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I haven’t logged on to this site in years, my entire dashboard is five people over and over, and I only remember who three of them are.

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Hey, what’s up, I haven’t signed in since The Great NSFW-pocalypse even though that’s never what I used Tumblr for it just seemed like a real bad move for sex workers? Anyway, Magic: the Gathering isn’t fun anymore because Standard fell out of the back of a truck and rolled down a hill into an open sewer and everyone who plays Arena only plays really good decks and piloting trash against tier four meta decks is the only thing I actually like. Also, there’s a global pandemic, I have too much time and not enough emotional fortitude and even six months in I haven’t adapted my heuristic for determining which battles I should actually fight and yelled at people on Reddit for explaining how they, as cis-het white people without financial anxiety think we should solve the problems of queer trans people.

I think I need to step back from the Ex-JW community, again (at least as it exists on Reddit, the only place I’m remotely connected to it anymore--I like Lloyd Evans’ YouTube videos, but he has a tendency to take an hour to say what he could in 20 and I’m kind of off that for now)? My mom’s still in, I still feel like I’m walking on eggshells to maintain the tenuous relationship I have with her which I place a lot of value in, and I just sort of want to know what’s going on in that world. But nowhere is safe from the scourge of “let’s just agree to disagree” when the topic being put up for debate is the safety and civil liberties of my community.

Anyway, hi, how are you? I started estrogen in March, it’s going well, I cry watching Sabaton music videos now, and I bought a Fender even though I’ve spent the past 15 years calling them boring guitars (it’s a Jazzmaster, I bought it with money I inherited from my grandmother who liked jazz, it seemed appropriate, the pickups are weird; they aren’t P90s; and their bass response gives me warm fuzzy feelings inside). Have a lovely day!

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The number of messages I’ve failed to answer across all my devices and media platforms will be weighed against my soul on judgment day, and I will be cast into hell

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The most interesting thing to me about this incredibly depressing article about opioid overdoses is that it features practically zero institutional incompetence or callousness. The police in this small town of 50,000, which saw 26 opium overdoses one Monday afternoon, have training in saving lives; when they’re called about addicts they are trained to get them medical attention instead of to throw people in jail; the paramedics are really experienced at handling opioid overdoses; there are community rehab programs and the government officials quoted don’t dehumanize or dismiss addicts. There’s a syringe exchange; there’s a detox for babies born with drug addictions and several for adult addicts, albeit with long waiting lists.

When I read about public health crises I usually expect to read about serious systemic incompetence, and usually about populations suffering because no one actually cares about helping. Maybe the story’s painting too rosy a picture, but the community characterized is one which responded to a drug crisis by immediately rolling out lots of treatment, harm-reduction, and public safety measures. 

And yet the situation is still a complete unmitigated disaster and tons of people are dying senselessly. 

When a town mishandles its overdose deaths by criminalizing addicts and harassing people who call in overdoses and beefing up a police force with a record of violence, then I’m bothered by the senseless tragedy of the subsequent deaths but there’s a sense of ‘okay, we know what to do about this’. But when we’ve done all the things we know to do about this and things are still getting worse, then that’s just kind of terrifying. 

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Void Juice®

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I used to think that adulthood was one crisis after another. I was wrong.

as it turns out, adulthood is multiple crises, concurrently, all the time, forever

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just because you don’t look like somebody who you think is attractive doesn’t mean you aren’t attractive. flowers are pretty but so are christmas lights and they look nothing alike

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Falling with style. (via qoomaiboo)

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You are sensitive, you are a badass. This song is on our new album, and you can back it on Kickstarter now!

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Don’t call women females. it’s fucking weird and it makes you look like an alien.

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Previous reports of how queer I am were VASTLY understated.

More at 11:00.

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look at this butch/femme couple pixel from 2008

i hope theyre happy

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more things like this in 2k17 please

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anyway i hate how tumblr is now only focusing on wlw and mlm 

so to NB people with queer attractions: 

i love you 

you are not “basically straight” 

you are awesome

you don’t have to fit into a binary box for your attractions to be queer and valid

it’s ok if you’re still learning to love yourself because it’s hard

regardless of your appearance you are valid and your attractions and how you label them are valid

stay hydrated as best you can 

regardless of whether you lean masc, femme, in between, whatever other direction you want, or don’t have a direction at all, you are valid and your attractions and how you label them are valid

i hope you find money on the sidewalk and your favorite candy is on sale

i hope you get to pet a cute dog next time you go out

i’ll fight anyone who gives you shit

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remember when lol meant “laughing out loud” instead of “this is to indicate that this brief text isn’t hostile”