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Sorry friemds,,, ive been honestly too mentally ill to keeo my blog updated,, ill do my best Tomorrow,, Im trying to take some classes at my community college,, But ive been mostly bedrotting and watchinf rozen maiden!! Its really good, i see ive been tagged in things and thank u for thinking of me,, i hate having ailments im like ah ill just leave

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SORRY EVERYNYAN im trying to be a cute.organized hikigirl who makes journals and has everything all pretty and organized but im too.mentally ill sorry SO SORRY i feel a little bad

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Period started,,,

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Sorry Ive literally been bed rotting the past few days so I had nothing to post,, guess ive been playing Roblox? Thats it. Anyways sorry for venting here all the time but ah, Im so bad at making friends so I poor all my effort into making them and it just goes nowhere and then my bpd acts up and i just feel helpless

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7.30

Gwuaah sorry that im using this blog as a vent blog even tho it is but me when im so ill that I cant even keeo up a diary,,, anyways, i went outside a little bit today, sun was nice ☀️

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7.28

guwahh sorry evereyone i was completely dead yesterday,, today's ramble is about how things are less expensive in person than online but I can't bring myself to get out of the house today,,, I'll do my best,, tomorrow maybe?

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Progress on the anime girl tapestry! this is my comfort piece I come back to inbetween larger projects now

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Guwaah I might start taking melatonin again,, It hardly does anything for me but being awake at night makes me feel icky,, bhwaah

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Do you ever find something you think is really funny or interesting and then try to show people who are closest to you just to get the most minimal uninterested reactions ever and then feel like a fucking idiot for even sharing anything with them ?? bc same. I hate it. It literally kills my entire mood and ruins my day. This is why I isolate, don't talk to anyone, and just talk to myself and then feel insane.

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date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

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Not to be insane guwaah but it definitely stings a little when nobody is talking in the friend disc server and you know for a fact theres a bunch of priv gcs that ur not in so you are the only one messaging in hopes that they'll respond

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7.27

Good morning Idk what im gonna do today but im feeling low energy so I might just sip on some soda and lay in bed,,, nothing bad about it !!! Just wish i had the energy to get out of bed at least

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My Little Intro Post! My name is Ame and im 20! and this is my little Journaling and or Venting blog for now! a little back ground: Ive had a bunch o' blogs before! But I recently made this one because most of my disc friends got disinterested about rambles going on in my day to day and what media ive been playing/watching,, so I thought it would be nice to make a blog so I can ramble about my hikithoughts with other ppl who are also like me! I do have bpd and other ailments so please be kind! I promise Im normal I've been living this life for a while now,, ahh,, maybe like 6-7 years? but I finally made a blog about it since it would help me if I actually talked to ppl instead of talking at people,,, I dont have a list of media ive consumed (Ill prob make a thread/list soon!) I Enjoy: JRPGS (older the better! stuff like ff and femblem, ect.) ANIMANGA,,, i love animanga its one of my major interestsss kyaa JPN idols! all kinds, 2d, 2.5d or 3d i enjoy! I very much like chika idols or 2.5d idols like im@s or bandori ah I cant think of any others but im sure to put them in my thread! note; Thanks for reading this far if you have! this blog will mostly have sporadic ramblings about my day,, Ill try to pretty it up a little bit but I'm concerned about getting my thoughts out there,, PLEASE mutual me if you want! im always looking for more people to talk to,,,

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Oh i should say friends are welcome but this blog will just be me rambling,,

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I think I was born to be miserable 😖

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Sorry for being old and a hiki I can't help it