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[howlismz]

The world has a certain view of you based on your actions. You have a certain view of yourself after your own actions. Particularly after finding you’ve made some more than just crappy decisions, that would certainly qualify you as the supervillain in a comic book, if you found out your life was one. You can’t really figure out why you made said awful decisions in the first place, because. No matter how you look at it. Fear. Self-protection? They make no excuse for the awful shit you’ve done.

It makes you wish that you could turn back time. Go Doctor Who, and time travel like it’s a vaccine for awful decision making. But, outside of sci fi flicks? Time travel isn’t a real solution for mistakes you wish with everything in you to just...erase away. All you have is the present, and where you can go from there. Take responsibility for your supervillain-scale mistakes, and....somehow manage to learn to live with yourself. Hes trying. Giving it his best to step out of the self judgement, that feels like quick sand, asphyxiating him down into regrets that are unbreakable. Abstract forms of vibranium basically, because you can’t begin to shatter away what you’ve already done. But going out into the forest with his crossbow? That helps.  It’s an island. Where the swinging leaves, and tall trees are like a refuge. A shield from the outside world. Focus on the target. On the arrow. On the technique of aiming at the right spot. Sometimes, he pictures the target being his past, and how maybe the arrow at least in that moment, has the power to erase everything terrible he’s done. If it just hits the center. There’s something about it, that idea. It gives him a sense of peace, for at least a couple of seconds. Calms his heart that most of the time feels like he’s a racing  wild rabbit in the center of wolves he’s idiotically pissed off. 

He’d been out there for hours the day before. Lost track of exactly how long. But, at some point, Parker, his puppy, had picked up the sound of another animal whimpering in the distance. Parker was...a very empathetic puppy dog, and of course, at the sounds of another animal in distress? He’d rushed over to where the sounds where coming from. “Parker, hold up!” He’ called out, and in what was a couple of minutes? He and Parker had found themselves in front of the puppy dog, that he was now holding in his arms a day later, in front of Brett. Brett. Who was like another tall tree of protection. Like...another shield from the thoughts that were constantly telling him he’d never be able to move on. And those cheekbones. Holy shit. He always has to look away, because he’s certainly sure that the blush on his own face has to be obvious. And...he more than certainly? Doesn’t deserve his friendship. And...yet here they were. Hanging out again. After nights of snacking, and playing pokemon games, and binging Marvel movies. But, maybe sometimes life gives you presents you never deserve, like. It’s the universe version of Christmas. Or your birthday? Was that stupid to think? He looks down at the puppy in his arms, trying to avoid that always, all-too-intense look in Brett’s eyes. Because that’s how you hide a crush, right? So, he focuses instead of petting behind the puppy’s ears. He has this pout-frown on his lips for a second, when Brett says he can’t take in the puppy. It’s a shame, because...he doesn’t want to completely part ways with Tazz. Yes, Tazz. That’s what he’s decided to name him, because his favorite past time? Spinning around over, and over, chasing his tail at sonically-quick speeds, like he’s a freaking Tasmanian devil. It was adorable, and entertaining.  He wonders how Tazz would feel if they were to completely part ways. To never see each other again. Would he think that...he just didn’t care about him anymore? Because...he didn’t want him to feel abandoned in that way. That sounded terrible. And terrible decisions where something he’s had enough of. “Oh.” He starts to give a small nod. “Yeah, it’s okay. I get it.” It’s...hard to not have the hint of disappointment in his voice, but he tries his best to mask it. He finally looks up into Brett’s eyes, the same intensity like always in them. He gives a couple more pets to Tazz, who’s now starting to lick his face, and he can’t help but give this sheepish, half smile, and let out a soft laugh.  “Tazz- “ He snickers, “Hey, its okay. We’ll head back over to the Res soon.” Head pets. “I guess I just want to make sure I can visit him at his new home. I really tried...like...almost all night to convince my mom, and abuelita to let another puppy stay, but...they say it’s just not enough space for two dogs, and” He shrugs, “They’re probably right. I just don’t want Tazz to feel like I abandoned him, you know? I’d never want him to feel that way...” He says. “If...we could find someone that wouldn’t mind him and Parker having weekend puppy play dates... that...would be perfect.” He grins, “Have anyone coming to mind?”

@bretttal​

@howlismz​ asked:

“he needs a warm, loving home.”

it took them weeks to talk normally again, and weeks to finally reach a friendly equilibrium. once the guilt is gone, nolan proves to be quite a sweet companion. from video games to movies, they do what most teenagers do. through that bonding, brett sees nolan in a different light: he is mellow, at certain times even cute. his puppy eyes, however, look very much like an emotional blackmail at this moment.

“ i hear you, i do — but i’m a cat person. ” brett swallows before glancing at the puppy and looking away very quickly. he cannot handle two pair of begging eyes at once. “ i can help find him a home, though. ”

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Froy being beautiful.

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~~~buying this entire skincare regime cause i’m that easy 🛁🧴🚿

WAIT NO HE TOLD ME TO LOVE MYSELF JUST LIKE I AM OK BOSS 😭😫

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@magicveins @talebite @bretttal

brett x nolan

requests are always open, check here for fandoms

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“It’s not that bad.” He bluffs, but - not very well, because you can practically see the concern written in his eyes. “We’re pretty central, so- it’ll be easy to get around town.” He says with a shrug as they were waiting for the lift. “-and it includes breakfast.” but boy- was he hoping that breakfast didn’t turn out like that one disturbing dining scene from Scary Movie 2 now.

He’s trying to keep his cool, and act like he doesn’t mind, because he didn’t need to basically admit to Brett that he might have fucked up. As they get into the elevator, he looks up at Brett with raised eyebrows. "Do I even want to ask what it’s about?” Elevator doors close, the lift shaking a little more than it should have, a metal squeaking sound coming from the top, as if the suspension cables hadn’t received a good maintenance in a while.  He leans into the back of the elevator as it starts to go up to their floor, hands grasping tight onto the handle bar on it- his hold only tightening as the elevator comes to a stop- not on their floor- and the lights shut off. “Okay.” He starts to say. “It’s- officially the worst hotel choice now.” He admits, and as he does so, the lights start to flicker back on. Though there might have been light in the small space, the color on Liam’s face is completely gone now- pale as milk and bones, because his blue eyes are gazing up into the nearly dead looking eyes of a girl that had not been standing in there with them a minute ago. “...Please. Tell me this is one really fucked up prank.” @bretttal​

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“You want us…to travel together?” He asks, raising an eyebrow. The last time they had done anything close, was when they’d traveled outside of town for a lacrosse game with their team, and after the first night of them staying in the same room, he’d ended up having to share a room with the coach for the rest of the trip. “Do you not remember how that turned out last time?” He asks, and frowns. Well. They had both changed over the last few years, right? and It would be good to not have to travel on his own. Not to mention, Hayden would probably really appreciate seeing another familiar face from Beacon.  Okay. Yeah. LA in general did sound like a hell of a good time . He’d always wanted to check out the  beachfront parties there. “Yeah,” Lips curl into a small grin, eyes looking down at the ground. “It does sound like a pretty good time.”He says, blue eyes looking up to Brett. “We can catch the bus right after school on Friday, come back Sunday evening. That way we can both get as much time as we can with her.” @bretttal​

clear blue eyes turn to liam, and he nods without hesitation. brett is so excited to see hayden in LA that rooming with liam becomes less than an issue. liam is obviously wary, and for good reason.

“ last time was last time. this time is this time. ” brett grins hopefully. they didn’t get along before, but now they have a common goal. what could go wrong?

＊＊＊

— turns out it was everything.

fast forward to friday — nothing seems to work out right. firstly, liam was late and almost missed the bus; secondly, brett forgot his headphones and had to engage in conversation for the entire ride; thirdly, the hotel they booked seems to be haunted.

the place looks weathered, and the receptionist gives them a blank stare before handing over a keycard to their room. the walls have patterns that look like faces, and brett doesn’t dare make eye contact.

“ …so is this why it was so cheap? ” when they are waiting for the lift, brett mumbles under his breath, trying his best not to notice the stains on the carpet.

DING — the lift slowly opens its doors in front of them. brett swallows. “ have you ever seen 1408? ” he asks. “ if the corridor stretches too long, we’re leaving. ”

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While Stiles is trying to piece together whatever it was that just happened, stealthy puppy wolf hand reaches over to start grabbing the costume, eyebrows raised as blue eyes stay locked with Stiles’. ”Do you want to be Han Solo, Stiles? I think you’d make a pretty cool one.” Basically trying to Jedi mind trick his second dad. @volatilehearted​

“We can’t BOTH be sexy Luke Skywalker for Halloween. I saw it first! Stiles…agh- MINE!” ~From Liam

“What?! Liam, no–last year you didn’t even know what carbonite was, there’s no way you get dibs on any version of Luke Skywalker!” Stiles pauses for a moment before continuing, just as indignant. “And every version of Luke is sexy! Ugh!”

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❝ Your smile makes my day. ❞ // derbear

“Flattery, Stiles? Really?” He raises an eyebrow and smirks, shaking his head. “You can just save my time, and tell me what’s going on in Beacon Hills this time.” @jeeplover 

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                                                        Munday Questions 

“What is your biggest fear?”

“Has the roleplay community changed you?” 

“What really makes you annoyed?”

“Any pet peeves?”

“What inspired you to start roleplaying?”

“If there was one muse you’d like to meet who would it be?” 

“What motivates you to get to those drafts?”

“Any current reads you’d recommend?”

“What’s your go to karaoke song?”

“What had initially attracted you to your current fandom(s)?” 

“What are some of your hobbies?”

“Where do you see yourself in the next 10 years?” 

“What’s one thing that can automatically make your day better?”

��Is there any muses you’d like to try in the future?”

“What’s your thoughts on OC accounts?”

“Have you ever created a OC?”

“What are five things you couldn’t live without?” 

“Do you and your muse(s) have anything in common? If so what are they?” 

“Coffee or tea?”

“Any fun facts about you?”

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OC MUSES - ROMAN WILDER

.Full Name.

Roman ‘Wilder’ McGinty

.Age.

𝟷𝟾 - 𝟸𝟹

.Nationality.

Irish (Father) / French (Mother) / American (Citizenship) .Eye Color.

Hazel

.Hair Color.

Brown

.Sexuality.

Bisexual - Switch - No Preference

.Interests.

Music - Songwriting - Travel - Adventure - Cliff Jumping - Poetry

.Background. Roman is the type of guy that will try to find the bright side in any type of situation he finds himself in. He will go above and beyond to cheer someone else up, pull you into a bear hug when you’re having a rough day or act like an idiot if that’s what it takes to get a smile on someone’s face again. 

He loves adventure, and travel, often writing songs that are inspired by this. He was born in Ireland, lived a couple of years in France, but eventually his family moved to the USA for his father’s job. He’s very dedicated / hardworking when it comes to something he has a passion for and will often spend hours and days working on practicing guitar and songwriting. 

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PSA

I will be removing some of my muses, making some exclusives only, as well as adding some OCs to my muse list in the coming days. Exclusives: I will only write Scott McCall for @lets-escape-from-reality and @jeeplover at this time. Derek Hale I will only write for @jeeplover .

Removing: I am removing Stiles Stilinski from my muses list.

Adding: TBA

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“Do you want to go through the corn maze?” / @ nolan he's excited he's hyped he's jumping up and down

“Yeah. We didn’t come all the way out here to not go through the corn maze.” He can’t help but have the largest smile start to cross his lips at the way Brett was acting. His excitement about the whole thing was really fucking adorable, and it has the lightest blush highlighting the freckles on his face. “Come on...” He says, taking a hold of Brett’s hand without giving the gesture much thought, leading the way into the corn maze. @bretttal

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 “  you can’t keep doing this to me.  either you want this,  or you don’t.  but you keep tugging me back and forth.  ” // Jamie from Jeanette

"I want this Jeanette.” Heavy brows furrowed together, solemn eyes looking down at her. “There has to be something I can do to show you I mean that...I...” He rubs at the back of his hair, glancing away for a moment, before their eyes met once again. “Look...I ..wanted to surprise you with something, so I didn’t want to bring it up until we were closer to the dates, but...that hotel you brought up a couple of weeks back? The one in downtown Austin?” He asks. “I managed to get us a reservation there, for a couple of weeks from now. I figured...getting out of Skylin has got to do some good for the both of us. We can step out of this...hell of a mess. Even if it’s for one weekend. Get to be whoever we want. None of this bullshit to follow us around...” @ofthebrokenstories  

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𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐈'𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 .

𝟎𝟏. 𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐒 / 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄  :  Neph

𝟎𝟐. 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘:   January 4th

𝟎𝟑. 𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂  𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍: Capricorn. Run for your life !

𝟎𝟒. 𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓  :  5′4

𝟎𝟓. 𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒  :  writing, roleplay, boxing, video games, hiking, ukulele

𝟎𝟔. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐑  : Purple

𝟎𝟕. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊:    The Invisible Life Of Addie Larue, and The Midnight Library.

𝟎8. 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐃 : Paella. It’s so fucking gooood aghh. Also truffle fries. . 

𝟎𝟗. 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐌 / 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖 :  911 and American Horror Story

𝟏𝟎. 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 : Uhmm~ wellp. I only got into the Teen Wolf fandom about 3 months back or so...? Everything got shut down again around where I live and I was looking for something to watch, and I ended up falling in love with the series.  I adore the puppy pack, and satomi’s pack..."What three things cannot be long hidden” idk why but this proverb / quote just really stuck with me and I think that’s part of why I click with the characters I do with so much...?

𝟏𝟏. 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐃  : I guess the importance of learning to howl, especially when people try to shut you down. That’s it. I was a very quiet person for a long time, I’d say I still am around most. Buuut you gotta know when you NEED to howl. To know your voice matters. Your point of view. Perspective. Your experiences. What you like and don’t like. Can’t let anyone make you think / feel like otherwise so. Howwlzz. 

Tagged by: @magicveins Tagging: @bretttal @volatilehearted @caffcinate @lets-escape-from-reality @ofthebrokenstories

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exes with feelings prompts

“ i know you, i know you like i know my own name, i know who you are in your bones. ”

” i see the way you look at her, a love like that doesn’t die. ”

“ never doubt my love for you, you always saw the best in me because you were the best of me.  ”

“ i still need you in my life. ”

“ you chose them, you always choose them. ”

“  passion wasn’t our problem.  we were always good at that part.  but passion can be anger and hate,  just as easily as joy and love.  somewhere along the way,  we forgot which was which. ”

“  you can’t keep doing this.  you can’t just keep coming here and expecting me to drop everything for you.  ”  

 “  you can’t keep doing this to me.  either you want this,  or you don’t.  but you keep tugging me back and forth.  ”

“  i can’t keep doing this.  i want to pretend to be happy for you but it’s killing me inside.  ”  

“  stop.  you have to stop.  because i don’t have the strength to look you in the eyes and make you leave.  i need you to be strong for me.  one last time.  ”

“  look at me and tell me you don’t feel anything.  make me believe it,  and i’ll go.  ”  

“  every time i’m around you it’s…it’s like a poison.  you’re in me.  and i can’t get you out.  ”

“  i know i didn’t call— i just.  i couldn’t stop thinking about you.  i had to see you. ”

“  i know i don’t have any right to anymore,  but i need you.  ”  

“  what are you doing here?  ”

“  will you just stay with me?  just for tonight.  please.  ”

“  you came?  ”

“  of course i came.  you needed me.  ”  

“  you loved the idea of me more than you loved me.  ”

“  i can’t keep being in love with someone who hates themself more than they love me.  ”

“  i was ready.  i was there.  but you were too scared of something real.  ”

“  i used to think you were the only person who could love me.  i’m not that person anymore.  if you want me back you have to give me a goddamn good reason more than ‘we belong together.’  ”  

“  you better fucking mean it because i want you too.  ” 

“  don’t look at me like that.  ”

“  just one more time.  ”

“  love isn’t just missing me.  you don’t love me if you aren’t willing to put in the work.  ”

“  you don’t miss me.  you miss how i made you feel.  ”

“  i get to decide whether or not you’re good enough.  that was my choice to make.  and you took it away.  ”

“  i’m sorry— i shouldn’t have kissed you i just…  ”

“  i didn’t have anywhere else to go.  i’m sorry.  ”  

“  i know you probably hate me right now but i don’t have anyone else to talk to.  ”

“  isn’t that my shirt?  ”

“  of course i still love you.  ”

“  i don’t.  i don’t love you anymore.  ”

“  you’re so full of shit.  ”

“  you can lie to yourself but you can’t lie to me.  ”

“  i want to try again.  i know we can make this work.  ”

“  i won’t run from this.  i won’t run from us again.  ”

“  don’t break my heart again.  ”

NSFW / ACTIONS

★ our muses have goodbye sex after breaking up  ☆ our muses accidentally have sex when one comes over to pick up their stuff ✧ our muses run into each other in public and hook up ✦ one muse comes over for a booty call  ✱ our muses accidentally kiss  ✥ our muses sleep together in the middle of trying to work things out  ❀ sender does a grand gesture to try to get receiver back  ✿ one muse comes over to offer their ex a shoulder to cry on ❃ for comfort sex  ☎ for receiver to write a drabble about a voicemail they left for sender  ⭒ for our muses to have an emotionally intimate night  ✱ our muses wake up in bed together with a hangover  ✼ for a drabble about one muse missing the other  ☞ for one muse to reach out for the other’s hand out of habit  ☟ for one muse to catch the other looking at them longingly across the room  ☁ for our muses to end up stuck inside together because of a storm  ♡ for our muses to get locked in a room together by a third party  ♣ for our muses to reunite because one got hurt  ➢ for our muses to reunite because of one muse suffering a loss  ➚ for our muses to reunite because one muse is in the hospital and the other is their emergency contact

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                                Real pain is emotional pain, 

                            that’s the kind of pain that lasts.

independent and selective multimuse with canon and oc muses from harry potter, teen wolf, supernatural, and sabrina the teenage witch/caos.

            rules mobile rules muse mobile muse list. muses by request.

promo credit: glitchkingdesign

[howlismz]

“ℕ𝕠𝕨, 𝕨𝕖 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕦𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕖𝕟𝕖𝕞𝕚𝕖𝕤.

                                                      Teen Wolf Multimuse                                           

                                                               Featuring:                      Scott McCall, Theo Raeken, Liam Dunbar, and Nolan Holloway

                                                 Multiship & Crossover Friendly

                                                                    Bitten by,                                                                     Nephilim.                                                                                                                                                      ℙ𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕤.                                     𝕎𝕖 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕓𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕦𝕤.”

                                                                                                                 promo by: [x]

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— sarah kane. independent teen wolf roleplay, written by jan ( she/they ), 18+ only.