hydrajie

[hydrajie]

2021

on 2021

I just want to be able to love myself undoubtedly, unconditionally, endlessly. 

[hydrajie]

13 August 2020, 21.00 pm

I lost my job.

[hydrajie]

Ada. Banyak salah kau kat aku. Fikir lah sendiri apa salah kau. One of it is ignoring me when i need you the most. Oh and satu lagi. Gelak kan aku sebab aku kerja gaji sikit. Laughing at how much people earn every month is never a good idea. Dont do that please. You never know how hard people struggle to put food on the table. Sumpah offended gila bila kena gelak sebab gaji sikit.

[hydrajie]

Ada bagus nya jugak kau resign setan hahhaahah. Macam bodo je buat keja byk sikit nak mengeluh. Its your fucking job you stupid! Pastu kalau dah taw tu bukan keje kau tak payah lag sibuk nak buat kan jgk. Pastu buat muka nak marah marah. Kalau kau tak buat pun bukan kau yg kena marah lah babiiiii. Tolong lahhhhhh resign for good. Menyampah taw tak hari hari nak kena hadap muka kau tu. Babi babi babi!!!!! 🐷🐷🐷🐷🐷🐷🐷🐷

[hydrajie]

Kalau kau ingat aku nak layan kau punya moody, well mmg takkkk lahhhhh. Pi lantak kau lah situ moody sensorang. Hempas lah segala barang yg ada i dont give a single fuck sis

[hydrajie]

Penat taw tak nak kena jadi fake setiap kali kau mencarut. Nak kena iya kan aje benda bodoh kau cakap.

[hydrajie]

Cam bodoh siot perangai. Semua benda tak kena kat mata kau. Ada je nak complain. Pastu sibuk nak pening kan kepala fikir masalah orang. Aduduu sisss apa masalah kau laaaa. Tak payah sibuk lah hal orang. Biar la dia pandai pandai la dia nak fikir masalah dia sendiri.

[hydrajie]

Kau nak stress ke nak moody ke tlg moody sensorg eh kak. Aku takde masa nak layan moody kau. Tolong la belajar skit tak libatkan org setiap kali kau moody. Kau igt aku kisah ke kau nak moody? Bodoh. Resign la cepat sikit. Semak je.

[hydrajie]

Cried all day yesterday. Still cant get over you. Im just sad. So sad. I feel so broken. Its heartbreaking knowing that youre married now. Why not me? It should be me. 😔i felt so fragile right now. I dont have anyone to tell this. Im all alone again. Tak taw la sampai bila nak nangis. Why la kita kenaaaaaallllll?

[hydrajie]

I just want someone to be proud of me 🙍🏻

[hydrajie]

Its okay. You can do this. You'll be alright. You'll be okay. You can get over this. I'll be okay. I can do this. Its hard but i will make it thru. This too shall pass. I can get thru anything. Im strong. I can forget him. I can get over him. I can move on from him. I CAN AND I WILL. It takes time but its gonna be worth it. Okay? Okay.

[hydrajie]

So this is how it feels like getting your heart broken by someone you love eh? It hurts.

[hydrajie]

Im sad. So sad. Been crying since last night knowing that ur married. Sedih yg paling sedih sampai tak mampu nak nangis. And the last time im like this was when arwah aki pass away. i feel so empty. I cant do anything. Cant cry. Cant talk. Frozen. Cant move. Koyak paling koyak sekali. I felt so heartbroken.

[hydrajie]

You're finally married ☹️😔😞I lost you. I lost my go to person. I lost my favourite guy. And i lost myself too. Happy newly wed my ultimate favourite crush. Whatever someone you become, wherever you are in the world, you're my favourite guy till the end. I wish nothing but happiness to you and your wife. Semoga sampai syurga. And semoga orang boleh move on dari awak.

[hydrajie]

Why is everyone trying my patience today? From that slut to this human in my house right now.

[hydrajie]

Kalau balik rumah tu senyap je tak blh ke? Semak ah bising bising. Kau takde aman je rumah. 😡

[hydrajie]

Everything in here, is pointless and worthless. Definitely not worth your time.