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Twenty-Something

When you're twenty-three, almost a year postgrad with a B.S in psychology. But you lowkey don't feel twenty-three. You still feel like you don't know what to do with your life, the same way you felt a year ago. (But apparently this is normal for young adults from 20-25- In this society it doesn't seem normal, though). You don't have a dream job, don't care about making money, but at the same time you do care. So you feel like being an entrepreneur would be the best possible route, but you don't know exactly what that path will look like for you, because you're into so many things, and you know that you don't want work to feel like work. You want it to feel fulfilling and exploratory, like a quest. You even want the mundane to feel special. But at the same time, you're scared to take risks. Scared to be present with yourself in a way that doesn't fuel the cycle of stagnancy and the constant circulation of, "I don't know." And not because you truly, don't know. But because you keep second guessing every idea you have. Succumbing to the thoughts that bind your true sense of expression and willpower. The truth in "I don't know," comes from second guessing if it's worth it, to bet on yourself. To not be self avoidant or neglectful to the important things.

One of the things I'm trying to integrate more are: activities, practices, and promises that help me to build self trust, reliance, and confidence. Sometimes, it's definitely hard to convince myself why sticking to my own routines and boundaries, is important.

[iamart31]

My name is Dray, and I’m grateful that you’ve decided to stop by my coo luh spot on the internet!

Over the past several months, into this new year. I have been pondering and contemplating over wanting to give my written thoughts and ideas a home. A home to dive into and expand on the endless entries within my notes app. To share my thoughts and very opinionated view points on themes and topics that span from hair care, to love, philosophy, existentialism, and phenomena that ignites my passion, or pisses me off to the highest degree. And so, from my creative womb, I bring to you the Know Thyself Archive (my blog) which I will extend here because I've always wanted to get into the Tumblr space!!

I believe life is the pursuit of exploration. In my case this exploration spans across different artistic mediums, intellectual and spiritual pathways, healing, emotional and mental processing, deep conversations, life theories, the experience of love, travel adventures, physical movement and embodiment, self restoration practices, magic, and returning again and again back to myself to reflect and to learn even more.