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[hikaridenki]

This is a suicide note written to myself

  I am fifteen years old this year and I am an ordinary high school student. I am going to commit suicide by jumping off the building at 9 this morning.

  Is it the reason for suicide? The reason for suicide is because I don't want to live anymore. I have no nostalgia for this world.

  This world has no value for me to keep living,

  Because this world is painful.

  You who saw this suicide note,

  Please do n’t tell my parents, do n’t make it public, just treat it as our secret?

  This is a kind of revenge, revenge on my parents.

  Then, I will start to tell my sad life ...

  I can also tell you that what you usually see at school is just a student role I am playing

  If I did n’t go to the show, you would see a person who would only sit in his place and wait until after school to go invisible

  I will not talk to anyone, I will choose to live in my own world

  At least for now

  I have seen pictures of my childhood, the youngest is the two-year-old one, without hair, and then crawled in front of the birthday cake, with a happy smile on your face, you may not believe it, I am two years old, and I will not speak

  When I was memory conscious, I was five years old. I was very happy then. I remember to go to L City with my grandma. My second aunt went to play. It is clear that I had an Ote in my hand. Man toy, then gone

  After I came back, I stayed in my hometown for a while. With my grandparents, I thought I was beaten up by my grandma when I was a child.

  Oh, and also, when I was in kindergarten, when I first entered the school, I cried. I was a little afraid of birth, but I was always afraid of birth. Later, after going to elementary school, because I was in my hometown, sometimes I was sleeping a little away from my hometown. In the far school, at night I will be afraid and cry,

  I also took only one enlightenment class. When I was five, I was in first grade. When I went to the second grade when I was six, I was relegated because I was too young. I went to two first grades. Hehe, otherwise I will be in second grade now. Okay, I can finish 13-year-old junior high school graduation, haha

  When I returned to the age of five, I followed my parents to live in J City for a while. There, I saw the first and only time, a total solar eclipse. Later, I returned to my hometown. I ’m in the second grade, although I ’m also stepping on the point, so to speak, every time I upgrade to the first grade, I do n’t actually reach the appropriate age of that age, but I ’m still on it.

  After the second grade, my third grade was published. I went to J City, W County, and T Township. I went there to study and lived for half a year. The memory of that year was very deep. It was 2012. At that time, it was predicted that it would be the end of the world. , Nothing happened, haha, at that time I created the first one of my QQ number named Yi Jiangnan, my dad got the name and was stolen later, and then lost contact with all my elementary school classmates, several schools I have lost contact (because I actually went to four elementary schools, which I will talk about later), J school, I still remember clearly, called TF elementary school, but I did n’t eat well in the past six months. The instant noodles may also be the cause of the skin disease on my face. I still regret it. I did n’t eat it until I knew it. I also met a good female student in the past six months. Just like to play with her

  Later, the most memorable thing is that once I took the bus, I was very panic because of the lack of money in Cary, and I did not remember to go back. I only remembered which station I got off and there was no phone on my body. Asking for directions and not daring to answer the phone, haha, I was a little embarrassed when I wanted to come, and then I was very red in the car, and then there was an aunt with a baby on the back, who borrowed my card so I could go home Hee, later I wrote about this incident in the composition and was called to read it on the podium

  The memory that year was still deep is that there was a lot of snow in the city of J. It was 10 centimeters thick. Once I took a coin to buy sugar, but the coin fell in the snow and I did not find it for a long time. I had to go down and go back,

  Later, my dad gave me an 8-year-old birthday over there. It seemed that the timeline was messed up, but it was okay. That birthday was also the only time when a family celebrated for me. Now I think about it and I remember it very much.

  Later, when my dad opened the hot pot restaurant there, and felt that the business was not good, I was sent back to my hometown and went to study.

  Then I pushed the time back to one year. When I was seven years old, my sister was born, and I had one more sister in the sky. In fact, I was still very happy, but I am not a sister control. Bullying her, maybe since then, my heart has changed because I started to feel jealous and worried that I will be ignored,

  If I ask my sister if it ’s not cute, to be honest, it ’s not cute at all. When I was a kid, he looked like a boy with hair rushing up, and it was very dark. Even now, it ’s not as white as me.

  My sister also went to the first half of J City, so I wo n’t talk much about it here because I do n’t remember clearly.

  Time went back to the third grade. I went back to my hometown and finished the third grade. There is no memory here, so I wo n’t say anything.

  Advance to the fourth grade, I went to the city, when my dad opened a restaurant, and I went there to read the fourth grade, the ninth birthday, that year, I remember I ordered the cake by myself , Later also a person, back home, a person has a birthday, no one

  Additional note, my dad, from the time I remembered, I did n’t see him until I was six years old. I did n’t have much memory at that time. Then I saw him again when I was eight years old, and lived for half a year. Come to him and live together. In the three years of elementary school, my dad might think that the reason for opening a restaurant was very bad temper, and he got angry and accused me, even if it was just a little trivial thing. Since then, My psychological changes have deepened again on a negative level. Correspondingly, there has been a gap between me and my dad. I often quarreled and made conflicts. Since I was ten years old, I have n’t cried, haha, even It's an injury, a serious injury, I cried too, my heart has become cold, very cold, no emotion

  Since then, I have n’t taken any pictures, except for the irresistible, taking a graduation picture.

  Then the scene shifted to school. In the fourth grade, I inserted that new class as a transfer student. Everything is so strange. My restraint caused me a lot of troubles, which led me to go there on the first day, thinking I did n’t know where to go. Taking a notebook, it became a joke not to do homework on the first day. Later, I began to form two faces, a school (in school, smiling often, lively and cheerful, sociable, smiling), one Deputy family (at home, expressionless, indifferent, not talking to parents),

  By chance, I was at the same table, and I was born on the same day in the same month and year, and was three hours older than me. There is a supplement here. My dad's birthday was the day before me, and my dad's birthday was the night before. My mother is in the hospital and I was born the next morning

  Therefore, I became a very good friend with my deskmate, but he was a boy. Haha, he often took a small class during the class and often slipped into the arcade to play arcades during the final review period. Is really disobedient,

  And ah, at that time, I also like to play with those girls, I can't talk about it, but I have a good feeling, but it was only at that time, I was ignorant of it,

  These three years passed quickly, and it was time to graduate from elementary school. Later, my parents in junior high school took me to City C. Here I have undergone more changes. I will talk about it later.

  At the age of 11, I graduated from elementary school. As soon as I graduated, I came here. City C, the FQ middle school journal in District B here, also applied for it. Then I spent the summer vacation in Chongqing and went to play There are many places, so I wo n’t go into details here.

  However, our family moved to Area A, far away from Area B, but my aunt was very close to my school, so I started my three-year boarding life at my aunt ’s house, which is a big turning point. From here, from the beginning, the degree of my psychological collapse (this is my own definition, which is interpreted as the negative level of the heart) once soared to 90%, and now I think about it in elementary school should be 30%.

  Next, one by one, it may start to grow longer, or you can choose to take a closer look

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Original Comic

"So, your decision about that is ...?" The light of the setting sun poured into the dark room through the glass, and the person with the chair in front of the window reflected on it.

"Um ..." He thought about the scenery outside the window, his pupils reflected the orange sunset and the noisy city outside the window, and he put cookies in his mouth,

"Kill it." He said blandly that he had black shoulder-length black hair, and his young face looked like a fifteen-year-old girl, but his eyes revealed the ups and downs he experienced, his steadyness seemed More than children of the same age. He was very casual, wearing a mint green long-sleeved top and black work pants.

"Okay, then ... you'll have two meetings later, so please dress quickly, sir." The long-haired man next to him said, "It shouldn't matter if I'm late for a few minutes, right? I'm the boss, light "The light-haired male, whose golden long hair is waist, has pair of blue eyes, wears a pair of unilateral glasses, wears a military uniform like a suit, and looks seriously in front of him. The young girl "No." He replied decisively, "Okay ..." The girl resigned helplessly from the chair and walked towards the light. "Let's go and change clothes. I don't want to go to a meeting with that group of people ..." The girl was lazy And the man named Light walked out of the room.

The girl changed into a gorgeous suit. The whole suit was mainly blue and orange. A golden round iron badge was pinned on the chest. The pattern on the badge was a smiley face, but the eyes of the smiley face were two. Fork, with a bright red cape on his shoulders, a small top hat on his head, the color of the fringe dyed snow-white, the right pupil changed to blue, and the other side was orange, on the left face Draw a black triangle and three dots.

"Change it, let's go!" Maid, at this moment he looks more like a teenager, a mysterious teenager, with a frivolous smile, a calm expression, full of confidence, the light behind him will be tied up Chang issued it, looking more serious and steady.

The two of them walked along the promenade stained by the color of the setting sun. One walked forward sternly and the other was humming and striding forward at a brisk pace. At this time, the girl was completely like a teenager and behaved. The manner and tone are completely different from before the dress up. The two of them walked deep into the promenade, and in front of them was a wooden crimson door.

"Oh roar? Am I late?" The boy opened the crimson wooden door and asked in a pleasant tone, "No, boss. We are just here." The red-haired woman in the room said "This is the only survivor of that incident, Huang Yi." The woman pointed to the chair, and the white-haired teenager was covered with injuries.

"Tell me," the teenager walked to a red sofa, leaned forward, looked at the white-haired boy with his hands on his chin, and asked him, "Who attacked you?"

"Hero." Huang Yi answered weakly. He was shaking, his hands on his legs, and his fists clenched. He seemed very scared of the character called "hero".

"Go! It's not the first time I've heard this hero attack us!" The boy was very angry. "Is this hero sick with his brain? Light! Go and investigate this heroic mentally retarded character, I'm going to kill him completely." "The teenager is very displeased." Huang Yi, you should adjust to the second line first, take a rest and recover for the time being, I will take responsibility for this. "The teenager turned to Huang Yi and said," Let ’s go, there is another meeting to start . "teenager got together with the light left the reception room.

"I said Yu, you really have to check that the hero?" Asked a light opening behind the boy, very puzzled voice