hrupdrgs

[hrupdrgs]

Of yearning, confusion and despair

I spend restless nights and dreary days… And ask myself repeatedly, “How can I possibly survive from all this?”. 

Below is a random pint-sized collection of my thoughts these past few weeks which are intentionally polysemous in nature to conceal the apparent involvement of a particular individual. Ride the feels train with me as you catch a glimpse of my soul.

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5 years later.

Still hurts like a bitch.

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6 years later.

6 years later but why am I still anxious? Why is it still painful? Why does it still feel so threatening?

Please.

Make it all go away.

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Everyday, I think of you.

I think of your perfectly straight, thick hair that I caress as you rest on my lap or my chest,

I think of your radiant, contagious, giddy smile that you flash every time I amuse you;

I think of your bushy, expressive eyebrows that cross when you’re sleepy annoyed, or overjoyed;

I think of your dreamy, emotive eyes that look at me as if I am the only thing it sees;

I think of your broad and wide shoulders that I cling onto and instantly - I feel safe;

I think of your lengthy arms that surround me a little too tight sometimes;

I think of your graceful hands that touch me so tenderly and gently;

I think of your marvelous mind that debates and resonates with me;

I think of you, my cadet -

From the mornings I rouse,

To the evenings I repose,

To the dreams I brave,

I think of you.

Yours devotedly,

Your Kaydet Girl

[hrupdrgs]

Of yearning, confusion and despair

I spend restless nights and dreary days… And ask myself repeatedly, “How can I possibly survive from all this?”. 

Below is a random pint-sized collection of my thoughts these past few weeks which are intentionally polysemous in nature to conceal the apparent involvement of a particular individual. Ride the feels train with me as you catch a glimpse of my soul.

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Another day has elapsed

Still, I can't stop looking at my phone

Often I yearningly try to ask myself

Could I really survive from this?

Oh these countless butterflies in my stomach

Flutter their wings in joy as we finally speak

Giggling as I send my replies

Thrilled as I receive yours

All those days and months of longingness

Swiftly perished by your beaming face

A paramount man in the making

Be patient and all will fall in place

Today your hard nights are tremendous

Tomorrow you'll wear your badge so gleaming

Destined for the greatest fate

I, for one, am your first-hand witness

Here and now may be the hardest

But my cadet, forever I will be a staunch

Patiently lingering I will always be

This I swear, committed and unwavered.

- your kaydet girl

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No silent modes

That's for sure.

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A PLEBE’S KG

Found myself gazing on my phone Anxious, when can I get a call? The novice knight I still can’t own Where are you when you are my all?

All giddy when I get a pop Only to get a sullen bliss Slain, tired, longing in tears to stop Rage from superiors you can’t please

Darling, hold on with all your might Soon, I’ll soothe your pain with a kiss Never lose hope in that foresight Rewards await in the abyss

Today you’re damsel in distress Tomorrow, one of the elites Starting below makes you no less Wait until reality hits

Carry on, get that shining badge Pride of the stronghold soon you’ll be Destined for greater sabotage Aim honors with your cavalry

Back home, redemption awaits you To slap you back to sanity I will change your monochrome hue To the color it used to be

“'Sang alaws another duty" A line alerting your farewell I understand that you’re busy ‘Til next time. I love you like hell