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the current trend of "tumblr users embarrassing themselves by proudly announcing why they don't listen to any music made by black people" is really astounding.

i cannot help but think this is a direct result of liberal White Guilt and how people have interpreted "anti-racism" as form of cultural self-segregation - the kind of person who thinks trying to cook chicken curry is cultural appropriation, or sends white people anon hate for wearing a kimono (yes, this kind of discourse happened). like, "oh, no, i could never participate in this culture, i'd get my evil white hands all over it! it would be more Progressive if I only did White things."

if you're a poc you've seen this, i'm sure - this deer-in-the-headlights stare you can get from white people when you play music / show art / share a story / anything that is Racially Coded, this total refusal to actually engage with it out of fear that it is in some way Wrong for them to have any opinion on it. because they read somewhere that it's bad to use AAVE but the only lesson they actually learned from that is "gotcha, white people are not allowed to interact with other cultures as punishment for my White Crimes. this helps to fill up the gaping pit of my white guilt and makes me one of the Good People." this transforms their discomfort around non-white cultures (black culture, especially, i should add) into a kind of virtue

anyway if you are white and reading this. go listen to some fucking haliu mergia. ethiopian jazz. will knock your dick right off. go listen to rap or reggae or bollywood and have a genuine reaction to it - like, an actual, from-the-heart reaction. you are allowed to not like some of it. but you will definitely like at least a little. yes, you can compare it to lemon demon (or whatever) if that helps you get into it and that's your only point of reference. maybe don't say that part out loud. but don't, like, separate yourself from it, like you are seeing it in a museum and the only polite thing to do is go "ahh, huh, very interesting, so much culture here."

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haven’t seen the pitbull tweet yet. very disappointed in you all

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For me, the joy of German - one of the most poetic, swishingly euphonious and liberating languages of the world - lies not just in the sound, but in its very formulation, most significantly the word structure that demands a mixture of independent, off-the-leash creativity and thunderous literal-mindedness, captivating in itself. I’m afraid my off-piste attitude towards, and sometimes clunky coinage of, compound-nouns along with my compulsive comma-usage, may be blamed on the many formative years spent immersed in German prose.

Nigella Lawson

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Molly Knox ostertag and Nate Stevenson in chilshi cosplay😭😭😭😭😭

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like black people are present in every single fucking genre and scene and popularized and straight up created several but people are so fucking hell bent on finding every possible excuse to not engage with their music because its easier than trying to confront their own racism. like okay well if its truly just a disinterest in most rap music then surely you listen to black artists in other genres right? who am i fucking kidding. of course you dont.

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for april fools day next year they shouldn't do anything except just swap the places of the like and reblog buttons and just in their update notes or whatever just next to all the various bugfixes they should just add a little line that says "adjusted ui element placement" with no further explanation or elaboration and then just not say anything else about it

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been styling my hair based on mountain dew flavors

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Thanks for the question, Anon!

-submit your poll!-

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the other day my coworker told a kid to just "squeeze in" next to me. i didn't even really register this remark, i was standing in what was essentially a closet. it's a tight fit for anyone. a few minutes later, she stopped me to apologize for her choice of words. she said she didn't mean to imply anything about my body like that and she wanted to know if i needed anything to feel better.

i am so unaccustomed to anyone else thinking about fat people's needs or feelings that it took me several seconds to even recognize what she was talking about. i didn't know how to respond or what to say. i hadn't registered her comment as potentially fatphobic partially because the space i was in was genuinely very small for an adult of any size but also because i am so used to just not thinking about my body or the ways people are casually cruel to it.

i try to ignore the fact that people scowl and push me in the grocery store. it took my wife pointing out why i am always being slammed into for me to recognize it. i ignore the way people look at me with annoyance on planes or the bus. i ignore the way doctors speak to me, nurses second-guess my words, clothing store employees look at me when i walk into straight size stores.

i ignore when people talk about dieting and weight loss and 'guilty foods' around me, to me, waiting for me to join in on their game. i ignore people's surprise when i talk about enjoying physical activity, eating mostly vegetarian, being a fairly active person

and so it threw me when my thin coworker just...knew what was up. she recognized the potential hurt in her words and came to me about them immediately. i've seen her books about unlearning fatphobia. i know she listens to the same podcast about diet culture and wellness scams that i do. i know it's not just a kindness but an active interest and focus she's undertaking.

it's been a couple weeks but i can't stop feeling seen and known by this. like maybe i can take off those blinders. maybe if i start pointing out people's words, actions, stares, maybe someone will have my back

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Me: Exercise does not cause weight loss. This is a fact that has been demonstrated so robustly in research that even doctors, who hate and fear evidence, are grudgingly starting to admit this.

Someone reading that post: Cool, but have you considered that exercise leads to weight loss?

Me: I am going to eat you

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we as a society moved on from this photoshoot too quick

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reminder that donating just a few $ to gofundme campaigns actually helps, you don't have to donate huge amounts if you don't have the funds, every little bit is useful. give $10, $5, even $1. it all adds up. don't scroll past because you think you can't help. help in your own capacity. donate a dollar. share and speak up.