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Hyukjae and his longtime friend developed romantic feelings for one another somewhere along the road. However, both are willing to die with this secret held tight in order to save their friendship from falling apart. Between the worry of damaging her idol friend’s image and growing popularity and him not wanting to put her through the torture and torment that saessangs and hate, the only logical option in regards to their feelings for one another is to keep them silent and ignored. But is this secret really one that should be kept?

Original Request by @bokkibunny

Genre: angst, fluff, friends to lovers

Pairing: Lee Hyukjae x Fem!Reader

Warnings: saesangs talk, feelings of insecurity, jealousy, mutual pinning, hate,

Posting Schedule: July 19th, 23rd, 25th, 29th

Total Word Count: 3.9K words

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Chapters:

Secrets

Avoidance

Fights

Reconciliation

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Secrets | Lee Hyukjae

Chapter Two - Avoidance

Summary: Hyukjae and his longtime friend developed romantic feelings for one another somewhere along the road. However, both are willing to die with this secret held tight in order to save their friendship from falling apart. Between the worry of damaging her idol friend’s image and growing popularity and him not wanting to put her through the torture and torment that saessangs and hate, the only logical option in regards to their feelings for one another is to keep them silent and ignored. But is this secret really one that should be kept?

Original Request by @bokkibunny

Genre: angst, fluff, friends to lovers

Pairing: Lee Hyukjae x Fem!Reader

Warnings: saesangs talk, feelings of insecurity, jealousy, mutual pinning, hate

Word Count: 1.0k words

Writing Playlist

Playlist

Masterlist | <- Previous | Chapter Three ->

The first few days following the kiss at the bar between you and Hyukjae were awkward to put it plainly. At first the two of you danced around the issue, thinking that if you both pretended it had never happened things would be fine. After all, if something can be out of sight out of mind, then if it’s out of mind it never happened to begin with. Solid reasoning in both of you opinions – and it probably would’ve worked well for longer than it did had word about the incident not spread among the rest of the members.

From that point forward, you and Hyukjae began avoiding each other. Neither of you was able to handle the tensions that became more and more apparent with each look and glance from his friends and manager.

Avoidance seemed like the only logical and immediate thing either of you could do at that moment.

Neither of you even thought to object to it for the sake of the other, because at the end of the day even if you were hurting or plagued with irrepressible thoughts of shame and regret for doing what you had consumed the two of you individually but you wouldn’t let the other know.

You couldn’t let each other know.

~~~

Your leg shook as your eyes glanced at the cafe door every time it opened hoping Heechul would be the person to walk into the establishment.

How did you end up in this cafe waiting for him? 

You cracked. The countless weeks of avoiding Hyukjae as though he were the kryptonite to your Superman was getting to be too much. You missed – yearned for – his presence. Wanted him to smile at you like he had always done. Make you laugh to the point where you nearly wet yourself from how funny he was. Wanted so badly to just stare at his face as he held a conversation with Donghae or teased the shit out of Jonghoon for the smallest of things.

You wanted him back to normal and interacting with you.

Or maybe you wanted to test the waters and see just how far you would be able to go with him if given the chance. If he accepted you, you’d worship the very ground he walked on and spend the rest of your moral life letting him know how much you loved and cared deeply for him. If only you–

“You look rough,” Heechul greeted as he slid into the seat across from you, sporting a baseball cap and blackface mask to hide his identity as best as possible. “You both look the same, you know. Maybe I should’ve told him to come here to ‘meet’ with me and forced the two of you to talk it out.”

“Shhh!” you whispered, looking around you to see if any of the other cafe patrons had heard him. “Don’t say shit like that in public where anyone could hear you!”

Heechul rolled his eyes, removing the mask and adjusting his cap, “Alright so what is it that’s plaguing you other than the idea that he feels guilt or regrets kissing you?”

“Everything?” you offered, earning an eyebrow raise to keep going. “I’m afraid if I say something about the…incident, I could not only lose a friend but also any chances of mending things. I’m afraid that I could ruin his career if I pose the possibility of being something more with him and he accepts. I’m afraid of what the public will think – what the fans will think and say. The media. The hate.”

Heechul’s sharp gaze softened as you listed everything out.

“Are you afraid to be happy with him?”

Every single thought running rampant through your mind stopped. For the first time in what felt like weeks a single question had a clear answer and filled you with some form of comfort. You weren’t afraid of that at all. You weren’t even afraid of the possibility that you wouldn’t be happy with him because that could never happen.

“I don’t know what to do,” you groaned, letting your head fall into your hands, fingers raking through your hair.

Heechul reached over, placing his hands around your wrists and pulling them away carefully.

“Stop being an idiot and go to him or at least text him saying you want to meet for one. I’m sick and tired of seeing the two of you pinning over one another. It makes me feel like shit for not doing anything. I’d rather be teasing the two of you for being all lovey dovey or for doing some cute annoying couple shit in front of me.”

Letting out a deep breath you nodded, “I’ll do that,” he smiled waiting for you to pull out your phone and follow through. “In two days.” 

~~~

Neither of you were aware of the phone pointed in your direction discretely recording you both for the rest of your meeting as you chatted and laughed like the pair of friends you were. Neither of you could’ve even expected the shit storm that was about to strike and force you to act quicker than you had originally planned.

~~~

Hyukjae raised his eyebrow as he watched his manager run past him down the hall to the PR office, face paler than a sheet. He couldn’t even the last time the man had run that quickly. Feeling his phone buzz in his pocket, he pulled it out and opened the group chat, seeing a message from Leeteuk.

It was a link to an article claiming a Super Junior member was dating a noncelebrity.

He swore his heart stopped at the thought that it could be a video that surfaced from the night of the incident. Clicking on the link, he honestly wished it had been a video of that. He felt his blood boil as he saw a woman – face blurred, but clearly you – hug Heechul before parting ways directly outside the entrance of a cafe.

Shoving his phone in his pocket he rushed out of the agency making his way on foot to your home.

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Secrets | Lee Hyukjae

Chapter Two - Avoidance

Summary: Hyukjae and his longtime friend developed romantic feelings for one another somewhere along the road. However, both are willing to die with this secret held tight in order to save their friendship from falling apart. Between the worry of damaging her idol friend’s image and growing popularity and him not wanting to put her through the torture and torment that saessangs and hate, the only logical option in regards to their feelings for one another is to keep them silent and ignored. But is this secret really one that should be kept?

Original Request by @bokkibunny

Genre: angst, fluff, friends to lovers

Pairing: Lee Hyukjae x Fem!Reader

Warnings: saesangs talk, feelings of insecurity, jealousy, mutual pinning, hate

Word Count: 1.0k words

Writing Playlist

Playlist

Masterlist | <- Previous | Chapter Three ->

The first few days following the kiss at the bar between you and Hyukjae were awkward to put it plainly. At first the two of you danced around the issue, thinking that if you both pretended it had never happened things would be fine. After all, if something can be out of sight out of mind, then if it’s out of mind it never happened to begin with. Solid reasoning in both of you opinions – and it probably would’ve worked well for longer than it did had word about the incident not spread among the rest of the members.

From that point forward, you and Hyukjae began avoiding each other. Neither of you was able to handle the tensions that became more and more apparent with each look and glance from his friends and manager.

Avoidance seemed like the only logical and immediate thing either of you could do at that moment.

Neither of you even thought to object to it for the sake of the other, because at the end of the day even if you were hurting or plagued with irrepressible thoughts of shame and regret for doing what you had consumed the two of you individually but you wouldn’t let the other know.

You couldn’t let each other know.

~~~

Your leg shook as your eyes glanced at the cafe door every time it opened hoping Heechul would be the person to walk into the establishment.

How did you end up in this cafe waiting for him? 

You cracked. The countless weeks of avoiding Hyukjae as though he were the kryptonite to your Superman was getting to be too much. You missed – yearned for – his presence. Wanted him to smile at you like he had always done. Make you laugh to the point where you nearly wet yourself from how funny he was. Wanted so badly to just stare at his face as he held a conversation with Donghae or teased the shit out of Jonghoon for the smallest of things.

You wanted him back to normal and interacting with you.

Or maybe you wanted to test the waters and see just how far you would be able to go with him if given the chance. If he accepted you, you’d worship the very ground he walked on and spend the rest of your moral life letting him know how much you loved and cared deeply for him. If only you–

“You look rough,” Heechul greeted as he slid into the seat across from you, sporting a baseball cap and blackface mask to hide his identity as best as possible. “You both look the same, you know. Maybe I should’ve told him to come here to ‘meet’ with me and forced the two of you to talk it out.”

“Shhh!” you whispered, looking around you to see if any of the other cafe patrons had heard him. “Don’t say shit like that in public where anyone could hear you!”

Heechul rolled his eyes, removing the mask and adjusting his cap, “Alright so what is it that’s plaguing you other than the idea that he feels guilt or regrets kissing you?”

“Everything?” you offered, earning an eyebrow raise to keep going. “I’m afraid if I say something about the…incident, I could not only lose a friend but also any chances of mending things. I’m afraid that I could ruin his career if I pose the possibility of being something more with him and he accepts. I’m afraid of what the public will think – what the fans will think and say. The media. The hate.”

Heechul’s sharp gaze softened as you listed everything out.

“Are you afraid to be happy with him?”

Every single thought running rampant through your mind stopped. For the first time in what felt like weeks a single question had a clear answer and filled you with some form of comfort. You weren’t afraid of that at all. You weren’t even afraid of the possibility that you wouldn’t be happy with him because that could never happen.

“I don’t know what to do,” you groaned, letting your head fall into your hands, fingers raking through your hair.

Heechul reached over, placing his hands around your wrists and pulling them away carefully.

“Stop being an idiot and go to him or at least text him saying you want to meet for one. I’m sick and tired of seeing the two of you pinning over one another. It makes me feel like shit for not doing anything. I’d rather be teasing the two of you for being all lovey dovey or for doing some cute annoying couple shit in front of me.”

Letting out a deep breath you nodded, “I’ll do that,” he smiled waiting for you to pull out your phone and follow through. “In two days.” 

~~~

Neither of you were aware of the phone pointed in your direction discretely recording you both for the rest of your meeting as you chatted and laughed like the pair of friends you were. Neither of you could’ve even expected the shit storm that was about to strike and force you to act quicker than you had originally planned.

~~~

Hyukjae raised his eyebrow as he watched his manager run past him down the hall to the PR office, face paler than a sheet. He couldn’t even the last time the man had run that quickly. Feeling his phone buzz in his pocket, he pulled it out and opened the group chat, seeing a message from Leeteuk.

It was a link to an article claiming a Super Junior member was dating a noncelebrity.

He swore his heart stopped at the thought that it could be a video that surfaced from the night of the incident. Clicking on the link, he honestly wished it had been a video of that. He felt his blood boil as he saw a woman – face blurred, but clearly you – hug Heechul before parting ways directly outside the entrance of a cafe.

Shoving his phone in his pocket he rushed out of the agency making his way on foot to your home.

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Merry Christmas everyone ❤

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would your ever or plan to write blurbs for 24 face?? like about the wedding or if they plan to have kids??

Ah, I don't want to promise anything but if I do, I would let you know😊

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AHHH HI YOURE BACK :D

Hello👀👀 I've rarely opened this account but I tried every now and then 🤓 I saw a lot going on during my break

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24 face is so good!!!

Aw, thank you anon! 🤗🤗🤗

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Eh, it's been a while

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Now THAT was hot

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please protect muslim girls who are harassed for:

Wearing the hijab

Not Wearing the hijab

Wearing makeup + Skinny jeans with their hijab

Wearing the hijab but not being religious

being religious but not wearing the hijab

not fitting the quiet stereotype

fitting the quiet stereotype

Just Please protect Muslim Girls.

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please protect muslim girls who are harassed for:

Wearing the hijab

Not Wearing the hijab

Wearing makeup + Skinny jeans with their hijab

Wearing the hijab but not being religious

being religious but not wearing the hijab

not fitting the quiet stereotype

fitting the quiet stereotype

Just Please protect Muslim Girls.

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Harry for Gucci by Harmony Korine

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one direction’s announcement that zayn had left the band was posted at 11:30pm for jakarta (4:30pm uk time). where jakarta had juST had a 1d otra concert like there would’ve still been people leaving the concert when they found out rip like no matter what your story is about how you found out zayn left 1d it cannot be as bad as literally still leaving a stadium from a 1d show and finding out omfg

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strawberry lime