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Chapter three is up! Had fun writing this.

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Okay... so I'm curious.

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Just some fun fanart because I am in a drawing mood.

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This was something I made for my magical girl Cale idea. It was meant to be Cale using his magical girl weapon to reminisce about team leader and Choi jung soo by projecting them through his memories. I do like it. However, mid way through the drawing, I realized that it felt out of character for Cale to just sit down and reminisce... so it's unfinished, but it's also here since I thought it looked pretty.

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Cale and Choi han team up to cook Korean food.

However, they are both terrible at cooking.

And now Vicross is out for blood.

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Every time I see Clopeh's name mentioned in the posts of people who read the raw chapters, I want to bust out the Google translate.

But then I see the screenshots, and... I hate it. I wouldn't be able to handle the name switching and all that, kudos to those who can.

So I have to wait for more Clopeh content, that's fine. I can be patient... but..

ONCE I GET MORE CLOPEH CONTENT, CAN WE BRING BACK JO HO SHIK?? I KNOW I'M PROBABLY GOING TO LIKE THE NEW CHARACTERS TOO BUT COME ON, GIVE ME HIM BACKKKK

...I feel like my favorite characters have a typing...

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I think this is a pretty good source.

It has common Korean names and even explains the name meaning and structure. Also, I promise I tried to make this a comment, but it just wasn't working for some reason. Sorry about that.

Anyone know how to find good Korean names for Team 1 characters in TCF?

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Chapter Two is up! Took a little while longer than I wanted, but school is getting in my way. Also, for some odd reason, the end note of chapter one has been copied over to the end note of the second chapter, and I don't know how to get rid of it. Please send help.

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With feedback, I went back and fixed it! I'm more happy with even though the editing isn't perfectly smooth! The beginning is the same, but I made more edits, so it doesn't feel too repetitive.

Couldn’t do this in a reblog for some reason? So sorry about that!

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So like, I made a 'taking what's not yours' edit for TCF, I feel something is missing from it but I can't tell what so Yep, here it is.

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(It has worked)

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Sooo... I have another fanfic idea! This one is gonna be longer and therefore chapters probably won't be up for a bit because i need to make a good base.

But the idea is basically, Rok Soo got put into little kid Cale right after the funeral.

This would allow me to have fun with some relationships that we don't get to see a lot like with Eric and allow me to change some relationships, too, since Cale would have never been trash.

Like imagine with me, kid Vicross being akward around Cale but also trying to cheer him up in tiny ways because he finds it so jarring that the cherry kids that used to annoy him to play now didn't even smile.

Or Cale, Eric, Amiru, and Gilbert becoming a close friend group.

Of course, there would be other developments, but if I rant about them all in this post, then what would be the point in writing the story?

Lemme know if this is a good idea or if I should just it rot!

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I have officially started a new fanfic. It's the fanfic of my previous fanfic idea post where Rok Soo gets placed into the child body of Cale.

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Okayy so like I should be writing rn but...

LOOK AT THIS- I AM DOING SO GOOD! I'M RENDERING AND I JUST FEEL SO COOL AND LIKE ANOTHER SYNONYM FOR COOL

My ego is so big right now, and I love it.

This is a drawing of little Rok Soo, by the way! He's hiding from his uncle currently.

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WHO WAS GOING TO TELL ME THAT WHEN WE FIRST SEE VICROSS THAT HE IS 30??? I THOUGHT HE WAS ONLY LIKE 6 YEARS OLDER THAN CALE. A NICE CLEAN 25!

I am flabbergasted.

My ideas and dynamics for an akward teen Vicross and kid Cale were almost lost due to this setback.

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Sooo... I have another fanfic idea! This one is gonna be longer and therefore chapters probably won't be up for a bit because i need to make a good base.

But the idea is basically, Rok Soo got put into little kid Cale right after the funeral.

This would allow me to have fun with some relationships that we don't get to see a lot like with Eric and allow me to change some relationships, too, since Cale would have never been trash.

Like imagine with me, kid Vicross being akward around Cale but also trying to cheer him up in tiny ways because he finds it so jarring that the cherry kids that used to annoy him to play now didn't even smile.

Or Cale, Eric, Amiru, and Gilbert becoming a close friend group.

Of course, there would be other developments, but if I rant about them all in this post, then what would be the point in writing the story?

Lemme know if this is a good idea or if I should just it rot!

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I had looked around and couldn't find anything, and I think the reason for that is because of how detached the White Star is from a normal person. He can’t feel, both figuratively and physically, and his only goal is power, which can be hard to understand. If I had to give my two cents on it, the White Star is someone who made one goal when he was far too young and then already went too far to even think about changing his mind.

I think this makes sense because only someone young and dumb would take on a curse that doesn't allow you to feel affection or heat or anything of the sort. That means that the White Star must have been young when he made that plan to follow and try and finish off what the ancient White Star failed to do.

And when he starts this plan, he already passes the point of no return. This means that now, his only life's purpose is to become God. People are goal oriented, so he has to work towards this goal, or else he will really have nothing. There is no use in trying to love someone or helping people because he any affection he has will make the person die. I would imagine that the White Star in his first few runs did find people he habored affection for, not romantically or anything like that, just a like. Of course, these people would die, and then it would really hammer it home that he isn't allowed to be human anymore.

He must become god, or he will become nothing. He will just be a clump of flesh if he gives up on this goal since he has lost his rights as a normal human being.

Also, the thought of him thinking about what if he didn't do all this also lingers in my mind because, in the beginning, wasn't he excited that Cale was chasing after him? He liked the thought of having a fated enemy, and I think that's because it brought in a feeling he hasn't felt in decades upon decades, or perhaps the feeling of a challenge got him up and moving.

So, um, that's my thoughts on the White Star. A man who made his choice. A choice that doesn't allow him to be a human, leaving him with only his goal to become a God. Sorry I couldn't find anything! Also... I wrote this at 1 a.m, sooo if there is anything that sounds confusing, I blame my lack of sleep.

Does anyone have a character analysis on White Star?

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ORV X OG!CALE

More under the cut because this post is a bit of a long one!

When the apocalypse first started, Cale did not think he was going to survive because he did not like the idea of killing someone. However, Ron came to save the day! Ron got his kill and made sure Vicross got his before ordering him to protect Cale much to Vicross' dismay. Ron basically subdued multiple people who looked like they were going to kill the Henituse family and brought them for others to kill. (He mainly does this because he sees this as a good time to repay a favor and later stays because he sees there is some stability still in the Henituse territory.) This allows the Henituse family to survive.

Cale was honestly surprised he made it even if he didn't really have to do anything other than kick down and stomp onto his morals. Now, as time continues on, surviving with his family and the scary duo of Ron and Vicross becomes easier, and they start to see through his trashy mask.

Because would trash repeatedly check up on them and donate coins when they are running low? No, trash wouldn't, but Cale does. Cale starts to hunt monsters with Vicross for food (someone help him, he's terrified but not of the monsters.)

So, the relationships of the family are still strained, but there is a lot less awkwardness. Who knew that all it would take was the end of the world for some improvements. Moving on, on one of their monster hunting trips, they ran into Rok Soo, who was becoming quite popular as a hero. However Cale’s problem was that this dude looked just like him!

There are a lot more run-ins between Cale and Rok Soo before they start talking. Later, when things are becoming even more dangerous, Cale decides to make a deal with the man who was becoming closer and closer to a God each day. Cale said he would do everything and anything for Rok Soo if Rok Soo kept his family safe and happy, Rok Soo had agreed because he needed to Cale act as him.

This later becomes a very common occurrence, Cale would travel places while acting as Rok Soo to confuse the enemy on Rok Soo's whereabouts. This has even worked against the constellations before. Cale helping out Rok Soo so much was beginning to bring up his fame too, his fame as a hero.

He didn't know how to feel about that, but he does know that he has begun to like his lookalike. And that he has gotten very used to having extensions in his hair.

This is why he was rather sad to see his friend become a constellation, but him becoming a constellation was to save their world so he doesn't dwell on it.

With everything over, Cale thought he would go back to being an alcoholic but he was scouted by a group who was trying to revive the arts after the devastating apocalypse. This included dancing and painting, but more importantly, theater. Cale’s acting as Rok Soo has made the group try and bring him into the theater world.

Cale, with nothing better to do, agrees and becomes known as a famous actor. He normally gets casted as Rok Soo (even when he is a character in the play, they cast him as Rok Soo)

He thinks the best part of his new job as an actor is that his family attends all of his plays. He had sent out an invite at first with little hope, but when he saw their faces in the crowd- he didn't know how to describe the feeling.

That's the end of that! And now I give you a very large collection of drawings.

Cale after his performance, it's a bit messy but I was very out of my element here!

Next, we have Cale and Rok Soo hanging out.

Cale was meant to say, "Yep! But only you can tell." Or something along those lines.

And lastly is Cale when this all started.

That's all I got! While I'm here I would just like to thank the people who have left comments on my stuff, it really makes me smile and I always want to reply and say thank you but I don't want to sound like a bot! I always worry about things like that, but I'm trying to get better at it.