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Wanna make a monster? Take the parts of yourself that make you uncomfortable-your weaknesses, bad thoughts, vanities, and hungers—and pretend they're across the room. It's too ugly to be human. It's too ugly to be you. Children are afraid of the dark because they have nothing real to work with. Adults are afraid of themselves.

Richard Siken

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Same time next week at the Devil's Sacrament? Okay, sweet. See you then.

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atoms are made of positive parts, negative parts, and neutral parts. the positive parts are attracted to the negative parts and repelled by each other, like magnets. but there's a second force that attracts positive and neutral parts to each other. to have an atom, you need the two forces that govern the parts of the atom to attain celestial harmony, which means you need enough neutral parts to make the positive parts stick together in the middle.

sometimes an atom is permissible but celestially disharmonious, usually because it's too big. there's also an occult diagram that determines which forms of atom are harmonious, but it's usually because it's too big. when this happens, the angels take offense and break it apart. this makes atoms that aren't celestially harmonious into smaller atoms that are, and is where balloon gas comes from: the form of balloon gas is particularly favored by God.

that's all well and good, as such things go. there are rocks that make balloon gas because God thinks their atoms are too big. that's fine. we can use it for balloons. but there's another type of celestial disharmony, caused by a secret third force that does this, where a neutral part of an atom can break into a positive part, a negative part, and a secret third thing called an "anti neutrino", and the atom gets bigger. you can't use this to make explosions, that's a third thing, but you can use it to light exit signs. you probably can't use it to turn base metals into gold either; that's a fourth thing, which is maybe the opposite of the third.

it's really hard to make gold because there's only one kind that isn't so celestially disharmonious that it curses you to death with beams. we wouldn't like gold if it cursed us to death with beams. it does curse us to death, of course, but the harmonious kind doesn't do it with beams.

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i do think that a lot of people mistaking moral ocd for having a moral compass is understandable but also a bit funny. why does your moral compass involve fearing the invisible watchful specter who may be judging your every move lest you make your intentions clear at every turn and over explain your actions. you dont have to answer this question

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Why are you lgbtq+? wrong answers only GO

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the elided second half of "don't call a girl butch just because she's not all the way feminine how you expect" is that that doesn't mean the immediate and sole alternative is fem(me). my goodness. there is so much space outside the butch/femme map.

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People who think Lirin would be transphobic make me laugh. Do you really think he would be upset about Kal coming out as a woman? He'd be more upset that Kal didn't come out sooner and be excused from military duty.

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This is getting ridiculous! Now there are 1+1+2+[...]+n-1+n of them!

this fibonacci joke is as bad as the last two you heard combined

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I do think people should embrace blurring the line between strong platonic and romantic love. I think time spent with loved ones these days is time well spent.

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one thing I really like about my relationship with my boyfriend is that we can express negative feelings about each other's actions without assigning blame or requiring apology. I mean like for morally neutral things like "it drives me crazy when you leave a wet towel on the floor instead of hanging it up"

cause now like instead of "oh I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to drive you crazy, I'm terrible and unsocialized" or "um well that's dumb, who cares" it's like

"it does? I didn't know that. how come?"

"because it will mildew and I keep tripping over it and I don't know whether you intend to reuse that towel or whether it needs to go in the wash"

"okay so usually if I intend to reuse it I hang it up, and if it needs to go in the wash I drop it on the floor. I guess because I thought I shouldn't put it in the hamper because it would get all the other dirty clothes wet and then THEY might mildew before we do the laundry."

"that's valid. what if we have a specific place to hang wet towels that need to be washed? how about this one hook here"

"perfect!"

no hurt feelings, nobody being made to feel shitty and sloppy on one hand or uptight and bitchy in the other hand. just, we're partners right? let's workshop this

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"what a nerd lol" i said with barely controlled lust

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Reblog to hug prev poster (they need a hug)

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the world is a good place because there are good albums that your brain can be incredibly autistic about

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i know some people criticize the “put a bow on a creature so people know its a girl” approach to character design but come on this rules

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anxious-avoidant blogging style

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reblog to diminish the horrors from the person you reblogged from

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Where the locus of someone's gender might be depends strongly on the person. For what I consider to be the most interesting cases, I'll be talking about trans people mostly. There are some who knew from a young age "deep down" what their true gender is, and for them, it might be located in their heart. For others (like me) who realized it older after thinking about it, the brain could be the locus. (I've long maintained that no matter what AGAB I'd been, I would have turned out some kind of trans; it feels like it's my mind that rebels against being forced into one or the other box.)

There are of course those that have a very strong need to have or not have a certain anatomical feature. For them, I can imagine the locus of gender would be there, because that's where their thoughts on gender tend to focus. One interesting case from a cis+ guy I know seems to very strongly associate his gender with his beard, and when forced to shave it described feelings that sounded like gender dysphoria. That could plausibility be his gender's "bind point."

Still others conceptualize their gender through action, since all sorts of tasks people do with their hands are (unnecessarily) gendered, so people with strong feelings about those particular acts might have that be their locus of gender. Even not taking Vorins into account, it seems reasonable that the hands could be where someone's gender lives.

Where do you need to stab someone with a hemalurgic spike to aquire their gender