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What happened to me since....2016?

Part 2

Meanwhile in university I joined the Furry Fandom and with that joined the local groups. There was NOBODY welcoming the new face. Like an admin or somebody should have greeted at least....

But there is was left alone, again. Maybe that same day a certain Space Cat PMed me and greeted. His name is Mw and was an admin for groupany years.

We started to talk in June, middle of my semester exams and by August we became a couple! This year marks our 4th anniversary 🥰

With him the yeara were easier and bareable. Honestly i had many issues in uni....but he was there for me no matter the distance of half country.

As both of us graduated i move to him. Maily the family's house and to his room. It's really small 4x4 meter only. It got even smaller with my fursuit workshop tools!

Next part will tell about that!

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@the-kits-oc is up and running!

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Ima make this a real rambling place to myself. Or at least will try. So let's start by what happened since.....2016?

That same year got into a university to Visual Representation BSC. It was interesing to say so. They didn't let us artist to express ourselves BUT the younger ones under us they were PRAISED. Honestly they only did pinterest aesthetics. Once I said out loud to my friend on a semester show-off "I saw that same thing on Pinterest a week." Whatever... Graduated in 2019 June.

Let's put these into parts :3 I rant a lot then disappeare again for years haha

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I dont know what you mean by color but I was your "mama" in the speaks lol

God my memo is hekkles but...Brigette? Come to me PM pls :’3 

This is so exciting

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Im someone who remembers you as Shüpp!

Tell me your color :3 I’m really happy yall guys remember me

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Had plans to come back to Tumblr.

Mainly to start off my "The Kits OC" series of:

Showing off my charas

They were made in a 3+ yrs old ON-GOING rp line

Do some Q&A with them

Develop their chara more

Interract with ALL of you not just a few rp ppl

So I hope in the future can launch them. Basic site here is done, just needs some pampering~

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youre back!! :O

I'm back dear Anon :3

Idk who you are but you are APPRECIATED!

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♡

💚

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I fucking see you Tumblr. I see you making “evil cuphead AU” art. This is how it starts. Stop that immediately.

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WEEEEEEEEEW LAAAD

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I do feel like I need to change, not just for me, but for my dear. He's strong in head and helpful, one of the many traits I love in him.

Thinking I'm not able to change is bad. Didn't really realize till the end. Fearing to loose him hurts, but can I ever change? To be better?

I could do it before, couldn't I? So....why can't now? Out with the Bad, in with the Good. Old memories, fears, blocks begone.

If I was manage to get and STAY in university, cook my own meal, make art, plushies and fursuits, than what's the hold up?

I even bought a book. A little.... guiding.... But He's my Guider.

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I think I'm happy now. Can't say how or why though, but yeah.

It's deep feeling and it's amazing yet frightening. I love him and would give everything I can. But I still live in my little castle.

This castle of misery, fears and suffering. He said he's seeing me suffering and saddens him.

I don't want him to be sad, never. If I'm there next to or not I don't want to.

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I still live.

Don't care for anything, just myself now.

New times.

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7 Things that Block your Happiness

1. Self hatred and self blame

2. Not being able to let go of the past.

3. Not being able to forgive yourself.

4. Not being able to cherish who you are.

5. Needing other to validate you.

6. Letting other people define who you are.

7. Trying to be perfect, and to please everyone.

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