howlslikeahound

[howlslikeahound]

not even that i hate it. i like work! its one of the only things i enjoy. i like the place and i like the people well enough. i work at a bookstore and books are like books. i love reading. but its every other thing i hate. i hate school i hate being alive which maybe is the same thing but if i could choose to just die without consequence and no harm done to other people i would. like i dont like my job enough to not kill myself over it el em ay oh.

another shift at work another 8 hours to think about how badly i want to slit my throat oh my fucking god

[howlslikeahound]

another shift at work another 8 hours to think about how badly i want to slit my throat oh my fucking god

[howlslikeahound]

chat its so over for me i dont know how to do basic human interaction i hate my school i hate waking up i want to die but i dont want to disappoint there is a squeaky toy blaring in my ear and my back hurts and i have a gyne appointment and i hate everyone and i cant think and i dont know how to care about anyhting i shoyls be dead i was never supposed to still be alive i dont care about school i dont care about people i dont care about this country i dont care about myself and im so ashamed i should i should i should i know i should but i dont i dont know what to do please god will you help me please please please please please please please please annamam

[howlslikeahound]

in my heart of hearts i want ppp and gms to lose their deposit

[howlslikeahound]

i wish i could just disappear

[howlslikeahound]

me wh me when i realise i won’t be grieved

[howlslikeahound]

local freak needs to kill themselves every combination of words i could use to describe my sadness has been said. there’s nothing left for me. my sadness is not beautiful and never will be. there is something in me that is so angry and so sad all the time all it knows how to do scream

[howlslikeahound]

chat i need to cut but i don’t have access to blades

[howlslikeahound]

i want to kill myself but i dont want it to be my fault, yk?

[howlslikeahound]

a butch that helps me cut. a butch that helps me cut. hello. can anyone hear me. i am manifesting

[howlslikeahound]

i want to die

[howlslikeahound]

want someone to watch me cut and hold my hand without judging and help me clean up afterwards. sigh.

[howlslikeahound]

thigh cuts r my least favourite kind of cuts but alas desperate times call for desperate measures

[howlslikeahound]

i think im just. stuck. i want change but i cant take it. cant handle it. so im just here. want help but cant ask for it, want friends but cant maintain conversations. idk. maybe this is a sign i should finally kill myself. which is annoying because now its inconvenient

[howlslikeahound]

wondering why my stomach is so itchy and then remembering right. i cut myself last night. dont regret it but god its annoying

[howlslikeahound]

don’t think i can live a good life dont think i deserve to either i don’t want this

[howlslikeahound]

feel sick and pathetic and i want to die alr die die die die die and i don’t wanna work and im gonna look pathetic and weird and everyone will know that i am not real and i don’t wana dont wanna just stay just they will think im lazy and a sack of shit and i hate it o hair it