing about his mental health and how that affects him next. ❤️

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Hi all!

Just want to let you all know that I'm rethinking where my fic Hidden Sanctuary is going currently. I don't think it's doing a good enough job at accurately portraying Lawrence's messed up side and I want to rework it a bit. Apologies for however long it'll take to get that figured out!

I'll be working on Lawrence headcanons posts and possibly more smut in the meantime! ❤️

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Chapter 9 of Hidden Sanctuary is up! It's spicy. 🔥

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Oh how the turn tables

Lawrence Oleander x Reader/MC

Warning: NSFW, Noncon. Read at your own risk!

A/N: I felt an overwhelming desire to be mean to Lawrence, so I wrote this instead of working on my main story lol. Enjoy! ❤️

This is what you get for asking a cute stranger what time it is, you guess. Stuck taped down to a chair after he freaks out and knocks you unconscious. Waiting until he decides to go through with killing you or something, you're not really sure.. It's really hard to tell what is going on in Lawrence's head.

It's the second day here and you woke up to find him asleep on his bed. You're sure he was more careful taping your arms down this time and decided it's worth trying to free yourself again. You pray that he doesn't wake up as you begin your second battle with your restraints.

It was actually the left arm of the chair that loosened, then eventually gave way after a little more effort. You used your free arm to quietly pull off the right side and took the small knife left on the table in front of you to cut yourself free.

You're a bit dizzy and sore standing up but you need to figure out what to do now. You look around the room and then to your captor. Your frustratingly handsome, mentally unstable captor.

…An idea suddenly hits you. You hope to hell it'll work and you'll be very happy if it does. Time to try and give this man a taste of his own medicine, and then some.

You single out a large heavy pot with a fern growing inside, set on his kitchen counter. You very slowly walk over and lift it up as quietly as possible. Walking over to him didn't wake him up, but as you strain to lift the pot high in the air, you accidentally nudge the bed, scaring him awake.

But by then it's too late for him, considering you drop the pot directly on his head, knocking him unconscious. You wince a bit out of sympathy and quickly grab the pot, noticing that it's left a small gash on his forehead.

You're unsure when he'll wake back up so you have no time to waste. You quickly put the fern back in its place, fix the chair up again, and heave Lawrence over to it. It takes quite a bit of effort to move his body but you manage to get him propped up before securing his arms and legs to the chair. Not sure how he'll react initially, you decide to put some tape over his mouth as well.

You take a step back, satisfied with how restrained he is, before looking for something to scare him into cooperation. The tiny knife you cut yourself free with won't do and the giant sheers he has set aside seem overkill…

You rummage through his kitchen and eventually find a chef's knife in one of his drawers. You sigh in relief before standing in front of your captor turned captive and wait patiently for him to wake up. It wouldn't be fun playing with him while he's still unconscious, after all.

…

When he finally comes to, he wakes with a start. He very soon realizes that he’s tied to the same chair you were just in earlier that day and you're standing in front of him, watching him. He looks up at you with a terrified expression, unable to say anything with the tape over his mouth.

“Do as I say and I won't hurt you, okay?” you say gently, but the knife in your hand is showing that you're not messing around.

He's shaking and tearing up now as the gravity of the situation sinks in but eventually nods and you smile gleefully.

“It doesn't feel very good being tied up, now, does it? …Well, I'm not letting you go. I'll take the tape off your face so I can hear your pretty voice though. Be good and quiet or I'll find something else to shut up that mouth with, okay?”

You rip it off as painlessly as you can and when it's finally off, he asks, “W-what do you want from me..?”

You give him a very obvious once-over. “What I'm Going to do... is play with you. However I want.. until I'm completely satisfied.” He shifts uncomfortably in the seat, a nice blush starting to dust his cheeks. “Wha- N-no..don't…”

You pet him, running your hand through his hair, even though it doesn't console him in the slightest. “Oh, honey.. You don't have a Say in what happens to you now.”

He whimpers at that and you continue petting him. “Even though I wanted you so badly from the moment I saw you, I Was going to let you go on your way.. But then you knocked me out, took me home with you...even gave me a wound to remind me of you when I leave. And now.. we're here. You had Your turn..and now it's mine.”

“W..what are you going to do..?” He's still shaking, looking equally bewildered and terrified. When you grab his flaccid cock through his sweatpants, his breath hitches. “I told you, I'm going to play with you until I'm satisfied.”

Now understanding what you mean, his face turns red as his dick twitches in your hand, hardening slightly. You smile coyly, squeezing him lightly to make sure he knows that you know he's reacting to you.

He turns his head away and closes his eyes, clearly disliking how his body is betraying him. “Nuh uh, no looking away. You know what happens when you don't listen, right?” you quietly chastise him, moving your knife back and forth a bit.

You don't actually want to hurt him but this is the only way you figured he'll listen. Thankfully he does, looking back at you but clearly getting frustrated. You knock that look off his face by rubbing the length of his cock a few times through his clothes. “Good boy.. keep those eyes on me, got it?”

You set the knife down on the table behind you before running your hands along his body, from his bare arms to his shoulders, down his torso, along his sides and ending on his thighs.

He's really wrestling with that command to keep looking at you as you're doing this but he’s able to focus on your face since you're busy paying so much attention to the rest of him.

You kneel in front of him, looking up to make sure he's still watching you. You rub his thighs as you talk, “I'm going to need to take these off. You'll cooperate with me, right?”

Not waiting for an answer, you undo the string on his sweatpants and work on pulling them off. You grin teasingly when you see that he's going commando and he looks away, shutting his eyes tightly from embarrassment.

You let it slide this time and tug on his pants more. When you clear your throat as a warning, he cooperates by hovering above the seat just enough to get it down to his ankles.

He's not fully hard yet but he's well on the way. You blow on it, watching it twitch from the smallest bit of contact. “So cute.. I'm going to really enjoy this, Lawrence.”

He doesn't say anything but you can tell a part of him likes it because he keeps getting harder.

“D-don’t look…” he whines out, his embarrassment getting to him. You decide to take it easy on him and focus elsewhere, running your hand up his torso and further up, past his neck to gently cradle his face.

“...Do you have any idea how attractive you are?” you ask him almost accusingly, brushing your thumb along his cheek before sinking your fingertips into his hair.

You really want to bully him a bit more so you grab a fist full of hair near his scalp and yank his head back to run your tongue roughly up the side of his neck.

He reacts by letting out a strangled moan, so you bring your free hand down to jerk off his cock as you suck on his neck hard enough to leave a deep bruise. At that, he cries out your name in a low moan but still is coherent enough to beg “no, not the-ere..”

It's not enough. You need him turned into a pathetic mess. Lucky for you, you know exactly what to do to get him there.

You kiss down his torso, spreading his legs apart wider and getting between them. You make sure that he's looking at you before opening your mouth and lightly slapping the head of his dick against your extended tongue.

He's entranced now and watches closely as you slide him deep into your mouth and rub your tongue against it. It must feel really good because he's twitching again and letting out another strangled whimper, louder than before.

It doesn't take long for him to let go and just enjoy you giving him head. Not much longer than that, he's almost at the edge of coming undone and filling your mouth with his load.

…And that's exactly when you move back, sitting on your legs and watching his reaction. He looked like he was in such bliss until he realized his cock left your mouth. “Why..? Why did you stop..?” He's confused but that quickly turns to frustration and anger when he realizes that you're toying with him.

“Until I’M satisfied, remember?” you say teasingly. You run your fingertip down his length and rub his inner thigh with your other hand but that's clearly not enough for him.

“You damn flower. I should've just killed you when I had the chance.” he growls out. “Well, that's no way to talk to your captor, especially one that's been treating you so nicely.” Your hand reaches back for the knife, a reminder of who's in charge right now.

That seems to shut him up and you're satisfied with that. “Ask nicely and I Might let you cum… eventually.” He's still pissed but clearly thinking it over. You rub his cock a few more times to keep it nice and hard as you add on some probably vital information. “Otherwise I'll just edge you as much as I want without giving you any release.”

He looks a little worried as your words sink in but he still doesn't give in. So you do what you said, going between sucking him off and jerking him off until you can tell his orgasm is close, then backing off completely to let him cool down. It takes a couple rounds of this until he finally cracks, whining out “l…let me cum..”

“Say please.” you demand, keeping your hand hovering around his painfully hard member. He whimpers at that, not wanting to give in completely. He rubs his thighs together, thrusting up a bit in a pitiful attempt to get some friction. To get you to touch him again.

He has tears in his eyes when he finally gives in. “....p..please..” Extremely satisfied, you practically purr your reply. “Good boyy, that wasn't so hard, was it? I'll make sure you cum so hard you're seeing stars… When I'm done.”

Knowing that you're not going to give him his release yet makes him sob quietly but that's quickly turned into another moan when you put your hot mouth back on him.

By the time you have him at the edge again, he's broken down completely, begging “ple-ease, please, Y/N, I'll do anything.”

That stops you. Anything? You were going to just use that tea on him to knock him out and leave after untying him but.. “Anything huh? You promise?”

He whimpers, shaking. “A-anything.” You smile, going back to playing with him. This time, when he's close you keep going, jerking him off and fondling his balls with your mouth firmly over his head.

When he finally comes, his whole body locks up as loads of his spunk aggressively shoot into your mouth, filling it up easily. You work him through his orgasm until he's whining from overstimulation.

He looks completely dazed when you get up but comes to when you're suddenly grabbing his jaw and kissing him, forcing his mouth open enough to spit his own load inside before clamping your hand over his lips.

“Swallow.” You demand, and having no choice, he does. You smile happily at that. “You said Anything, right?” He suddenly looks afraid but nervously nods.

You pick up the knife and slice of the tape binding one of his arms before undoing your pants and sliding them down. You grab his hand and hold it against your parts, watching as he flushes all over again.

“Look at what you did to me.. Be a good boy and take care of it for me.” You notice his cock is twitching again as he feels up your excitement.

...Maybe you'll keep him locked up a while longer.

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Chapter 8 of Hidden Sanctuary is up!

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Chapter 7 of Hidden Sanctuary is up!!

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Chapter 6 of Hidden Sanctuary is live! Enjoy!

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Chapter 5 of Hidden Sanctuary is up! ❤️

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Hello lovely BTD and Lawrence Oleander fans!

I've been working hard on a LawrencexReader fanfic and I'm finally ready to show some of the fruit of my labor!

Here is a link to my first work:

Hidden Sanctuary

The first 4 Chapters are already up and ready.

Any and all comments, likes and reposts are Very much appreciated!

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Lawrence Oleander’s MBTI

After thinking long and hard about this wonderfully complicated man, I've come to the conclusion that Lawrence is an ISFJ.

Here's how I believe his personality fits within an ISFJ function stack and an attempt at expanding on his character, based on what I know about ISFJs.

Introverted Sensing:

- His Many bad past experiences with trying to get close to people made him incredibly guarded and distrusting of people's willingness to stay around him. He's been hurt too much and uses his experiences to predict the future. Those predictions are almost always bad.

- Can be a bit narrow-minded and has trouble empathizing with things he doesn't understand.

- He hates the unfamiliar; it freaks him out. He thrives under consistency and structure and when things are clear and concise. People usually aren't, and that makes him anxious.

- Has a hard time with big changes and needs time to mentally prepare for them.

- Wants to feel in control of the people he cares about and in control in general.

- When he's in the right headspace, he's very good at stalking and picking up details that other people might not notice as easily.

Extraverted Feeling:

- He hides himself away out of consideration of others, not just for his own safety.

- He hates any reminders that he's not normal. People being concerned about his behavior make him feel extremely on edge. 

- Despite his desire to get away from everyone, he still periodically feels sympathy and empathy towards others.

- A small part of the reason he learns the things he does is, on the off chance that he finds someone who will stay, he'll be useful to them.

- He likes caring for things and feeling responsible for them.

- Is loyal to whoever stays by his side, especially if they manage to go through the grueling task of proving they're doing it willingly. Will go out of his way to take care of them and make sure they're “kept safe.”

- He doesn't realize it, but he desperately wants to feel wanted, needed, and appreciated. Will start to despise you if you continuously take whatever kindness he gives you for granted.

- Does not like being focused on for long. Even with someone he likes, it can easily be too much.

- Focuses so much on other people and their actions but represses and ignores his own emotions to the point that he's not even sure how he feels or what he actually wants a lot of the time.

- Needs time, patience, and lack of judgment from someone in order to feel comfortable opening up about any of his feelings.

- Spent so much time alone bottling up his negative feelings that he'll end up snapping at the drop of a hat. He doesn't have any healthy coping mechanisms, so he has a Lot of unprocessed baggage.

Introverted Thinking:

- Likes to plan things out in advance and tries to mentally prepare for whatever else could happen in the process.

- Even if his place is messy, there's still a structure to it. He doesn't care about the spills and smells wafting about, but his bottles of things are all labeled and organized in a way only he understands. 

- He soaks up information that he in particular finds useful or interesting.

- Deeply fascinated by how things work and how things are connected. Definitely takes that fascination too far sometimes.

- Cares more about the function and purpose of things over any kind of aesthetic.

Extraverted Intuition:

- He occasionally opens himself up to new viewpoints. He has to feel safe and stable to do this.

- Tends to overthink about all the possible ways something can go wrong.

Note: I'm sorry, but I will likely only be doing this for Lawrence! I'm currently working on writing a LawrencexReader fanfic and won't have the time or mental capacity to make an in-depth analysis of any other characters.